Worse Than Nicotine

~Gerard's POV~
When morning arrived, my eyes fluttered open to the sun beams that surfaced from the curtains in my room. I turned to move, but felt something shift in my hold. My head looked down to see a boy in my arms. Frank. I forgot he fell asleep with me.

A smile immediately found its way on my lips, my body slowly sitting up to have the boys head slip into my lap. I reached with my free hand, over to his head and began to slowly stroke his brown hair. "So beautiful.." I whispered to the man before me, despite the fact he was long asleep. But I was wrong when I heard him say my name.

"Gerard.. what are you doing?" I heard him groan softly, but not his eyes open. I smiled and leaned down, placing a gentle kiss on his cheek. "Oh.. Y' know, just admiring my boyfriend.." I said into his ear.
Frank's eyes finally opened with his cheeks turning a soft red. "Oh shut up.." He mumbled. A chuckle passed my lips as I sat back against the wall, turning my head to the bright window. It was early, it had to be. I reached for my phone on the table next to me and turned it on, the screen shining with the time 8:00 a.m. I Knew it.

I sighed softly and set it back down, turning to Frank who was now looking at me from my lap. My mind turned to mush instantly. It was hard to believe that this man is now who I call mines and mine alone. He is mines to hold until as long as I want.

I leaned down more, simply pushing my lips onto his, who complied beautifully. There it is again, the taste of him. The taste of Frank. I smiled softly as I began to kiss him softly at first, soon going rougher with my tongue rubbing against his lower lip to allow entrance. I gained it instantly, but it soon ended with Frank pulling away to catch his breath. "Oh baby boy, you have quite a lot to learn.." I said with a soft laugh.
He sat up and smiled, still breathing a bit heavy as the covers fell off his shoulders and onto the bed. "Oh Gerard.. But you don't know half of the things I do in my spare time." Frank winked at me.

I shivered and pushed myself up some, gulping down a ball in throat. Oh. And just what do you do in your spare time, Frank Iero? I asked myself, only making me smile more as I bit my lip. I wanted to ask him out loud, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. All I said was, "Really?"

He just smiled and swung his legs over the edge of the bed and got up, stretching out his body. As he did, his shirt raised just above his hip revealing his bare skin and scars... Wait. What? I shook my head, seeing the skin again with scars. "Frankie..?"

"Hmm?" Frank turned with a smile on his face, I looked down some. I couldn't ask him. Not now. Soon. If I ever see them again and he notices. I shook my head once again, smiling back at him warmly. "Nothing.. Just hurry back up and come sleep with me again." I whined some, pouting slightly. He smiled and walked back over, sitting on the edge of the bed.

I thought for a second, shaking my head some. "On second thought, let's go get some coffee." I got up, quickly placing a kiss on his cheek before walking out the door to my room. When walking down the hall, I passed my brothers open door, of course looking inside to see him laying on the floor with comic books surrounding him. I smiled and walked in, picking him up swiftly and placing him on the bed.
"You sure are a good brother. I'm jealous." I smiled and pulled the covers up to his shoulders, turning to see Frank leaning against the door frame. "But you don't have any sibl..." I trailed off, understanding why. Frank just smiled and began to walk the distance of the kitchen. I walked in after him and I looked around in the cabinets, trying to find the coffee blend until I heard him speak up.

"Gerard.. up here. I need help." He said sounding like he had short breaths to breathe, I turned and began to laugh at Frank as he tried to reach for the blend at the top of the shelve. I walked over and reached out my arm, grabbing it easily and setting it next to coffee machine.

After a moment, I walked over to Frank and snaked my arm around his waist, pulling him closer to my body. I smiled as I seen his cheeks reddened. His hands went on my sides as I began to lean down, placing small kisses on his jawline, then beginning to get lower to his neck. But I stopped when I reached a certain point; his collar bone and I knew exactly what that meant.

I grinned sheepishly and began to suck on it tenderly, nibbling and nipping ever so often. When I moved away, a beautiful butterfly hickey remained in my place. I smiled and seen his face hiding in my chest. Honestly, how cuter can this guy get?

"Frankie, let's go back to my room. We can maybe do more stuff there if you'd like." I whispered into his ear, who decided to drag me to my room. "Mm.. Eager are we?" I teased, closing my door and locking it. I gently pushed him down onto my bed and crawled on top of him, straddling his lap. I placed my hand on the top of his shirt, my finger slowly going down his torso. I bit my lip as I did so, keeping my eyes on Frank.

I could see his breath hitch as I started to reach down to the rim of his shirt. My fingers took hold of it and slowly lifted to fabric, my eyes only ever seeing the scars on his hips. I took a deep breath and leaned down, placing soft and gentle kisses on old, and new scars. I looked up at him and smiled, getting off his lap.

Frank's eyes opened and looked at me. "What did you..?" "I kissed them for you. I only did that to look at them again. Don't do it again. Please?" I asked him, who only cringed Away some. "Frank." I spoke up sternly. "I.. I can't promise anything.. school and such, it isn't easy as it seems for me. When I get to class late, it's either because I was being messed with, or I got punched or something. I know you've been through it too, but bit by bit, they're getting louder in my head.

"What's getting louder? Talk to me, babe." "What's getting louder is the voices that are always telling me I'm stupid, ugly, fat, useless, and so much other things. They're telling me that the only way I'll ever be satisfied with myself is if I was dead!" My hand found its way over my mouth, tears threatening to spill over. I shook my head as I let the words sink into my head. Frank looked away and tried to get loose from underneath me and I shook my head, my hand going away from my face as I sucked in a breath.

"No way in hell, Iero, am I going to let you go after that. Its time for me to show you just how beautiful you are." I spoke up, grabbing his hands and holding them close to my lips as I kissed them gently. I could feel Frank holding my hands tightly as he tried his best not to cry.

"Frank, ever since I met you, you've been messing with my head lately. No matter what I try to do, you won't leave my head and that case, it very rare for someone to have that kind of effect on me. That shows you're very special if that happens to me. And in all honesty, you are very handsome, sweet, kind, thrilling, cute, and just very.. A very big turn on to anyone who gets close to your sensitive spots." I told him while looking him dead in the eyes. I could see Frank's cheeks get red by the minute, and I just smiled soothingly.

My body leaned down, moving his hands to put them around my neck. I pressed my lips to his, and was greeted by him kissing back. I pulled away slowly, leaving a nip on his lower lip. "If you don't want to promise me anything, then that's fine. But if you get an urge to hurt yourself, call me. I'll answer right away, and I don't give a damn what time it is when you do. All that matters to me is your safety. Do you understand me, Mr. Iero?" I asked him seriously.

"Ye..Yes, sir. I understand."

"Good, now give me your phone so I can put my number into it." I sat back up straight as Frank struggled to get his phone from his pocket. One it was out, I snatched it, immediately inserting my number into it.

Notes

Hey guys, I'm so sorry it's took quite some time to update. I had writers block for a moment and for what I know, more is to come to me. I'm trying my hardest for you all and I hope you all enjoy it more than I do! Love you guys!
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