True life of frerard

Gerard's POV

i sat on the edge of my bed thinking about how I could ever let him, he's so perfect and amazing, let escape my grasp! I felt my eyes swell up and my throat grow sore until I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. I didn't kiss bert, I don't even like him. Not after what he did to Frankie! I don't know how to prove to him that it wasn't my fault. Not like he'd believe me anyway!

Mikey walked in with a coffee, he must of heard what happened. He put the hot, steaming cup of coffee on my side table and hugged me tightly. "What happened bro?" He asked and I felt his grip loosen and his gazing stare burn into me. "It wasn't my fault!" I could hardly manage to get out my mouth before bawling into tears again "I don't even like bert! He was the one who made me!!" Mikey froze and looked sympathetic for me, which I didn't need right now! I just needed some help! "What can I do Mikey?! I need to make things right again!" He thought for a minute before opening his mouth and huffing "I really don't know...I've never been this stuck before." He stood up and walked to the door, "just do what you think you need to do" And he walked out. I sat and drunk my coffee whilst thinking carefully. "He hates me now!!" I screamed and threw my cup out of anger, the now cold coffee stained my carpet a dark brown colour.
But I didn't get up, instead I just looked with a vacant expression.
No tears.
No sobs.
No emotion.
I picked up my phone and dialled franks number but it went straight to answer machine. "FUCK!" I shouted
"Gerard go to sleep and talk to him at school in the morning!" Mikey sounded stressed and tired but I wouldn't be able to sleep so I tried franks number one more time. No answer. I found myself crying silently into my pillow slowly drifting off to a bad nights sleep.

Notes

So....?
~JadeWay XØ