Hopeless for ya

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"So after school you wanna have some fun?" Gerard whispered into my ear before he took my test.
I rolled my eyes at him and smiled
"Shut up" I spoke punching him in the arm playfully
"Mr.Way stop being a pervert and collect the rest of the tests" A stupid jock complained
"I-What?" Gerard stared at him with a confused slash angry look
"We all know you like fucking your students," The jock said
"No." Gerard spoke through clenched teeth
"Babe calm down" I whispered tugging on his arm,
He looked at me until his anger calmed and continued to collect the rest of the assignments.

The bell rang and Gerard almost hurried the last student out and locked the door.
"Uh Gee?" I asked
he turned around quickly and started to walk towards me.
"Yes Iero?"
My legs let out and suddenly i was sitting criss crossed on the floor
"Fra- What in the world" Gerard laughed
"I-uh Come sit next to me yeah?" I said patting the spot beside me
"But theres chairs" he paused slowly starting to sit down next to me,
"And and and my d-desk-"
I didnt let him finish, instead i pulled his hand down causing him to fall right where i wanted him.
He sat there wondering what just happened then clicked back into reality.
"Lets c-cuddle yeah? " I whispered inching my way closer to his body
"I uhm, Okay?" Gerard said hugging me while i let my head fall onto his shoulder
It was a few minutes of silence and slow rocking until Gerard's body tensed up
"Dont you want to lik-"
"No! I dont want sex, we dont need sex, I just want to be near you... I just want to.. to-" I said before gerard cut me off
"Okay i get it... Later?"
"What did i just say?" My voice started to get louder,
"Well i kinda wanted to fuck?" Gerard sounded unsure while his grip let go
Does he not understand that ive just been raped by my fucking dad?!
"Gerard! You.. fuck off" I couldnt say it, Why would i? Did he want me back only for sex or?

Tears started forming and soon falling from the frustration and the memories rolling into my head
"Whats wrong now?" Gerard said annoyed
I clenched my fists and got up
"So all you wanted was sex in this relationship? Huh? Just after i fucking got raped?! Are you kidding me!! Stop thinking about yourself for once! You fucking asshole!" I yelled while stream after stream of tears came running down my face,
I wiped them away quickly with my sleeve and thought about what i said.
Did i just call him an asshole .. I mean yeah, it is kind of a dick move to ask whats wrong when he knows whats wrong.
"Honey i didnt mean- like .. uh" He said coming closer to me
"No get the fuck away from me, y-you .. I GOT RAPED BY MY FATHER AND YOU WANT FUCKING SEX THE DAY AFTER I SAID I WANTED TO BE WITH YOU??? LIKE JUST BECAUSE I SAID 'OH I LOVE YOU' DOESNT MEAN IM HAPPY LIKE MY HEART IS STILL A BROKEN PIECE OF SHIT AND YOUR- FUCKING UGH" I screamed until my voice gave out
Gerard's eyes were wide and watery
"frank.."
"NO! Stop just.. stop" I said scratching my face leaving red marks
"Dont hurt yourself Frank, Oh my god .. i didnt even.. i wasnt thinking"
"Clearly" I said turning to head out of the class room
"No Frank .. Frankie im so sorry, We can do whatever you want i- your right im clearly an asshole just please dont leave ... not again" His voice was raspy and caring but still i couldn't stop myself from being mad at him
"Why should i believe you? I mean im not gonna leave, just give me some time to like 'cool down' " And with that last sentence i walked out of the class and on my way home.

Notes

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