The Mind Library

I already have done 2 more books which were alright. One was our first concert and the other was when Grandma Elena died.
I have been jumping from book to book trying to stay out of the room. I have no clue where that thing is and I don’t want have another in counter. But right now I just want take a five minute break just to see if it would come back. Just in case it dose would keep a book near me so I can make a quick exit.
I grabbed a cushion and walk to the drawing wall. I plopped down and started drawing some picture of a cat till I felt a presence. I slowly grabbed to book and turned around. But to my shock I wasn’t the monster it was Mikey. Not a scary eyeless Mikey. Really him.
I dropped the book and ran to give him a hug. He giggled and hugged back. I can’t believe it I truly can’t. He looked very young like in the picture from the other day. Not like child young but twenties young. He was also wearing the same black clothes I was wearing. One thing that broke me was how gaunt he looked.
“I missed you so much Gee.” He said breaking the hug.
“I missed you to Mikey.” I said walking him over to the other chair so he could sit.
“Do you happen to know what’s going on.” He asked. I then proceeded to tell him everything that I know about being in a Mind Library.
“So we have to go through all of the books? That will take forever.” he said pouting.
“What have you gone through so far?” I asked
“Only one which was when I almost stuck that fork in the toaster. How is that even an important memory? Any ways once I got out of that I was sent here. Which was very odd? He said. I sat there till I remembered about the note.
“I only got this when I got here.” I said pulling the note out of my pocket and handing it to him. He read it quickly then handed it back.
“That is very cute. I guess when your new here you get sort of sign to tell you about this place. You got the note and I got you.” He said leaning back crossing his legs. For the next couple of minute we talked about some memories I had and how we imagine the afterlife. Soon he started to look faded.
“Gerard it’s time for me to go.” He said sadly. I walked over to him and gave him a bear hug and a kiss on the forehead.
“You be strong ok. Keep doing the books. Soon we can be together with the others.” I start to feel a tear form in my eye.
“I’ll try Gee.” He said letting go and disappearing. I was now alone in this fucked up library again. Running my fingers through my hair and took a sip of coffee before picking up my escape book and opening it.
--Memory ---
“Hey I’m going for a hike.” I called to Mikey. We live together because I don’t trust him being alone. Plus it was easy to get to the recording studio.
“Alright be careful.” He called from the living room. I start to pack some stuff for the hike and was off on my merry way.
When I got to the mountain park place I start walking and thinking about life. I went into some deep thoughts that made me wonder about my excitants. I always had a very active imagination. Some dark thoughts like death and murder. Other times I think about life in general. I constantly think of case scenarios.
This is good because I can think about my life and understand my purpose. Like some triggers for why I am ‘messed up’. But by thinking about this kind of stuff I become lonely and just end up isolating myself. I have always done that for some reason. Spend all day in my room drawing, writing, thinking. It’s what I’m good at.
I can’t help but think about that night when I almost did end my life. It has been I think 4 months now and I’m getting help for my drug and alcohol addiction. Frank and I are now together but were too afraid to tell our fans yet. We don’t know how they’re going to take it. Hopefully well.
I was so distracted about thinking about Frank that I walk off trail. It was until the ground starts to get tougher to walk on when I notice that I’m in the middle of the woods. I looked around for any sight of a trial but nothing just trees, rocks, and eyeless bloody me.
Fuck
The monster stood there facing me not moving an inch. I start to panic waiting for it to do something. But nothing. After a minute of awkward staring it let out a loud screech and ran towards me. I starting running aimlessly trying to get away but it was on my tail. Eventually it got me and pinned me down letting out ear bursting screeches. I start to cry, kick, and call for help. But of course nothing. It got closer and closer to my face but then there was a flash of light.
--- End of Memory---
I was back to the room still crying but quickly turned into anger and I through the book across the room.
“THAT NEVERED HAPPENED.” I screamed pacing around running my hand through my hair. I looked up to see the book open to a random page with something written on it.
‘There are some glitches in your Library. Please calm down and they will go away soon.’ I took a deep breath calming myself down. But I still felt scared and alone. I walked to a corner and sat down pulling my legs to my chest. Slowly rocking myself back and forth. Once my face touch my knees I started to cry.
I felt alone before but this was way too crazy. I cried about how much I missed Frank and Mikey and the others. After what felt like hours of crying I looked up to see something on the chair. I stood up wiping away my tears to see what it was. To my shock I was a change of clothes and a note.
‘The problem has been detected.’ I looked down at the clothes and this time there were all white. I don’t really care for white but I need a new shirt so this will have to do. I quickly replaced it but looked down at my scar which was bleeding again. I don’t know how but it just reopened. It looked just like that night when I got it. I quickly ripped up the black shirt and wrapped myself up to stop the bleeding.
That’s really odd and I’m kind of alarmed. Did that monster do it? I don’t know but I’m bleeding again and it hurts.

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