I'm Okay Now

*alicias pov*
(back when everyone was stitting down talking)
I'm going to hell. I'm going straight to hell. One way ticket on the one way lane to hell. Why. Why is this happening to me. I always knew that Mikey was the one but ever since I met frank, it's like I've never knew Mikey. Something is wrong with me. I know I'm only eighteen but I know I love Mikey. Why am I having questions about it? There's something about frank that makes me really attracted to him. I have no idea wether it's the way he looks at me, like I mean the world to him. Or if it's his bright smile that I've been holding onto for the past 20 minutes that we've met. I'm sure this is just a passing little crush, but it sure as hell don't feel like it. I have so many questions running threw my mind, but the one that won't leave is, how? I've only known frank for not even a half an hour and yet it's like I know his whole story. His eyes tell it all. What he is feeling, when he feels sad, passionate, or happy. Also he keeps looking over at me with a smile that tells all. He knows what I am thinking, and he likes it. Don't get me wrong I love Mikey but I want to get to know frank. Have you ever met someone and instantly you want to get to know them better? I want to know all about the tattoos that he has, I want to remember his eye color like I remember Mikey's. I want to know what his favorite song is or what kind of music he listens to. I want to know what his childhood was like and what his dream career is. However I can't. I love with Mikey and that's final. But believe it or not, I don't know a lot about mike. I have no idea what his favorite color is or what he wants to do in the future. I do know that his favorite band is, fall out boy and he plays the bass, but I don't know what his favorite food is or what he does in his free time.
"What about you Alicia?" Gerard asked me which caused me to snap out of my trance.
"Hmm?" I had no idea what was happening right now or what they are talking about. I was too busy stuck in a little ball of myself, drinking mint tea and thinking about frank.
"What do you plan to major in collage?" He repeated for me.
"Oh" I said. I never thought about this at all. My future. It's such a strange thing to think about. You think that you have everything planned but then all of a sudden something bad happens and everything changes. "Well I'm interested in biology."
Right now, I was starting to feel uncomfortable. I can see frank looking at me as if he was reading my every thought. Also I can tell that Gerard knew something was up. He keeps glancing over to me with a questionable glare. I pretend I don't see him, but sometimes it doesn't always work. Both him and frank know.

Notes

7/14/14
so as I promised, five comments and I'll post another chapter. We'll here it is! Sorry for the delay. Like I said, I was at camp. I'm sorry if this chapter was confusing. It's suppose to be from Alicia's pov back when everyone was in the living room talking.