Mine?Yours.Always?Forever.

Frank’s pov:
It’s been hours since it happened. I refuse to go back home, he’s gonna be there and even worse Lindsey might be still be there. The worst part is: I don’t know where we stand. Are we over? On a break? Working things out? Right now I’m sat in Starbucks. I probably look like crap; I only stopped crying 15 minutes ago. I don’t know why I kept watching the door, I guess I just hoped that he’d come in and tell me he’s sorry. Even though I knew it wouldn’t happen, I could still hope right? I guess all this hope paid off because he walked into Starbucks and my heart instantly dropped. He looked like absolute shit. His eyes were red, puffy and glassy. He wore oversized trackies and he walked like the life had been drained out of him. He quickly glanced around the tiny coffee shop and caught sight of me. For a moment, some emotion flashed through his eyes, maybe guilt? He walked over to me, “Frank, can we talk please” he said shyly, like he was scared I was gonna hit him or something. I could never.

I nodded and followed him out of Starbucks; we walked in silence to a little park by our house. We sat down on a bench and he started to shakily tell me what had happened earlier today. I noticed that he wrapped his arms around himself, like a hug. I wondered why he always did that, it was like he was trying to hold himself together.

“Well Brendon and Ryan were really pissing me off before math so I just left because I didn’t want to bother you on our anniversary; you already do so much for me. I was home for like 5 minutes when I heard the door open and I saw Lindsey standing in the living room. Her presence really irritated me okay but I didn’t want to be rude so I let her stay and chat for a bit. Halfway through our conversation she reached into her shirt and brought out a little bag of coke. We went into our room and I got beer from under the bed, where I hide it. I snorted all the coke and she drank all the beer. She randomly started touching me up and because I was high as fuck, I didn’t stop her. I’m not saying I wanted it, of course I didn’t, I’m with you, but I couldn’t bring myself to stop her. That’s when you walked in. Frank, I’ve been addicted to drugs since I was 14. That’s when things with Mikey and my parents started to get really bad. They made me suicidal. I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want to scare you away, you’re my only friend and I didn’t want to mess it up. On the day we met, I was going to kill myself. But I’ve been trying to get clean, for you. I want us to last. I’m so sorry I hurt you, please forgive me.” he said. He shakily reached for my hand and entwined our fingers, giving our hands a little squeeze.

That hit me like a ton of bricks. My boyfriend, the man I love, is a drug addict. And I didn’t even know. Now I understand why he always hugged himself, tried to hold himself together. He was already falling apart. “You should’ve told me. You should’ve known that I would always be here. How do you expect me to protect you from your own self if you don’t let me in? You have to understand that I love you so much. I can’t even imagine a life without you by my side. I hate to see you this way, I’ll help as much as I can but really it’s all up to you. You have to try to get clean, if not for me then for yourself.” I said. He didn’t say anything for a couple of minutes. “You love me?” he said in a small voice, as if I was joking. “Of course I do. I used to hate love, used to think it’s stupid. But now, with you, I see why that’s what some people want in life. I know it’s only been a month, but Gerard, there is honestly no one in this world I would rather be hopelessly in love with.” I said, not realizing that I was crying. He sat there for another couple of minutes, not saying anything. Then finally he said “Frankie, I love you too. More than you will ever know. You help me so much and you let me live in your house. I couldn’t have asked for anyone better to love more than anything. Thank you so much for being you and accepting me for me, being this fucked up mess. All I’ve ever wanted is someone to love, that could love me back and now I have you. That’s more than I could ever ask for.” He said, tears in his eyes. I didn’t care what people thought, right then, the whole world disappeared and it was only us.
He leaned down and pressed his lips onto mine softly, at first barely there. His free hand settled on my cheek while mine went to tangle my fingers into his hair and pull softly. I licked and bit his lower lip and he opened his mouth, moaning quietly. Our tongues met and we both shivered at the contact. Our mouths and tongues moved perfectly, but slowly and passionately. I’ve never actually kissed a guy before this and it makes me so much happier that it’s with Gerard. We pulled away at the same time and smiled at each other.

We’re alright for now, but I hope in the future if something happens he turns to me instead of drugs. I know we both have our faults but that’s the good thing about us. We were far from perfect and I’m happy about that. If anything were different with us, it wouldn’t be as right as it was now. The way our bodies, hands, lips, everything fit together. Like we were missing pieces of the same puzzle. Honestly I think our beings were made for each other. I think we have something good here, and I too hope it lasts for a long time if not forever, because I think I have found my soul mate in Gerard Arthur Way and now I know he feels the same. I take back what I said earlier, you should fall in love. Having someone there for you is the best feeling ever.

Notes

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