Don't tell mom

Ray's pov

mikey had been acting weird all day. Normally when he stays the weekend we just chill. Play video games pig out, all the usual stuff but him not wanting to eat kind of bugged me.

He looks normal, not like he's sick looking or anything. He's still the same skinny tall and awkward mikey he's always been, why would he be trying to not eat? To loose weight? Which is what I'm guessing he was trying to do by refusing the food.

i sighed. Mikey's perfect. Utterly perfect in every fucking sense of the word.

He's got an amazing personality, really cool interests and he's got a great body. that part confuses me. He did eat the pizza but he still seemed upset about it. It can't be because of his body, could it?

I decided to push the bad feeling out of my gut and sleep knowing that as of right now mikey was laying in bed with me and he was safe.

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i woke up to the feeling of the bed shifting under me. I opened my eyes and saw mikey now sitting up in bed stretching.

"Morning sunshine" I joked.

"Shut up it's to early for your sarcasm." He yawned.

I looked at my phone and laughed "Well princess sorry but it's almost one o'clock."

"Well today I don't wake up until one thirty so shut your mouth fro man" he jokes.

He falls back into the bed facing me "I'm tired."

"So sleep." I say

"nah I'm awake now but I'm lazy so I'm just gonna be on twitter looking at nothing." He yawned again.

I looked at him and he just looked so beautiful. I thought back to how long we'd been friends but how only in the past year or two we've became inseparable.

i also thought back to what it would be like to be a couple which made me think of when gerard caught us together even though we weren't doing anything.

I wanted to talk to him about it. "Hey mikey can we uhm talk about-"

i was cut off by his phone ringing. He looked angry at the screen and tossed his phone behind him making the ringing stop.

"What was that?" I asked

"Gerard. Just ignore it I declined the call anyway I'm still upset about him hitting me y'know and he's probably with frank anyway." he said.
"What were you saying before he called?"

" I wanted to talk to you about that day gerard saw us." I said.

"In my room? What about it?" he asked.

"Well you know how you thought we caught or something?"

He nodded "yea."

"Well what if we did get caught?"

"What do you-"

"like what if we did get caught doing something..." I whispered.

"You mean us? Getting caught...wha-oh. Oh." He said looking at me.

"I mean why not?" I asked

"Ray you know I love you right?" He said

"ya I know you love me. I love you too which is why we should get caught together as a couple, not in public maybe, but just being able to be at your house and actually do stuff with out worrying..." I trailed off

mikey looked at me for a moment. His didn't have any emotion and I could tell he was just thinking.

"Ray I-"

"will you at least kiss me? It's not like we haven't before" I said which was true, because we'd drunkly made out at parties before for truth or dare.

again mikey just thought for a moment then he leaned in and kissed me. I melted into the kiss and placed a hand on Mikey's hip while he placed his on my shoulder and the back of my neck.

We we pulled back and looked at each other before mikey asked "can we do that again maybe?"


"This?" I said motioning between us "or the getting caught?"

"this." He said.

We leaned in and kissed for a while letting out little noises as our tongues mixed and our hands roamed each other's upper halfs.

after a minute mikey pulled back and rolled onto his back. "Ow." He said. I was about to ask what happened when he answered for me by pulling his phone out from under his body.

"Damn phone. I need a new one it always dies and makes weird noises." He said pressing the power button. And tossing it to the floor.

He rolled back over and looked at me. "ray I love you and I love the kissing but I can't be anything more than just kissing." He said sadly.

"Why not? I mean does it really matter to you that much what Gerard thinks of me that you won't even date me?"

"Gerard hates you. If we ever dated he'd rip you away from me so fast if he found out and I know I couldn't handle losing you permanently. I'd rather have to be friends forever than lose you forever."

"So if things were different you'd date me?" I asked

"If things were different and I wouldn't loose you from my life I'd date you but I really value our friendship so much and youre not even family but yet it feels like you're there for me more than they are." mikey said

i could by the way he was talking that he knew he'd never date me in this lifetime but he said if things were different he would. That's good enough for me as of right now because eventually things will be different, and we will be able to date.

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mikeys pov


I felt bad for lying to ray. I do love him just not like that.

Kissing is the least I could do to not to shatter his heart and not shatter our friendship, but dating him? I couldn't do that to gerard even if he does hate me, I just can't, It feels like I would be cheating on him even though he's dating frank. It just wouldn't be right, in my mind at least.

As ray got up to go get a shower I turned my phone back on and checked it. No missed notifactions. Shocker.

I walked down to ray's kitchen and grabbed some food, placed crumbs, and smeared some shit on a plate then placed it in the sink to make it look like I had eaten.

Once ray came back down he just smiled at me and began to make his breakfast/lunch.

My phone buzzed in my pocket and it was gerard texting me
-come home Sunday night before school Monday

•why? I'm able to stay at ray's.

-cause I said so. moms rules mikey.
he replied

why does mom care? She must want me home if she gave gerard rules for me Sunday. Is she even home Sunday night? I try to think of her schedule and can't remember if she will be there of not, or if it's just gerard and frank being dicks and splitting me and ray up so I'm stuck friendless at home.

Notes

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