Don't tell mom

Franks pov

We went out to eat after I had talked with Mikey. We drove to the nearest restaurant and went inside. It was just a basic family place, but we weren’t looking for anything fancy. We sat down at a booth, and I got a caesar salad, while Gerard got spaghetti.

We sat in almost total silence until our food was delivered. I dug right into mine having not eaten yet, with only a few cups of coffee in my system, but I noticed Gerard was just staring at his plate.

“What’s wrong? Is it not what you ordered?”

“I just, I don’t get it.” He sighed shaking his head.

“don’t get what?” I asked

“how he can stare at a plate of food, and not want to eat it because he thinks it will make him pretty.” He answered.

I gave Gerard a confused look. “He does it because he wants to be pretty?”
I’ll admit that I said it with a pretty rude tone but I really didn’t get it either. I thought what mikey was doing was stupid. I told him it was stupid. Why would you purposely want to be small…..or now pretty?

I hated being small, people think your weak and can be pushed around, not pretty. I even explained that to mikey telling him that’s why I got tattoos, so people would take me seriously.

But Mikey wanting to look like me, to be thin, because he thought it was pretty? I mean, i knew he had liked Gerard for a long time. I noticed before I think he even admitted it to himself. But I don’t get how becoming more like me would help him achieve Gerard’s love. If he was just copy of me why would Gerard leave the original?

“I meant thin.” Gerard countered. “how he can do it because he wants to be thin.”

“no you didn’t.” I answered cutting him off. “You meant pretty. I know you and mikey like each other. He told me he likes you.”

Gerard stared at me for a hard moment. “What are you talking about?”

“You know what I’m talking about. I’ve known for a while that you two have. When you started ignoring me was when I noticed, at first it was just little things like not wanting to have sex, but then when you started getting defensive over ray? That was a red light.”

“Frank I don’t- he’s my little brother I was just protecting him from being taken advantage of.”

“you know mikey would’ve told you if someone had taken advantage of him.”

“he didn’t when you beat him up.” Gerard snapped. “I'm just looking out for my brother. Don’t assume stuff about us frank, and not about his personal life either.”

“so your telling me that I should just think mikeys happy and well, and that he doesn’t love you even when he told me, and I know he’s in a hospital?”

Gerard stood up after that, and leaned over the table at me. “stop lying.” He spat.

“I’m not lying! But you need to stop lying to yourself about your feelings for him, because I know for sure you don’t love me anymore!”

he leaned back a little from me then, “that’s not true.”

“Then fucking prove it Gerard!” I yelled standing up to face him making him back up more. “I’m really getting tired of being your sexual distraction for mikey, and I can’t just pretend you love me back because I can feel you don’t.”

“frank I didn’t-“

“No. I don’t want to hear this anymore. Ill admit to you right here that I beat the shit out of mikey to keep him away from you so we could stay together but it didn’t work. So are you happy now? I admitted I hurt mikey and now you need to admit your hurting him too by acting like don’t give a shit when you do!” I reached over the table and cupped Gerard’s face giving him a kiss before walking out of the diner, fed up with everything.

Gerard’s pov

After frank left me I ran back to the hospital pissed off and aggravated. How could Frank say that to me and leave, and more importantly what all did mikey tell him if he knew we liked each other.

But he has no right to be mad at me. I on the other the hand had a right to be mad at him. He admitted to beating the shit of Mikey, using those exact words who wouldn’t be mad.

I walked into Mikeys room at the hospital. He was sitting on his phone typing or playing something with a full plate of untouched food in front of him.
“mikey!”

The phone flew to the ground as he jumped bumping the tray and causing water to spill all over him. “what the hell Gerard?” he yelled at me standing up. He wiped at the water but his robe was already soaked.

“are you going to just stand there or are you going do something?” he asked incredulously.

A million things ran through my mind. I had come there intending to yell at mikey and ask him what he told frank but as I looked at him I lost all reason. He had started to remove the wet hospital robe and while he was going to grab a new one form the cupboard in the room I stopped him. He was just standing in front of me in his boxers that were even big on him and tied at the waist band to fit him.

“Gerard..?” he asked quietly.

“how much do you weigh?” I asked him biting my lip.

“Gerard-“

“no I want you to tell me.”

“87.”

“you weigh 87 pounds?” he nodded, and looked down at the ground.

“please don’t lecture me I’ve had enough of it while here.”

“I promise no lectures. You’re beautiful.”

I didn’t want to lecture him about his health, I mean I wanted to but i wasn’t going to do it. I just wanted him to understand I loved him the way he was and that he din’t need to continue hurting himself.

I looked down at him, he had averted his eyes to the floor waiting for the lecture he still thought was coming. I tilted his head up and kissed him.

I kissed him with every single ounce of love I had and I hoped to god he felt it. I just kept kissing him wrapping my arms around him, and when I felt him hugging and kissing back my heart fluttered.

We remained lip locked for quite money and I would’ve kept it going it I hadn’t felt mikey reaching for my belt. I pulled away and looked at him. “mikey, no.”

“what? This- this is what we both want, why are you still denying me? You just said-“

“I know I said you were beautiful and you are, but mikey I love you. I love you and I have to get it through to you that I love you for more than your body.”

“Gerard I know-“

“I don’t think you do and that’s why I'm going to prove it to you.” I told him. “I love you mikey, not anyone, or anything else. Not even your body just you.”

Notes

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