I Don't Love You

I looked at him with wide eyes. A hush descended on the room. He looked back at me, his grey eyes boring into my hazel ones. I could see a look of sadness in them. That confused me. What did he have to be sad over?

“Cobalt here,” Mikey sneered. “Decided to tag along after he got out of jail, he didn’t get a sentence because he had connections. He is just under house arrest but begged them to come and see you. And being the fucking idiot the police are (A/N this is not my opinion my dad is a police officer) they let him!” Mikey seethed at me. I stared at him in shock, he never cussed. I looked over at Frank. He had a murderous look on his face like he wanted to kill him. But before he could, I needed to know why. Why Cobalt did all those things to me and why he saved me. But to do that, everyone needed to leave.

I tuned back into the conversation to hear Pete yell at Cobalt and Patrick restraining Pete so he wouldn’t hurt Cobalt. I honestly didn’t care if Pete did, but Patrick is such a kind soul that he wouldn’t want anyone to get hurt.

“Stop,” I quietly said. Even though I said it softly, everyone still heard me. They stopped and looked at me; I looked back at them with tired eyes. All I wanted was to get out of here. I was supposed to get out in 3 more days according to the doctor. I would have spent a totally of six days in the hospital. “Everyone leave. I need to speak to Cobalt alone.” They started to protest about leaving me alone with Cobalt, but I just glared at them. They all shut up. Frank was the last person out; before he shut the door he turned to me.

“If you need anything just shout. I’ll be outside with Mikey, Pete, and Patrick.” I nodded and he turned back around and shut the door. I turned to Cobalt and saw him awkwardly standing; I motioned for him to sit in the chair that Patrick and Pete were sitting in before. He sat down on the edge and looked at me. I looked back and said one simple word.

“Why?” I didn’t need to elaborate because he already knew what I was talking about, why he did that stuff to me. Why he beat me. Why he prevented me from having a happy life with a family that would have loved me. Why he raped me. All of those questions were in that one simple word. Why.

He took a deep breath, ready to explain everything to me. “Let me just start from the beginning then, I was visiting my brother in prison when I ran into your dad. Like literally. We started to talk and he found out I knew you. He got this evil look in his eyes and told me in simple words: ‘I want that mother fucker dead.' He told me to do whatever needed to be done to get you dead. I did it because this was around the time our family was thinking of adopting you and not me.” I remembered that time. It always confused why after visiting his brother one day he turned abusive. Now I understand why, my dad wanted me dead.

“I did it for awhile until you get taken away, and then I realized something, I had started to fall in love with you. I feel in love with the way you talked, looked, and how after everything that has happened to you, you still had a smile on your face and continued living. I wanted to be like you. After you got taken away I missed you. Missed talking to you. Missed your sense of humor. And then when I saw you at school for the first time last month everything had come back. all the feelings. I thought that being away from you for two years would diminish the feelings but it didn’t. it made them stronger, and I hated it. I thought that if I beat you like last time I wouldn’t still love you.” Cobalt laughed humorously. “I don’t know what I was thinking,, the feelings just got stronger. I was mad. So fucking mad that I was falling for you. So when I saw you crying and running to the bridge I thought would have one final go at you to see if I could keep the feelings after I broke the straw that would make you kill yourself.

It didn’t work. I still felt the same way. I watched as you walked on the bridge. And that was when I realized. I didn’t want you to die. I didn’t want to be considered a murderer. I didn’t want to be like your dad. I yelled your name. I watched as you jumped and landed in the water. I jumped after you and saved you. I was crying from everything. When your brother and Frank came, I left after your brother started to hit me. He is very protective of you.”

Cobalt stared at me and grabbed my hand. I tried to pull away but he had a strong grip. He stared deep on my eyes. I tried to lean back but he grabbed my head and held it. It was bringing back the memories. I could feel my heart start to pound and the sweat start to form on my forehead.

“I guess you could say the reason I saved you Gerard was because I love you.”

Cobalt then leaned in and kissed me on the lips.

Notes

BIGGER PLOT TWIST

I'm so sorry this is short but i wanted to update because i hadn't updated in about a week