Worse Than Nicotine

~Frank's POV~
By the time we reached Gerard's house, a million thoughts were racing through my head; this man before me started to smoke again for me and I just told him I had a thing for him!

What the hell is wrong with me nowadays?! Am I going insane with coming straight out with what I feel? If this keeps up, I am going to get myself killed by a real psychopath.

A sigh passed my lips as the door was opened, but soon replaced with a soft squeak when a lady kinda ran out and hugged Gerard with full force. But I soon could recognize the face and nose by the looks of them both, but from also she saying that 'Mommy's home!' I knew it was his mom.

As soon as she stood up and looked like an adult, her and him looked just alike. They almost seemed like twins it was a bit scary.

I walked in after Gerard and shyly followed behind him as we made our way to the kitchen while looking down at the floor. But I immediately looked up when I heard my name be called with a soft voice. I seen Gerard's mom walk up to me with her hand extended as she said hello and thanked me for helping him.
"Oh, no its fine. You don't need to thank me. I'm just a friend helping out." I replied with a smile as I shook her hand. She is easy to like, and even offered me to call her momma. It made me relax so much more then anything else I could imagine. She had me feel right at home and that's what really mattered to me the most of all things.

After the small introductions, all four of us sat down at the table and began to a great meal made by 'Momma'. Then she spoke up, asking a very simple question of me.
"Frank, how old are you?" She asked. "Oh, I'm 17. I'm a senior in highschool."
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While sitting in Gerard's room, I began to think about everything that just happened today. Everything seemed to be going so Perf-

"So, when you said you liked me.. Did you mean it?" Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit. Oh-FUCKING-shit.
"O..Oh.. That. Of course I meant it. Why wouldn't I?" I responded. After that, I began to explain why I liked him and while that, my heart raced so fast like a race car. I couldn't control myself after I felt his hand on top of mines.

When I seen Gerard lean in, I took the chance to kiss him and that's exactly what I did. These lips I've been craving ever since I met him, are now kissing mine with all they got. I wanted this kiss to be good since it was my first. And let me tell you, our lips synced so good together it was almost fate for us to kiss.
Lost in time, I felt a object lick my lower lip, which I knew was a tongue. I slowly opened my mouth, allowing it join in while my face reddened. I soon got the hang with all the French kissing, but soon gave into the male before me as I let a moan into the kiss. I guess that showed I gave up when he pulled away to look at me with my heavy breathing.

After pulling away, he kissed my cheek once more before getting up to stretch. After he said that, I smiled. "Yeah.. It turned into a make out session while someone took my very first kiss."

I seen Gerard stop as he looked almost happy and excited, which he was when he spoke again. I couldn't help but smile and nod with all he said. Everything seemed so amazing today, but then I remembered I had to go home and I really didn't want to.

"Hey, can I ask something.. And it's okay if I can't.." I asked. "Sure. What is it?" He asked and I smiled, glancing up at him. "Is it okay if I can spend the night just for today? I mean tomorrow's Saturday as well and I don't have any plans soo.." I said trailing off shyly as I looked back down on his bed.

"Sure, but under one condition, if you want that is.." Gerard said with a small grin. "Please be my boyfriend!" He said looking at me with a big smile. I couldn't say no to a boy like him. This could be the first and last chance I'll ever get to be his one and only in his life. "Yes!"
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A couple hours later, I somehow ended up sleeping in Gerard's bed with him. I mean dont get me wrong, but it suddenly came out like this when he couldn't find the mattress he used to use. But hey, I got to be in the same bed with this man I now call my boyfriend.

"Frank.." Gerard said softly, holding me closer to his almost bare chest whispered. "Yeah?" I replied. "You're the first person I've dated in awhile.. And I understand our situation.. I mean we did only meet a couple days ago, but I feel like this is so right if I'm not wrong."

"No. You aren't. I understand what you're saying and trust me, I know. But in all honestly, I'm just glad its with you. It just all feels so right.." I whispered closing my eyes tightly. I could feel Gerard relax under me as he let out a breath of relief.

I couldn't agree more than him. I understood, but I didn't want to loose him when he's the one who asked me to be his pretty much. And I really didn't want to say no. I like him for crying out loud!

I felt something soft on my temple, only opening my eyes to see Gerard kissing me. "Goodnight Frankie. Sleep well, I'm tired." He whispered to me as he began to doze off already. I smiled and whispered a goodnight back to him.

During the night, I couldn't sleep at all. I hardly ever slept anyways. I just never liked to sleep and see images I hate to see in front, of my eyes. But then, out of sudden miracles, I fell asleep in the embrace of Gerard. He made me feel safe and warm. But I knew that as soon as I felt him stir, I'll wake up to stay and watch over him till the morning came. But I didn't. And I didn't have nightmares at all. I seen stars and water all around me, a man holding my hand who turned out to be Gerard. I knew where I was and where I can be all the time when I slept. And that is with Gerard.

Notes

Hey loves. I am so sorry for the delay in updating. I've just been so busy. I am so so sorry. I feel like I shouldn't even be writing for this anymore if I don't update properly. I am very sorry and I will try as best as I can to update when I can.