The Hardest Part of This Is Leaving You

Mom dropped me off at home to 'mope'. I didnt see it as mopping at all. Yes I didn't have chemo anymore. That didn't change the fact that I would have to the surgery and take more pills a week than I could count and if need to quit school. That didn't atop mom from saying I should be grateful.
She dropped me off kissing me goodbye and saying shed be back later that night and we could talk. As always Mikey and Frank showed up soon after. Gerard however didn't. I didn't ask and they didn't tell. There wasn't much I could do since Frank was there and Gerard wasn't so anything besides maybe kissing Mikey was off the table. Frank seemed giddy and I couldn't help but be a bit enamored by this mystery.
"What's with you?" I questioned. He giggled a bit grinning and pulling out a little baggie that appeared to be full of oregano, I knew it wasn't of course.
"Frank!" Mikey practically screamed smaking the back of his head. Frank let out an ouch and rubbed his head.
"What Mikey Gerard isn't here, it isn't pain pills or booze or coke or heroine it's just pot" he sighed and I felt my mouth drop a little. Pain Pills? Cocaine? Heroine? Booze? I knew he had problems with drugs and alcohol but I didn't think about that I just sort of couldn't see Gerard stabbing a needle in his arm or smoking anything but his cigarettes which I would occasionally see him smoke. Mikey and Frank argued back and forth like I wasn't there and I ripped the bag from Frank's hand grabbing their attention.
"Dammit Raven" Frank sighed exasperated "Give it back" he held out his hand. I shook my head no. "Come onnnn " he whined "Fine then I'll eat all of the food in the kitchen I'm already sorta coming down from the buzz" he sighed plopping down on the couch spread eagle.
"You already did some?" Mikey hissed at him
"Well duh I wasn't gonna give it to Raven before I tested it myself, she hasn't done any before so why wouldn't I make sure it wasn't top strong or anything" he responded flippantly.
"You were going to give it to Raven?" Mikey asked Frank and I still holding the bag of weed backed of to the bathroom and I heard Frank let out a 'Fuck' and follow me. I started walking a bit faster debating what to do with it, it felt bad to flush it so I hid it in an empty pill bottle in my bathroom flushing the toilet so they would think I d flushed it.
The idea of doing any drugs made me feel a bit ill but I had heard it helped with pain from cancer.So I had it stashed away and Frank was pacing about whining about how I flushed about 30 dollars down the drain literally.

Notes

Thank you for reading hope you enjoyed I'll post more tomorrow or tonight or something sorry it's a bit rushed but I've got family over