I was laying on my bed, facing the ceiling while Frank was sleeping soundly next to me. I can't believe that I am engaged. Just to snap me back into reality and constantly reminding myself that I am engaged, I kept on looking at my finger. The ring had a big yellow diamond, surrounded by small plain colored ones. I was still grinning like and idiot. If Rebecca was here, she would be bugging me about wedding plans but I had none really, I was still shocked. I missed her.

I slowly and carefully got up and entered Rebecca's (still) untouched room but it didn't smell like her anymore. It just smelled like an empty room. I held on a plush toy that Rebecca used to sleep with and then I sat on her study table. She used to blast music from her laptop and I would barge in and say the music is too loud but I would end up sitting in her room for hours.

I was about to leave the room when I saw a small box on her bed. It had white ribbon wrapped around it and a little note was attached to it.

'Happy 22nd birthday, big sis'

My heart sunk to the ocean bed and I could feel a lump down my throat. I slowly inhaled and pulled the ribbon and when I opened the small box, it revealed an old-fashioned gold necklace. It had a locket that you can put two pictures in it and there was something engraved at the back of the locket.

'Love, R'

I swallowed the lump that was in my throat but it was a futile attempt as I started to tear up. I tried opening the locket and it had a picture of Rebecca on one side and a picture of me on the other side. I was shaking as I held the necklace in my hand. I was about to put down the necklace when I saw a note in the small box.

'Hey Blair,

I am sorry for freaking you out again but I know by the time you find this gift, it means that you had a great time celebrating your 22nd. I am sorry that I can't be there for you but I want you to know that I am always there, in your heart, watching you. For the past years, I know you've been scared to fall in love because according to you, whatever that falls, it will break but I don't believe that because at the end of it, there's always someone out there who will catch you. And as for you, you will always have me. I love you, Blair. When you feel like you've let someone down, please remember that you've never let me down, not even once. Be free, Blair. I miss you, always.

Love, Rebecca'

I was still shaking and crying on her bed. It was just like the time when she passed away. I felt like I couldn't breathe and I was hyperventilating. My knees were weak and I fell to the ground and cried like I just lost a child. Then, I felt a warm stroke on my shoulder blade. I turned around and it was Frank.

"Babe, what's wrong?", he asked as he hugged me.

"Re-Re-becca ga-gave me this", I stuttered between my tears and showed him the note.

Frank let out a slow sigh and hugged me even tighter. I felt completely destroyed because Rebecca had elaborated plans for me. It had been almost a year but she was still there.

"Baby, please stop crying. She doesn't want this, she wants you to be happy", he slowly said.

I slowly nodded and stopped myself from crying. Frank pulled me up and took me into my room. We were about to sleep when I showed him the necklace that Rebecca got for me. I pulled up my hair and Frank clasped it from my back. He slowly kissed my protruding backbone and hugged me.

"We'll visit her before I leave tomorrow afternoon, okay sweetheart?", he said.

I nodded and we fell asleep.

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Frank and I woke up really early that morning and it was because my cousins were knocking our door at 6 AM to have (super) early breakfast before they go back. The breakfast was filled with laughter and everyone kept asking how Frank proposed. I felt my cheeks turned tomato red when everyone was 'aw'-ing to our story.

"When's the wedding?", Jake, my cousin, asked.

"We haven't discussed it yet but will definitely talk about that once I'm done with Projekt Revolution", Frank replied.

I didn't have a solid plan when it comes to the date of our wedding.. Especially when the guys were going to be busy with The Black Parade tour and promoting their new album. I wasn't ready to drop my studies and follow them tour. My parents would be furious.

"Maybe when I am done with my papers", I said and gave a nonchalant shrugged.

Frank's happy face instantly turned dull when he heard my answer. When i saw his expression, my heart dropped. I knew I made him upset. Maybe he wants the wedding to be in few months time but I know if I get married now, I will never be done with my studies.

After breakfast, we went straight to Rebecca's grave and spent a couple of hours there before Frank's flight and Frank was oddly quiet the whole time. He was still friendly but he was quiet.

"Babe, are you okay?", I blindly asked without thinking twice that my answer earlier made him upset.

He just kept his silence and didn't try to make any eye-contact with me.

"Talk to me", I said.

"When do you want to get married?", he blurted out.

I was appalled with his question, "What do you mean?"

"This morning, I think you made it pretty obvious that you don't want to get married anytime soon"

"No, Frank. I want to get married but not right now. I want to be done with college and you are going off on a world tour in a month or two. Are you expecting me to just wait for you to come back or just drop out of uni?", I asked.

"Look Blair, you want it your way. You didn't even think of coming with me on that tour so that we can spend more time together. You'd rather stay here and be sad every single day than spend your time with me", he said.

I was frustrated with his words.

"Frank, I love you but why are you making a big deal out of this?", I furiously asked.

"Because I hate not being with you, Blair. I almost lost you back then and I don't want to lose you again", he said.

His voice was tinge with sadness and he was right. Frank went out of his way just to make me happy but I just didn't do the same but marriage is a huge thing, we haven't even gotten married yet but here we are, fighting like an old married couple.

"I am sorry for making you upset, Frank. I say foolish things sometimes. We should talk about this once you're back", I said.

"Forget it, Blair. I am going off now. If you still want it when I am back, we'll talk about it. I don't want you to decide things just because it's what I want, instead of what both of us want.", Frank said as he picked up his backpack and went into the departure hall.