Hopeless for ya

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"Do you even understand what you did Gerard?!" Mikey yelled
"I- i dont know it kind of just slipped out" I stammered
"I know how happy Frank makes you Gee... But you could of fucking lost him, for good. The state hes in is in no match for what you wanted" Mikey calmed his voice
"I know im such a fucking dick i-"
"Gerard stop. Dont beat yourself up, No more cutting" Mikey raised his voice again
I was shocked that he knew about that..
"Howd you-"
"Frank called me yesterday saying he doesnt know what to do with you let alone his self" He sighed.
I groaned and walked downstairs to my room.
My body flopped onto my bed and just as i was about to close my eyes my phone buzzed beside me.
Message from Frank.
My eyes lit up and i clicked the message faster than the speed of light.
'Gerard, i need help bc my dad is in my house looking for me and im hiding under my bed:('
"FUCK!" I yell, My poor frankie.
Mikey came running downstairs
I started to shake him not making any sense
"Gerard calm the fuck down whats wrong?!" HE yelled
I tightened my grip
"M-My frankie is trapped with his fucking father" I yelled pushing past mikey and running outside.. no shoes or nothing.
When i get to his house i kick the door open yelling franks name
A man walks fro upstairs in front of me. He looks like hes been doing literally all the drugs that exist
"Who the fuck are you?!" He grabs my shirt and lifts me up
"Your worst nightmare" I smirked and swung my fist meeting his jaw
He stumbled back only for a moment then ran into me, Falling with me to the floor making a loud thud. As that happened we were mangled up trying to take hits at each others faces until the front door opened
"What the fuck?!" Mikey said trying to get Franks father off me
"Mikey get out of this! I dont want you getting hurt!" I yelled at him

I get distracted by Mikey and trying to protect him but little did i know this was a perfect opportunity for Franks dad to fuck me up and thats exactly what he does, A fist right into my nose, One crack and im gone.
Gone into darkness, Im paralyzed cant move or see but i can here faint screaming coming from mikey. Soon i cant hear anything.

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Its been a while and my legs are cramped up. Its also awfully quiet so i decide to check downstairs,
Mikey is crying on the front porch.. Mikey fucking Way is crying.
"Mikey whats wro- oh shit" I gasp at the sight,
Gerard is laying on the ground bleeding from a big gash across his forehead, The scary thing is that his eyes are still fucking open.
Tears well up into my eyes.
"No fuck. F-Fuck" I cry out dropping to the floor
Mikey silences me with a quiet 'shh' and points to the couch
On the couch is my dad knocked out.
I point at mikey and mouthing the words 'did you?' and he nods smiling a little. I crawl over to him giving him a big hug and starting to sob again
"His heart is still beating Frank' He whispers and i freeze letting go and staring at gerards rag doll body.
The strength i never knew i had builds up in to me and im carrying Gerard bridle style into my bedroom
"Want help?" Mikey offers
"Naah. I got it" I smile before entering the room

I throw Gerard onto the bed and i start stripping him down to just his boxers, making sure the doors locked.
"Babe?" I whisper running my hands around his scabbed up gash.
He doesn't move.
I wave my hands infront of his eyes. No flinching whatsoever
Anger builds up inside of me,
"I cant do this, I cant fucking do this, Wake up Gerard!" I yell smacking his face
When i know im just making it worse i slump down against the door staring at him.
"Fine, go ahead and die" I choke out sniffling away my tears
an hour of silence then out of no where i catch a glance at his eyes and their staring at me,
My mouth drops open,
"G-Gerard?" I whisper crawling over to him fast
He blinks but doest talk or move
I seal my lips to his, but theres no kissing back in return, His eyes shut and he starts shaking.
"Shh baby your just in shock" I whisper into his ear taking off my sweater and wrapping it around him
A smile crosses gerards face and i stroke hhis soft black hair in between my fingers.
Gerards eyes squeaze shut and is gasping for air
"G-Gerard" Sobbing but still managing to say words
Gerard catches his breath and opens his eyes
"Hey babe" Gerard says weakly
"Youre gonna be oka-" I get interrupted by Gerard pulling me in for a kiss
i kiss back not realising my tears are still flowing
Gerard breaks the kiss smiling
"Dont cry, im still here" He says patting my shoulder

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