The World is Ugly

GERARD POV

"You need to stop smoking," Mikey told me as I pulled out another cigarette. I had a bad feeling all day, as if something bad had or was going to happen. Smoking helped.
"It's better than my other way of coping," I snapped.
"Yes, smoking is better compared to drinking until you puke out your guts or doing drugs, but still dangerous."
"Mikey, do we have to talk about this? I don't want to dwell on my past drinking and drug habits and why I should stop smoking."
"If Rose is going to live here, yes. She has asthma, remember? She can't be around smoke."
"She doesn't mind it."
"I highly doubt that."
"She's told me herself!"
"It's harmful to her health."
"Mikey, I don't wanna talk about this. Not right now.:
"You say that EVERY SINGLE TIME I try to talk to you about this."
"Mikey, please."
"We need to talk about it."
"No."

Just then, Rose burst through the door. She slammed it shut and turned to us. She was panting and tears were in her eyes. I shot up and hugged her. "Shh, what's wrong?" I asked. She was shaking like a leaf.
"Everclear..."
My heart stopped. I should've told her. "Mikey, grab us some duffels. Pack your bag."
"Where are we going?" he asked.
"Just do it." He nodded and went upstairs. I stood there hugging her until she calmed down.
"Where are we going?"
"Hotel. I have some explaining to do."

~*~ TIME ELAPSE ~*~

"WHY THE HELL DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?!" she yelled.
"Rose, calm down, we're in a hotel."
"My mom, who might have attempted to MURDER ME, got out of jail and you didn't tell me!"
"I thought this exact thing would happen."
"If you had told me earlier, before I fucking might have been followed by her at night, I wouldn't be as mad."
"Rose, I'm so--"
"No. I'm gonna get something to eat downstairs. Mikey, come with me." He hopped off the bed and followed her out.

God, that was a dick move. I should've told her the day Officer Johnson called me. But I thought she might've done the same thing as she did now: freak out. Not as badly as she had, but still.

I laid down, insulting myself under my breath. I'm a fucking idiot. I fell asleep after a few minutes.

ROSE POV

I gobbled up my chicken nuggets in like 2 minutes in my frustration.

Why the hell wouldn't he tell me?! I deserve to know if she got out on a fucking plea bargain. I felt tears sting my eyes and before I knew it I was crying. It was 11:30 at night, so thankfully no one was in the dining room.
"Rose, you okay?" Mikey asked. I nodded.
"I just,,, why did he not tell me?"
"I don't know Rose. He didn't tell me either. I'm so sorry."
"It's fine, Mikey. Not your fault." We sat in silence as her finished his food. I realized that Mikey didn't even know yet that we were dating. Maybe now would be a good time to tell him. I opened my mouth to speak but quickly closed it.
"What?" he asked.
"We're dating." I blurted. GOD SHIT DAMMIT why did I say that.
"What?"
"Me and... and Gerard. We're dating."
Mikey's face instantly lit up. "I KNEW IT!" he yelled.
"Yeah... wait, what? How?"
"You've slept in the same bed for the past five, almost six weeks and haven't complained. Also, don't think I don't notice the pecks on the cheeks and foreheads and when you accidentally call eachother babe."
I was blushing madly. "Do you care? That I'm dating your brother?"
"No, not at all." He was still smiling wide. He looked behind me and his eyes widened. "Officer Johnson?"
I turned around. Johnson stood there, looked around, and smiled when he saw us. He hugged us both. "So, Gerard called. What happened?"
"I, uh... It's kinda weird to say it out loud. When I thought I saw my dad a few weeks ago, he smelled like alcohol. Everclear. I was taking a walk and I smelled it and freaked out. Gee said it might have been my mom and we came here."
"He said you might've wanted to hear about your mom." I slowly nodded. "She was released a week after she was arrested on a plea bargain. No one has seen her since that day. It's reasonable for her to have followed you and that if she did that she smelled like that. We found an illegal distributor of everclear and his store. She was caught on tape buying 5 bottles of it. The super strong version, too." I started crying even harder. Was that really her? What if I wasn't so fortunate to have run away, what would've happened? Johnson scribbled something on a notepad before helping me and Mikey upstairs. He said goodnight and left.

When we went inside, Gee was on his phone. He looked up and smiled, but noticed I was crying. "Ba-- Rose, I'm sorry." I didn't care. I needed someone to hug me. I bear hugged him and cried into his shoulder.
"She told me," Mikey said.
"Told you what?" Gerard asked.
"That you're dating. Cutest couple ever."

I calmed down after about 20 minutes, which at that point Mikey was already asleep. I looked up, into Gerard's hazel eyes, and felt the same spark I did when we kissed for the first time that wasn't forced. We stared into eachother's eyes. I hadn't realized we were slowly inching closer to eachother until I could feel his breath against my face. And then our lips crashed together.

It was the same way as the forced truth or dare kiss, just a lot more... passionate. I had to pull away after a minute to catch my breath. "Is he asleep?" I asked, glancing towards Mikey; he just happened to snore loudly after I asked that question. "Suppose that's a yes," Gerard replied, chuckling. He laid me down on the bed and started taking off his shirt.
"We're gonna have sex in a hotel room inches away from your brother?" I asked.
"One, lower your voice. Two, yes."
I smiled a bit. I was about to take off my shirt, but remembered the bruises all over my stomach. It's pitch black in here, he wouldn't notice, right? I pulled it off and put it next to us, now starting a pile with our clothes. Next was our pants.

We eventually were in our underwear. He buried his face in my neck, leaving hickeys and bitemarks all over. "It's gonna be... hard to explain this to M-Mikey if he wakes up," I whispered.
"Shh, don't say his name. It might wake him." I nodded. Gee bit a certain spot on my neck that elicited a moan from me. He covered my mouth and I let out a small chuckle. He reached his hands behind my back and fumbled with my bra before pulling it off and putting it in the pile. He groped one of my breasts, eliciting another moan from me. I thought about how my relationship with him has been going and whether I really wanted to do this with him. I really loved Gerard. If I wanted to do this with anyone, it would be him. Not in a hotel room just a few feet away from his brother, but still.

After a few minutes, I could feel something hard against my thigh. I could tell my face was a bright red. He grinded against my hips and I let out a moan. He smiled against my neck. I felt his hands glide down my sides until he reached my underwear, tugging on the waistband. "Go ahead," I whispered. He pulled them off and threw them on the floor. I was about to grab the hem of his boxers and mock his actions, but he got up before I could. I heard him rummage through his bag, before there was the sound of a package ripping and clothes falling to the floor. Condom. Right. Thank god he remembered, because I sure didn't. He climbed back on the bed and I felt his breath against my face. "Do you really want to do this?' he asked.
"I'm abso-fucking-lutely sure."
And then he entered me.

I felt sick at first, it was an entirely new feeling of pain. It was pleasurable, but hurt like a bitch. I let out a hiss of pain and he stopped to stroke my hair. After a few minutes, he began to move again. The pain had been completely replaced by pleasure. To stop myself from making noise, I took to biting Gee's hand. He didn't mind.

Our night was filled with grunts and moans and kisses.

We put our clothes back on before we went to sleep, so Mikey wouldn't wake up to find his best friend and brother naked together, and fell asleep in eachother's arms murmuring "I love you"'s,

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