I Don't Love You

I was standing in the doorway staring after Frank; when I felt arms wrap around my waist.

“You are too good for Frank he doesn’t deserve you. You know what, I wouldn’t even care if he died.” Cobalt whispered into my ear.

“Get off me you pervert!” I shouted to him. I wrenched myself out of his arms. He glared at me. “And Frank is twice the man you will ever be. He’s nice to me, kind, understands, and helps me through some of the shit you out me through!” I yelled at him with tears streaming down my face. I can’t believe I might have just lost the one thing that I love.

Cobalt just smiled at me. “So, you’re still cutting then?” That was the last straw; I roared at me and launched my body onto him. We fell to the ground with me on top. I started to hit him with tears streaming down my face.

“After everything, everything I’ve been through. You come and take away something that makes me happy! Like you always do! You were the one who told the family that was going to adopt me that I was gay. That was the closest I had ever come to be happy until I meet Frank. AND YOU FUCKING TOOK THAT AWAY!” I sobbed to him. I hit him in the nose and felt his nose break.

Cobalt pushed me off him and pinned me to the ground, he hit my mouth. I tasted blood. “It’s not my fault that no one want to be with you for less than a year!” He yelled back to me, he hit me in the mouth again, I felt my teeth cut my lip and blood pour out of my mouth.

“WHAT IS GOING ON HERE!?” Shouted Mr. Wentz. I looked up to him from the ground and saw how angry he was. He glared at the both of us. “Gerard, I would have expected better from you.” I looked at him. If he just came in at the end, then the only thing he would have heard was Cobalt’s part.

As if Pete could hear my thoughts, “I heard and saw the whole thing Gerard.” He looked at me with such disappointment in his eyes that I couldn't look him in the eye, I stared down at the ground. “Now both of you, follow me.” We got off the ground and followed Pete to the office. When we got there he indicated for us to sit down. I sat down and Cobalt sat next to me, glaring at me the whole time, I glared back to him.

“This is all your fault, like always.” He whispered yelled to me.

"No, it’s your fault. You were the one who dragged me into the closest.” I whispered yelled back to him. He was about to say something else when the principal came out.

“Gerard, Cobalt. In my office, now.” Mr. Petit-Grande told us. We stood up and shuffled in his office sitting in the wood chairs across from his desk. He sat down at the big stereotypical leather chair. He did the stereotypical principal thing and steepled his fingers while studying us.

“Now, care to tell me what happened?” Mr. Petit-Grande asked. Cobalt and I said nothing, just sitting there in stony silence. He sighed. “I will tell you what I think happened. You,” he pointed to Cobalt. “got mad at him,” he pointed to me.” So you decided that it would be a good idea to beat up Gerard but then when you had your back turned, Gerard beat you up.”

We stared at him with your moths opened. That was not at all what happened. But it was better than the actual truth. I had no desire for Mr. Petit-Grande to know about Cobalt and I.

“Ugh yes,” I said. “Yes totally that is what happened.” He just stared at me like I was crazy. I smiled sheepishly back.

“Umm glad we are on the same page.” He gave me a weird look. “Now about those punishments,” I slide down in my seat, this was not good. If this ever got back to my social worker, which I know it will, she will murder me. “Gerard, since you have only been at this school for about a month, I will give you a two day suspension. You can go.” I got up and sighed. Looks like I’m going to be stuck at home for 2 days over something that I didn’t even start. But at least I can think about ways to get Frank back.

*** When I got home after I was told about my suspension, no one was home. I went down into my room and collapsed face down on my bed. I let out a cry of frustration. Today was just not my day. First I got dragged into a closest by Cobalt and forced to kiss him, second Frank basically broke up with me, and lastly, I got suspended for two days. I felt tears slip down my face. I just couldn’t do it. I got up from my bed and got my special box out of the closest; I grabbed the razor and stared at it.

Time to get rid of the pain.

A was lying in bed, my arms dangling off the side, feeling the blood slowly slip down them. I sighed; I should probably wash them off and take a shower to get rid of the rest of the blood from my body. I got up and went into the shower. I came out and put on sweatpants and a sweatshirt; I crawled under my covers and tried to sleep.

I must have actually gone to sleep because the next thing I know I am being woken up by a pounding at my door and Mikey yelling at me.

“Open the fucking door Gerard!” He shouted to me.

“No!” I shouted back. I heard a growl and then someone walk up the stairs. Wow it couldn’t have been that easy could it of? I no sooner thought that when I heard someone knocking on my door. “Go the fuck away Mikey! I don’t want to talk to you!”

“It’s not Mikey,” a sweet soft voice spoke to me through the door. I sighed.

“Please go away Kat. I don’t want to talk to anyone.” I said. I could feel tears slipping down my face. I did not want to talk to anyone. I heard soft feet walk up the stairs. I slowly drifted off to sleep but was then woken by another knock on my door. “For fucks sake!” I shouted. I got out of bed and stalked to the door and ripped it open. “Mikey how many times—“

But no, Mikey was not standing there, standing there was Frank.

Frank with a look that looked like he could murder someone with his bare hands. And that someone was me.

Notes

I hope you enjoy this :D i wanted to get a chapter up...so here ya go


Yes i am aware that the principal's name is Small-Tall in French xD