True life of frerard

a loud bang hit on the door making me jult forward.
"frank if you dont open this door im gunna have to force it open!" he was now in tears and you could hear the panic in his voice.
what if he hated me?! i dont think i could live with myself!
i guess thats just a chance i was going to have to take. i peered from around the door and tried not to make eye contact. his hand pulled the door all the way open and he gripped his soft, caring arms around my neck, hugging me tight.
"you scared me shitless!" he said, i just nodded trying hard to hide the red puffy cuts that kissed my arms. "what were you doing in the-" he stopped halfway through his sentenced as his fingers traced over the open wounds. i winced in pain and tried to pull back but his grip was too strong, he pulled me back and just stared. speechless.

"w-why..." he stuttered, they were the only words he managed to whisper before breaking into loud sobs.

"im sorry...its just all too much...i just needed love..." i sounded so pathetic, and i felt so bad.

"i love you though..." he whimpered "am i not enough..." his face dropped and he let go of my arm. some part of me missed his demanding grip.

"no! i just wish you'd tell me more..." FUCK!! DONT SAY THAT FRANK!

"im sorry. i'll make sure i tell you...just no more, well...that." he pointed to my cuts and i nodded. he was right. "because...i love you!"

my face instantly lit up and a tear fell down my cheek "i love you too...and im sorry..." i promised myself i wouldn't do it again. for gerard.

Notes

a little better and more happy? dunno! blehh!!
this is for you, love you holly xox
~JadeWay XO