Dig It

It's been almost three months since I saw Gerard in that bed hanging on for life, I haven't been back there or even spoke to Mikey he's kept posted on him though like two weeks ago he told me they took him off of life support and he was breathing well, that made me happy but scared I was terrified of what his "secret" was ever since that day it's been ratting around in my brain, I woke up on a cold Sunday it was around 12pm a second later my phone rang.
Caller ID; Mikey.

I cleared my throat and pressed the answer button:
hello?
"Frank he's here"
what?
"He's awake!"
Oh
"he's been asking to see you for the past ten minuets he keeps repeating your name over and over you gotta come down here please"
mikey I don't know ab-
"frank just get here!" He shouted and hung up
i groaned and got dressed I grabbed my door keys and headed to the hospital t was only a twenty minuets walk so it was such a bother once I got there I just walked to Gerard's room my hands were shaky and I was nervous I looked through the window and saw Mikey holding his hand talking to him his mom wasn't here? I knocked on the glass and they bot looked at me Gerard was so pale and skinny he looked beyond sick, Mikey gave me a small smirk and waved for me to come in, I opened the door and stood there awkwardly Mikey stood up and walked over to me he put his hand on my shoulder and whispered in my ear "I'll leave you two alone but don't hurt him okay" I nodded and he went out of the room, he looked at me then started picking at his nails he was the first to break the silence.
"Did you mean it?"
"What?"
he scoffed them said " I was in a coma not dead I heard everything you said to me that day"
"gee that was three months ago"
"I know" is all he said he looked at the blank wall then at me he just stared
"so why did you do it"
" you don't wonna know"
"you're my boyfriend of course I wonna know!" I yelled he flinched at my words
"not if I tell you, you won't be" he laughed his eyes turned glassy
"w-what?"
"I-It started before I tried to commit okay I-I needed the drugs and the jock had them I-I d-didn't have the money so I payed him with- w-with"
"with what Gerard" it wasn't a question it was a demand and I just had enough
"I fucked him okay!" He said covering his eyes to hide the tears "I fucked him in the toilets in his house in his kitchen my bed very thing all for fucking cocaine and crack!" He confessed I just stood there staring at him in shock "are you serious?" I sniggered in anger
"he beat me up after he abused me in so many ways most parts were just rape, I covered up the bruises with my moms make up I told him a day before I did it that I didn't wonna do it any more and that I was with somebody he didn't like that he threw my in a glass coffee table and started smashing my head with a house phone he left me there I got home at four in the morning I got my knife and pills and covered up my cuts and then you know this" he confessed everything " I just wanted to die Frankie I just couldn't face seeing you hurt and hating me I couldn't live with it I couldn't" he sobbed hard I ran over to the bed and pulled him into my side his head was on my chest clinging to my shirt sobbing I hushed him while stroking his faded red greasy hear " I don't hate you okay, why couldn't you just tell me huh you're so stupid yano that I'm not mad anymore I'm just heartbroken I love you so much and once were outta school you're moving in with me we can get jobs and once were ready maybe even spending our life together I wonna be with you okay Gerard I love you baby" he sniffed an nuzzle the crook of my neck I poured my heart outfit the first time in my life and it felt good I did love him so fucking much

Notes

Again thank you to @fangoria you're amazing <3 xoxoxo