Your bulletproof heart

Hi! I'm 14 years old and mostly interested in writing (though I sing and play several instruments by ear)
most of the ideas in the stories I write are products of dreams or my creativity bursting. I have found that I do enjoy coming up with ideas, but unless I have a constant motivator I can't continue something (that's why most of my fica are short and not updated often)
I find it easier to work with someone, but also harder if it's my story originally. If you do wanna co-op just shoot me a message and I'll see if I want help on the story you ask for!
so past all the fanfiction and writing I don't do very much, I run, sprint, play and watch video games. Reading is an obsession and I can't remember the last time I had nothing to read ( wether it's published books or random stories aside from fanfiction)
I used to play oboe but as my asthma picks up I have found it more and more difficult to play the double reeded bastard that is my plastic wood painted oboe. I used to do color guard but with my running schedule it would be too stressful on my tiny little 120 pound 5'7 frame.
I am a grammar freak so if you do a collaboration with me and your grammar isn't up to par be prepared to have almost every error fixed :)
music is essentially my life and I want to start a band. Problem is Alabama is full of country living hicks so starting a rock ( punk, metal etc.) band isn't exactly the easiest unless you're old enough to drive and your parents are religious hypocrites.
I love MCR, BVB, OM&M, PTV, ATL,SWS, skillet, Flyleaf, deadmou5, and other musical groups.
no I am not great at writing smutt and I don't really enjoy writing it but if you want it eventually it will play out in the story (if the story even calls for it)
I have a bad habit of changing from past tense to present tense so bare with me in the case that I incorrectly use did or doing etc.
I'm pretty sure I have a mild case of anxiety, not sure if I have Bi-Polar depression or if it's just hormones, I was "raped" (touched) so that is a stingy thing and I do have stories that contain it seeing as that's my way to cope without willing out a blade I should have never picked up.
So that's me I suppose congratulations if you read through the whole friggin thing. Have a cookie :) (:•)

also I have been clean for a few days and flushed my blades. I can't get over my ex of about a year now and It's kinda been hard. Bare with me if my Fics contain unrealistic relationships because I don't really remember what it's like to be in one. also if they contain no romantic things aside from Frerard it's probably my personality seeping through since I don't want a relationship