Some like to sleep, We like to play

I wake up to Gerard running his fingers through my hair and softly telling me to wake up. I open my eyes and come face to face with him, his nose barely an inch from mine. Gerard leans forward and attaches his lips to mine and I sigh into his mouth before deepening the kiss and sliding my tongue into his mouth. We press against each other and my hand trails up his back and into his hair where I tangle my fingers. His hair is slightly damp and really soft meaning he just showered and when we pull away for a breath I skim my nose along his jaw line taking in his scent for what might be the last time. "You smell so good" I groan out and he seals his lips over mine again as he pushes me onto my back and climbs over me, holding his weight up off me. We continue to kiss and I trail my hands down his chest and start to unbutton his shirt before pushing it off his shoulders. He slides one hand up my side and then pulls back, kneeling between my legs and pulling my shirt up. I sit up and let him take it off before laying back down and he leans over kissing me again. As we kiss I reach down and undo his belt and once the button on his jeans is open it sparks something in us and it turns frantic. Our clothing gets thrown around the room and Gerard slides himself inside me working up a quick pace. Our hands grab at each other holding on for dear life as we kiss each other hard enough to bruise. You can feel the need and want in the air as we groan out and cum together. We lay there panting side by side and Gerard's hand slides into mine as he links our fingers. "If that was the last time I ever get that with you I'm glad it was so perfect" he pants out and I nod, not being able to form words. We lay there until our breathing returns to normal and Gerard breaks the silence by saying "Thank you for the jacket." I roll my head to look at him and say "You're welcome. I saw it and knew you would love it." He smiles at me and I smile back briefly. "Let's get you in the shower" he says as he gets off the bed and pulls his boxers on. I sit up and he comes over and scoops me up in his arms carrying me to the bathroom. When we get there he puts me down and reaches in to start the shower for me before I step in. As he turns to leave the room I choke out "Don't go." He turns and looks at me and when he sees the look on my face his expression softens and he says "I'm right here baby." I reach out my hand to him and he walks over and takes it, bringing my hand up and kissing it. I feel my heart rate easing and I smile a little as I start to wash myself.

At the restaurant Gerard pulls my chair out for me before he rounds the table and takes his own seat. After our order is taken I sit back and start to rub my bump. "You ok?" Gerard asks and I nod saying "The baby's just kicking a lot." Gerard smiles and says "That sucks." We make small talk until the meal comes out, talking about how the rest of the tour went and avoiding the conversation we know we need to be having. As we eat the conversation slows and between dinner and dessert Gerard says "Ok we need to stop avoiding this. Z you fucking broke my heart. You told me why you did it but I just can't understand. Was I a bad husband? Did I neglect you?" I shake my head and try to stop the tears I feel wanting to break free. "I love you Gerard and I know I broke your heart but you did the same to me in the past. I'm not saying that excuses what I did, I know it doesn't but I just feel this attraction to Frank that I can't explain. I know the way I feel is wrong but I can't help it. I never intended to cheat on you, I stumbled into a fucked up situation and I let my hormones make the decision for me and I do regret hurting you like that, more than you'll ever know." Gerard nods in understanding before saying "I don't know if I can trust you anymore Z." I hang my head as the tears I am desperately trying to hold back stream down my face. "Do you not want me anymore?" I sob out quietly and when I look up I can't read his expression. We sit in silence for what seems like hours but can only be a minute or two. "Who do you want Azali? I can't do this anymore. Is it me or Frank?" I open my mouth to speak but the waiter comes over and brings our dessert, interrupting me.

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