I'm Okay Now

**Katy's pov*
My only thoughts when the last bell marking the end of school rang was pure fear. I spent the whole day wondering, knowing I'll have to give in to my dad, at some point and let him take me. Also the longer I waited the bigger the punishment so I would get it over with by closing my eyes and hope for the best. I could feel my stomach start to churn so I rushed towards the bathroom where I barely made it to the toilet to throw up. Great a panic attack. What could make my day better. Honestly all I wanted to do at that moment was lock myself in the stall and hide there for the rest of my life. I know it sounds gross being in a dirty school bathroom but it way better then facing my dad who's probably waiting for me outside the school right now. Part of me wanted to go on and get this over with, but another part wanted to hide and run away with Gerard and Mikey forever. Every step I took out of the bathroom hurt me so much. I was now at the doors to exit the school and I felt myself begin to panic even more as my trembling fingers felt the cold steel door handle that lead me out of the building. As soon as I step out feeling the fresh autumn air I saw my dad pulled up the car and ordered me to get in. I began to panic even more when I noticed Mikey giving me a horrified look from across the parking lot in the corner of my eye but I just shrugged off the guilt of not telling them I was leaving and walked towards the car. Right now my mind was completely shut off. I could here my dad screaming at me from inside the car and I could also see Mikey running towards me hoping he'll catch me in time. Without thought I hopped inside the car and slammed the door behind me. Everything els was just a huge blur of confusion of fear but what I can recall is looking back in the rearview mirror only to see Mikey reaching out, too bad he was too late as I whispered the words 'I'm sorry' to him knowing those are going to be the last words he's ever going to hear from me. I could feel my head start to burn as my dad took off speeding 30 mph over the speed limit. This is how it ends.
The whole ride 'home' he just went on and on about how horrible of a child I am, how no one loves me and that I'm just a wast of space. I could feel the world behind me start to burn down as I looked at my father, he still had barely any hair on his head and his eyes that where still filled with hate. He could say those things so easily like it was no big deal and with every word he spoke made me realize how true they really are. I am worthless. What have I done for the world that positively impacted it? And no one loves me. I just met Gerard and Mikey, mikes is a friend and Gerard will find some other girl to like. Once he pulled in the driveway he shoved open the door and grabbed my hair basically dragging me inside, feeling my hair being ripped from my scalp. I refused to cry, it hurt to keep so much tears locked behind my eyes but I know one day, when I'm in a better place, it will all be worth it. After he slammed the door behind me I could feel him tugging on my hair signaling me to go upstairs, and I obeyed his order hoping that would make him a lot less mad and maybe make his punches and kicks a little bit softer. But it didn't work, not one little bit.

Notes

What happened next to katy!? Will she live? I'll let you guys know tommorow!