I'm a sinner for love

"Whats that smell.." Frank awoken me from my thoughts
shit. Shit. SHIT

"I uh"
Frank breaks the hug and i look at mikey and he just shrugs his shoulders
"Youre high.." Frank whispers trailing his eyes to the floor
"Yeah but.. only a little" I say
"You didnt want to see me sober did you? You wanted to forget.." HE begins to cry
"No! No its not like that, I came here when you were unconscious and-"
"Nah i heard enough"

"Okay, fuck it" I sigh walking out and sitting outside his door
I look at Mikey walking over to the sobbing Frank.
"He didnt think you were gonna wake up, he was blaming himself Frank.."
Frank stared at mikey
"Like you care anyway" Mikey added walking out and sitting beside me
"I dont understand Mikey, I didnt mean t-"
"Sh, He's not worth your time bro. A true friend wouldnt even care about anything just the person they love and well sorry to break it to you but you deserve better." Mikey said patting me on the back
I let my head rest on his shoulders
"I love him tho"
"I know but sometimes you gotta take time for your self"
"Thank you Mikey" I whispered getting up
Mikey nodded

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I was sitting in starbucks drinking some coffee i randomly ordered to ease the tension.
At the corner of my eye i saw a girl with another girl. It looked like they were flirting with eachother but i wasnt quite sure. I listened more intently with their conversation and it turns out they're gay. I wasnt attending to be creepy or pervy at all because i could tell one of the two noticed me and looked very uncomfortable.
"You like this? Fucking perv" One of them barked
I sighed running a hand through my hair
"First of all, I dont like girls second of all i wasnt trying to come across as a perv. You guys are really cute together i guess?" What else was i supposed to say? I mean that sounds like a more reasonable answer than me saying
'oh i just got kinda rejected and torn apart by my boyfriend' thatd just ruin the mood and make them even more uncomfortable.
"Oh .. sorry. And well thanks" She whispered turning back to her partner.

When i was done my coffee i checked the time and it has been exactly two hours since i left the hospital.
"Can i buy you something?" I heard a deep voice ask
I didnt bother looking up.
"Sure whatever" I said
I mean, why not right? I dont have to move or spend more money its a win win situation. Despite the fact that this guy might want to engage in a conversation. Then nevermind.
The stranger came back with two coffee's and sat down across from me. I took the coffee saying a little 'thanks' then looked down.
"Soo. you searching for cuties here or what?" He asked
Now that sounds pervy.'
"Uhhm not exactly." I said quietly
"Oh because thats what im doing and i think i found one"
I lifted my head and he was biting his lip.
For the love of god, he's coming on to me.
"Listen buddy, im not trying to mingle here. I just needed time away from my boyfrien-"
"Hm thats what they all say. You sure youre not wanting to be loved in the mean time?" He winked at me
"What? No! i dont need whatever youre planning because .. well because"
Frank's angry at me. Mikey said i deserve better. This guy is trying to seduce me.
Everything is just so stressful. I mean i guess Frank was taking things a little too personally with the smell and all that and Mikey told him that i was trying to help. I guess he needs time for him self too right?

"Hellooo you still with me?" The guy asked
"Yeah.. Yeah! Uhm so whats your name?" I figured i mind as well learn his name before i continue calling him 'some guy trying to seduce me by buying me more coffee'
"Ouuu so you do want a conversation going eh. The names Pete"
"No thats not- ok. My names Gerard" I said
"So honey, about your boyfriend. and about not wanting my plans because..?"
I felt the pounding in my head,
"I dont know okay? Im taking a break from a really hard relationship"
"Hey its okay, I'll be here with you as long as you need me" Pete said grabbing my free hand and rubbing it.
"I-uh thanks?"
"Dont mention it sweetie" He said
I laughed at the nickname.
"What?"
"Its just funny i dont know"
"Im going for a smoke, want to join?" He smiled handing me a cig.
Why the fuck not, i could really use a ciggarette.
I joined him outside of the cafe and i took a long drag watching him take his at the corners of my eyes.

"So you seem to like the little connection between us?" Pete whispered into my ear
"Well i dont really have anyone else"
"Mmm i see" he said licking and tugging my earlobe
I nearly choked on my own spit from his actions.
"Want me to stop?" He said while he begin to move down my neck sucking in some areas.
I almost. But didnt. Moan. Fuck i shouldnt be doing this.
I pushed pete away and he stared at me straight in the eyes
"I really shouldnt be doing this, im sorry"
"Baby ... its okay, it looks like you need some relaxing and maybe some pleasure?"
The thought of any kind of pleasure from this guy got my jeans a little tighter.
Okay i admit, hes pretty good looking and he looks like he'd be really great in bed.
But then again .. Frank.
Before i could think further my lips were connected to petes and we were having a long make out session. Sloppy tongues getting caught in each others mouth.
Then. Friction. He started fucking grinding on me. I felt the little twitch my member did and i think Pete did too.
"Ou excited are you? See my plans never fail" Pete took my hand and led me to his truck.

I got in the front seat and he drove to a parking lot a little off road.
"Now babe, The backseat is big enough for both of us. You know what that means?" HE purred hovering over me
I shook my head. Although i knew.
Pete crawled into the backseat and i followed.
He went on top of me and i froze.
"I got condoms dont worry"
"No its not that.. its just i want to lose my v card with him not some random stranger"
"Shit you havent done this before??!"
"no"
"Okay i get it, want a hand job or some shit?" Pete asks sliding his hand into my boxers

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"Thaanks i guess?" I told Pete after he dropped me off at the hospital
"Hey man sorry for just jumping you, youre just way too cute. let me know how things work out" He says parking his car and hugging me.
"I-uh"
"Want me to come in with you?"
I nod.

Us both walk into Frank's room, Mikeys in the middle of talking to him.
"Holy fuck he's hot" Pete whispers to me
"Shut the fuck up hes mine" I hiss
"Yo my names Pete" He walks over to Mikey handing out his hand
"Uhhh im Mikey?" He stares at me and i stifle a laugh
"May i?" Pete points at a chair beside Mikey
"Go for it i guess" He says still staring at me
"Whos that" Frank questions
"Just a friend" I look at Pete and he smiles
"Just a frieeend?!" Frank extends the a and i stare at him
"Yes Frank, Do you not know english" I say walking to his bed
"Well excuse me, atleast im not high" He huffs
"Fraank" I tug on his shirt

"Im only kidding. I missed you"

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