I Don't Love You

I stared at my door through my tears. I thought I had closed my door when I came in, turns out I didn’t. I stared at the bleary figure; it looked to be the same height as Frank. But it couldn’t be. He was supposed to be at home. Then I remembered. It was Frank. I forgot that I had invited him over.

Frank had caught me cutting.

I felt even more tears come down. The man I loved saw me cut. He saw how much of a fuck up I am. I started to sob. Just another person I had disappointed.

I felt arms wrap around me and my head get tucked into someone’s shoulder. I felt the person put their head on top of mine. I just continued to sop into their shoulder.

“Shhh, it’s alright,” Frank’s voice whispered to me as he stroked my hair. I wrapped my arm around his other arm. I just wanted someone to hold me. I noticed that I had gotten blood on his shirt.

“Sorry,” I croaked. I wasn’t sure what I was apologizing for. I dried my tears and sat up. I was sitting next to Frank. I rest my head on his shoulder. “I hope you don’t mind.” I whispered. I heard Frank chuckle.

“Gee, I don’t mind.” He told me. I froze. Gee. No one had called me that since…I couldn’t remember when. Frank must have noticed my pause. “Is it alright if I call you that?”

I nodded; not able to speak. I loved when he called me that. I loved the way it sounded coming from his mouth. “Now,” he said. “Why don’t you tell me why you feel it is necessary for you to mutilate your body?” Frank whispered to me. I felt more tears well up. It’s just been one day after another full of tears.

“I-I,”I sobbed. “It was Cobalt, he told me things. Things that I’ve always been told and it made me think that I really was a waste of space and no one cared for me.” I sobbed into my hands.

Frank gathered me up into his arms and I rest my head on his shoulder again. he gently rocked me.

“Listen to me Gee; you are not a waste of space. There are loads of people that love you. There is Mikey, Kat, Ray, your foster parents. If your parents didn’t love you then they wouldn’t have stuck with you for this long. Everyone loves you."

I thought back to everyone who he listed. The one name that stuck out to me was Kat. She is Mikey’s girlfriend. The only thing I know about her is that she has blonde hair. But from like the one time I spoke to her she was so nice and really sweet. She is perfect for Mikey.

There was one name that Frank never mentioned. That was himself.

“Frank,” I said. I looked up to him from my position on his shoulder.

“Yes Gee?” He asked softly while stroking my hair.

“Why did you never say your name in the list?” I asked just as softly. He stopped his stroking and stared down at me. He smiled softly.

“Do you really want to know?”

I nodded, I really did want to know.

“It’s because,” he leaned in close to me, our lips were almost touching. I could feel his breath tickling me. “I love you Gerard.”

He then leaned down and softly kissed my lips.

Notes

This chapter is so cute it warms my heart <3

Sorry it's short

Oh this is for you @dropdeaddarling