I Don't Love You

Frank and I got off the bus; we were standing close together but not too close to look freaky. Our pinkies were hooked together in our little show of affection to each other.

“Hey Frank,” I said.

He hummed in reply.

“Do you think that we should tell Ray and Pete about us?” I asked him.

“Hmmm, I think it would be good. I mean Pete did tell us about Patrick and Ray has been my friend for years so yeah I think we should.” Frank told me, I knew he was right. They had a right to know.

“And Mikey?” I questioned. I wanted my little brother to know. Did I just call him my brother? I asked myself shocked. I guess I did. Frank smiled and leaned into me.

“Yeah Gee, we can tell him. We should invite Mikey, Kat, and Ray all over to tell them and maybe have a party.” Frank said excitedly. I laughed.

“Of course Frankie, of course.” I ruffled his hair and he playfully pushed my hand away.

We walked to art still with our pinkies attached. When we entered Pete smirked at us. He always knew if someone was hiding something. We smiled guilty at him and he gave us this ‘we will chat later’ look. We walked to our seat in the back and got to work drawing our favorite band logo. I still don’t know why he made us do it, but I didn’t complain. It was an easy A.

We were drawing, well I was. Frank just sat there commenting on my picture every once in awhile. Pete came and squatted down in front of us so he was level with us.

“So,” he smirked. “I got Patrick to come over during break which I know is your last period, so now you guys can meet him.” Pete told us. I smiled. I could not believe we were finally meeting Patrick. I’ve heard so much about him. The way he makes Pete happy; that’s what I loved the most. I hope Frank makes me feel that way one day. Little did I know Frank was thinking the same thing.

“So,” Pete still had that same smirk on his face. “Is there something you want to tell me? I’ve seen the way Frank looks at you Gerard when you’re not looking and the way you look at Frank. I know something is up with you two.”

Frank looked at me and I looked at him. I nodded to him. He could tell Pete.

“Well Pete,” he started. He grabbed my hand from under the table. “Me and Gerard are umm kinda ugh known as each other’s boyfriend?” He brought our hands up from under the table and showed Pete. His eyes got huge and he got a big grin on his face.

“I knew it!” he shouted. He jumped up and punched the air. Kids turned around and stared at Pete. He apologized with a smile. He then turned back t us. “You two make a good couple.” And with that he got up and walked to the front of the classroom. Frank and I just looked at each other and laughed. I got up from my seat and walked to the front of the room. I asked Pete if I could go to the bathroom, he nodded and I left.

I was walking in the halls looking for the bathroom when I felt someone grab the back of my sweatshirt and dragged me into a closet. He shut the door and turned on the light. I looked to see who my kidnapper was, I groaned when I saw who it was. It was Cobalt. He was glaring at me.

“What do you want?” I sighed. I had no time for this. I really needed to pee.

He glared at me. “Don’t speak to me like that.” He sneered to me. He took a threatening step towards me. If he expected me to be afraid of him, he was surely disappointed. After being with the spawn of the devil for a dad and an uncle, I wasn't afraid of him.

“I’m not afraid of you Cobalt.” I said to him in a bored voice.

His eyes narrowed then I saw them clear and light up. He slowly smiled evilly at me. “But I know what does scare you.” He said softly. He started to walk towards me examining me. I could feel his eyes going up and down my body. He stepped right up to my ear.

“Y’know Gerard, you aren’t that bad looking.” I tensed up when I felt his hot breath next to my ear. He smirked at me reaction. “That’s right Gee, I know what you’re afraid of.” I froze when he called me Gee. The only people I let call me that were Frank and…one of my foster brothers. I stared at Cobalt with wide eyes.

“No, no. it can’t be.” I backed away from him until my back hit the wall. There was one thing I never told anyone. No one. I don’t think I will ever tell Frank and that is I had a foster brother who used to beat me at night and one night he got me drunk and made me do his bidding. That is when he found out what scares me the most. Not being in control of myself.

He laughed manically. “I knew you would figure it out eventually.” He sneered.

“H-how did you ever get a family to a-adopt you?” I stuttered, having him this close to me made me panic.

‘Well you see, it’s simple. I didn’t tell anyone and threatened anyone that who saw what I did to you that night, that if they told then I would make sure they never got adopted and maybe give the police false evidence of them selling weed to 4th graders. And I acted good for the rest of my stay and I got adopted by them.” He told me, he brought his hand up and placed it gently on my cheek. “I’ve missed you.” He mumbled.

He brought his head closer to me and kissed me, he scrapped his nails into my arm leaving bloody scratches. From having this happened to me before I knew what he wanted. He wanted me to kiss him back. if I didn't he would just make it worse for me. I started to kiss him back. I heard him moan in the back of his throat.

I was disgusted I could feel something hard pocking me. I knew what it was. Cobalt was aroused. I had tears streaming down my face. I was about to pull away when I heard the door opened. I sprang away from Cobalt and looked to see who it was.

It was Frank.

He had a looked of disgust on his face and hurt in his eyes.

“How could you?” He screeched at me. “You’re cheating on me with Cobalt! How could you! You..you mother fucker!” He screamed at me. I saw him turn around and sprint down the hall.

“Wait! Frank it’s not like that!” I shouted after him, but he was too far away to hear and I doubt he would listen.

I have been dating Frank for less than a day and I’ve already broken his heart.

I’m so sorry Frankie.

Notes

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