Don't tell mom

Mikey's pov

I left and quickly walked to ray's house where he was waiting for me.

"hey where'd you go? I thought we were gonna walk home together-and holy shit your face!" He said as I faced him after placing my bag on the floor.

i could hear his mom yell at him for swearing from wherever she was in the house and hoped she'd be leaving for work soon. Ray's mom is nice it's just she's one of those people who's too nice.

"Ya sorry I forgot some shit at home, but I'm here now." I said as I began walking upstairs to his room, him closely following me.

as soon as I sat down ray questioned me. "So you went home and now your face is smashed...please tell me gerard didn't do this to you again, because unless I'm going crazy it wasn't that bad this morning."

i sighed "no gerard didn't do it, frank did."

"I'm going to beat that midgets ass!"

"Ray calm down-"

"I'm not going to calm down! What gives him the right to hurt you, he's not special he's just an asshole and he deserves it!"

"Ray you're not beating up frank."

"Give me a reason not too." He argued

"it'll just make gerard hate you more if he finds out, and then he'll never let me be around you again, I mean he almost blew up the day he found you in my bedroom before school."

"Ya but it's not like we were doing anything, I was being more of a brother to you than he was. That's not a crime mikey. If he hates me for being your friend than he's a dick."

"Shit."

"What?" He asked

"you don't think that day when I called you to come over that when gerard saw us he thought we were doing something,
do you?"

"I doubt he thought that. Even if we were he has no room to talk considering we heard him and frank fucking all night."

I cringed when he mentioned that. I had been trying to push that memory out of my head and it wasn't working that well.
"Ya let's not bring that up okay."

"Sorry." He said. "So when exactly did frank do this to you? I mean like gerard wasn't around for it right?"

"no he got me in the locker room. We had to run extra laps for calling each other shit and by the time we showered and changed it was just us."

"So what did he say?"

"He told me to stay away from gerard because he was tired of gerard worrying about me and being moody. And y'know that apparently me you are screwing and that you probably suck in bed anyway." I said because well he did say that.

"he also called you a cunt and called me a faggot and fatass a few times before hitting me against the lockers and kicking me a few times." I said lifting my shirt to reveal the bruises and also because I was starting to like how my body was looking.

"holy shit mikey those look painful are you okay?" He said reaching out to touch the bruises.

"Ya they hurt a little but let's just forget about my douche bag brother and his best/boyfriend/fuck buddy and just hang out okay." I said even though I felt horrible for calling Gerard a douche bag.

"Alright movie marathon it is." He smiled "you grab the movies I'll go order the pizza."

"Oh hey no it's fine I don't want any." I said

"Dude you don't want pizza? What's wrong are you sick or something?" Ray asked jokingly.

"no- it just hurts my stomach from the bruises."

"How do the bruises affect your eating?" He asked suspiciously

"I don't know he hit me hard and-"

"mikey are you okay? Like really you haven't been eating a lot and you weren't bruised before today. Are you like trying to starve yourself by not eating anymore?" ray asked giving me a serious look.

"Ray I'm fine I just wasn't hungry, and my stomach does hurt from the bruises thank you very much, but go ahead and order the pizza I'll eat it."

"mikey are you sure you're-"

"ray just order the fucking pizza man I'll eat it." I snapped

he just nodded and went downstairs to get the phone giving me a curious glance as he went.

When the pizza did arrive I ate it and tried to ignore the fact that I could feel ray watching me. I knew he was looking out for me but what he doesn't understand is that once I'm thin Gerard will love me and be the one looking out for me, not him.

I hope that Gerard will eventually become friends with ray too so it doesn't become an even bigger problem.

After about out five more movies and a whole box of pizza and some pop ray was finally asleep. I made sure he was out cold before I quietly walked down to the bathroom at the other end of the hall so he wouldn't hear me.
I didn't know if it'd be loud because I'd never done it before and I couldn't take any chances.

I didn't want him to worry earlier so I ate the pizza but I knew I had to get rid of the food in my system. I bent down over the toilet and shoved my fingers as far as they could go in my throat making me gag.

At first only a bunch of spit came out so I shoved my fingers back down my throat. This time I succeeded and began to throw up the contents of my stomach.

Once i was sure I had thrown everything up I rinsed my mouth out and went back into his room. I climbed into bed with him like always and fell asleep feeling relieved that the food wasn't in my body anymore and that soon Gerard would love me.

Notes

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