The Hardest Part of This Is Leaving You

Mikey backed up dropped his coffee, the glass shattering into thousands of pieces. His eyes flitted down to my wrists. I was wearing a jacket and his eyes tried to burn through the sweatshirt. He couldn't tell anyone. I'd be screwed. Maybe I could convince him it was only the one maybe. He was backing away from me and I began to panic. I grabbed his arm extremely hard and he flinched ripping his arm away.
"Fuc....Owe I think it's bleeding" he muttered pulling his arm to his his chest. I bent down to pick up the razor but, I just couldn't get it.
"Mikey....." Frank walked in taken aback by scene. Mikey clutching his bleeding arm and me trying to pick up the damn razor. " I told you to keep an eye on him Raven" Frank screeched walking over to Mikey going to look at Mikeys arm. I stood up blushing.
"N.....No it was...... It was my razor.....I grabbed Mikeys arm a bit to hard.... I'm sorry" I looked down at my feet pulling down my sleeve.
"Don't lie to protect him" Frank sighed.
"Im not, " I reached into my sweatshirt pocket and began digging around "See" I said holding up the flinging piece of metal. Mickey and Frank's head snapped up.
"Bloody he'll, Mikey living room now" Frank commanded Mikey begrudgingly obeying. "Throw them all away" he tapped his foot impatiently. I walked around inexorably throwing away a lot of them. After I was done he clutched me leading me to the living room pulling me into his lap. Mikey just looked at me sadly and timidly while Gerard gave me a death glare. Later that night whilst everyone was sleeping I slowly tiptoed back to my room. I walked over to my bookshelfe picking the third book from the left on the top shelf. I opened the hollowed out book taking out the small piece of metal. I didn't throw it away.
a few minutes later I heard Mikeys small voice from behind me.
"Im sorry just stop please." He whispered ringing his hands. I flinched pulling the blade away from skin and muttering a 'Fuck' he walked over grabbing my torso from behind.
"Please" he led me over to my bed as I dropped the blade . He walked away grabbing tissues and bandaids. After he cleaned and wrapped my arm tucking me in lying next to me above the blanket. He patted my arm until I fell asleep.

Notes

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