The Fantasy

Frank lie on his bed, staring up at the ceiling as the shrieking tones of Mitch Lucker screamed in his ears.A thin smile crept upon the corners of his mouth. He closed his eyes as thoughts of Gerard began to filter into his mind. He couldn’t block him out. It had been weeks since they had spent any sort of time alone and he missed him.

He sighed, turning up the volume of his iPod as the opening rift to Slaves to Substance began to play in his ears. Their time apart had made him do a lot of thinking. He kept asking himself over and over again if this was what he really wanted. Of course he had feelings for Gerard, but the backlash could be awful. He knew they would both be in serious shit if their relationship were to be made public, he couldn’t bear it if he had Gerard sent to prison over something so petty as falling in love with someone who was only a few years older.

If he was honest with himself, it would probably kill him.

The music suddenly cut off and a loud ringing quickly erupted in his ears, startling him. He grabbed his phone, grinning as he saw Gerard’s name on the caller ID. “Hello stranger” He said into the receiver. A small giggle came from the other end. “Hey Frank, just wondering if you were free tonight?” Gerard asked his voice strangely quieter than usual. Frank hesitated, rising from his bed as he checked his appearance in the mirror. “Ooh I dunno, you’re not asking to sneak out are you” Frank said trying to sort out his fringe; he seriously needed to straighten it. “Maybe...is that a problem?” Gerard asked suggestively. Frank laughed. “You’re a bad influence on me Mr Way, I’ll be over soon” He said, hanging up the phone and grabbing his hoody out of the wardrobe as he made his way out of the house.

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The front door opened and Frank found himself looking into the eyes of Gerard Way. He had changed since they had last met. His hair was now short and his face looked thinner. “The new looks a bit normal for you isn’t it?” Frank joked; a small grin perched upon his face. Gerard smiled the sweet smile which he had almost missed. “Fancied a change” He shrugged, inviting Frank inside. They walked through a corridor and into a white lounge. Frank sat down on the brown leather sofa, glancing over at Gerard who stood at the window, looking out at the world before him. The sunlight shining through touched his black, almost igniting it with a warm glow.
They stood in silence for a while, listening to the clock on the wall loudly tick away the endless minuets. Frank sighed; rubbing the back of his head as he slowly rose to his feet. “Listen; if we’re not gonna say or do anything is there much point in me staying?” He asked, taking a step towards him. He loved spending time with him but this was stupid. He didn’t want to sit around in silence; it was boring as well as pointless.

Gerard turned on his heel, grabbing hold of Frank’s face and shoving his tongue into his mouth; pushing him backward. They clumsily fell to the floor, Gerard moving his lips towards Frank’s neck as he began to kiss down his body. His hands fiddled with the zip of Frank’s jeans, pulling them down revealing his bulging errection. He smirked as his lips touched the tip, sliding his tongue down his lover’s shaft as he took him in the back of his throat. Frank moaned, closing his eyes as he arched his head back; struggling to control himself as Gerard continued to move his head up and down. “Oh god...fuck” he cried, finishing as Gerard held his head in place.

Frank’s cheeks flushed a hot red as Gerard walked out of the room; he had never experienced anything that good before. He dragged his hands down his face, his chest rapidly rising and falling as he tried to get his breath back. Frank slowly pulled on his jeans, refusing to move off the floor. He couldn’t be bothered to move now, he felt too tired to do anything.

He eyed Gerard standing in the door way, his arms folded against his chest as he walked into the living room and took a seat on the sofa. “Hey, come here” Frank said softly, tilting his head back to face him; a large grin perched upon his face. Gerard looked down at him, rolling his eyes before slumping back in the chair. The smile quickly faded from Frank’s lips as he rose to his feet and stood before Gerard who was flicking through TV channels. What was his problem? Did he do something wrong?

“Is everything alright?”

Silence

“Look if I said or did anything I’m sorry Gee”

Silence

Frank groaned, rubbing the back of his head failing to notice Gerard’s face beginning to twist into a sneer. “How am I supposed to know if you’re really committed to me if you won’t even talk to me?” Frank whined, growing impatient of his boyfriend’s childish behaviour. Suddenly Gerard sprung from the sofa, smacking Frank across the face and sending him to the floor. “I’m with you arnt I, how much more commitment do you fucking want” He shouted. A sharp pain flared up in his cheek as he stared wide eyed up at the man, the stranger before him.

Silence hung in the air as tears stung in Frank’s eyes. He gingerly touched his cheek, a burning pain flashed across his face as he looked away from his boyfriend; suddenly afraid to look at him. Gerard stared at him, suddenly snapping back to reality as he reached down to help him. “Frank...I... I’m so sorry” He said softly, reaching out to touch his arm. Frank snatched his arm away. “Get off....Get off me!” He cried, staggering to his feet as he stormed out of the room. Gerard chased after him, shouting out his apologies as he tried to keep up with him; tears streaming down his pallid face as his hands shook by his side.

“Wait, Wait please” He cried, grabbing Frank by the shoulders as he reached the front door. “I swear I’ll never do it again, I’m sorry it’ll never happen again” He whimpered, trying to catch Frank’s eye as he squirmed in his grasp. “Yeah too right you wont” Frank shouted, shoving him off and walking out of the house, tears streaming down his face as Gerard walked after him.
He quickly walked down the street, leaving Gerard alone in the doorway as he struggled to hold himself together. He wrapped his arms around his waist, breathing heavily as his mind wandered from one thought to the next. It was over. They were finished. There was no way he could go back to him after that. How could he treat him like that...

He stopped.

Maybe it was just a mistake

Maybe he really was sorry

He couldn’t leave him, not because of a single moment. This was the man who told him he was beautiful, the man who loved him, the man who cared about him.

Frank slowly turned, walking back down the street towards the house to find Gerard crying on the door step. This was the man who was crying like a boy at the fear of losing me. He sat down beside him, feeling Gerard bury his head into his chest. “I swear I’ll never hurt you again, I promise you it’ll never happen again” He sobbed, wrapping his arms around Frank’s legs as he pleaded with him.

Frank said nothing, wrapping his arms around Gerard’s slender body as he stroked his hair; kissing him on the head reassuringly as he continued to make his apologies.

That day, he went back because of everything good before that day and the hope that afterwards, everything would be the same.

Notes

Is this really just a mistake or is there a darker side to Gerard?

Let me know what you think'll happen next (sorry for the lack of updates, theres hardly any internet here)

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