Hopeless for ya

I feel Frank's grip loosen
"Hey Frank you okay?"
"Yeah i just- got a sudden headache and my visions kind of blurred" Frank mumbles
"Sit down Frank" I said grabbing two chairs for me and him to sit, he sits in front of me and looks down
"Please dont be mad at me, im sorry, i really am" He whispers
"Im not mad at you hun, i get in fights all the time but i do have a question" I moved my chair closer and held his hands, his eyes were still focused on the ground though.
"hm" Frank grunted
"Okay, Have you had any suicidal thoughts lately?" I asked
He laughed and looked up
"What?" I asked again confused and unsure on how to react at his sudden laughter
"You got all touchy for that? Ha i thought you were gonna ask about the guy i almost killed" Frank sat there looking at me
"Frank, this is serious" I sighed letting go of his hands
"I looked in your files and i found that theres a history of you struggling with depression ever since when was it .. Grade 6?" I blurted out regretting it, mainly cause i shouldnt of looked there in the first place.
He stared at me and said nothing
"Im sorry, I know it was supposed to be private and all but-"
"Yeah" Frank said sternly while standing up and walking out of the room.
Yeah what?
I sat there staring at the empty chair in front of me until i got the courage to go look for him.

***
Going to the Equipment room would be a way to obvious place, Gee would for sure find me there, no doubt.
Once i finally decided of where to go i head into the washroom with my 'no name' pills. Im not sure what they do, but the feeling of them going down into my stomach feels great.
I open the cap and i shake out 6 tablets. But that doesn't satisfy me ... I take the container and i dump all of them into my mouth. I stare at my reflection and it looks as if someone scratched out my eyes.
Suddenly i hear foot steps and i turn on the tap acting like nothing happened
"Frankie im sorry"
shit
Wait, what. why am even mad at him? Why am i doing this? I love Gerard but something just doesn't feel right.
Without realizing it, im standing in front of Gerard bawling my eyes out while he's trying to talk to me but everything around me blurs out, I can only see Gerard's mouth moving as if he's yelling at me but unfortunately i cant hear shit. My vision gets blurrier and darker by the second and minutes later my vision is completely black .. Are these the symptoms of the pills? Wow i dont know anyone who's dumber than i am. Hopefully i just die of overdose or something, Cause' obviously im not smart enough to live on this planet.
Sorry Gerard.

Notes

I dont really know,
I honestly just splat down some ideas that were in my head
I hope this is good ???
I'll Update in a few