Everything Will Be Ok

***Mikey’s POV***
I stood there, alone in the kitchen as I could hear Gerard angrily slamming his bedroom doors closed. I sighed. What the hell has gotten into him? I know he’s been going through a lot, but he never used to act this way. It’s like he’s changed since Grandma Helena died. A tear rolled down my cheek as memories of Helena fled back into my mind. I wiped my teary eyes with my sleeve as I threw away the pills and headed up the stairs. Usually when Gerard and I got into a fight, I would go and have a talk with him, but he definitely did not seem in the mood to have a conversation right now. Instead, I decided to go talk to Taylor. I walked over to her room and gently knocked on her door. “Gerard, I said go away!” She yelled from the other side of the door. “It’s not Gerard. It’s me, Mikey.” I confirmed. “Can I come in?” I asked hopefully. “Yea…I guess.” She said, as I creaked open the door to reveal a slightly damaged Taylor. “Are you ok?” I asked as I sat on the bed next to her. “Yeah, I’m fine.” She mumbled. “You don’t seem fine.” She brushed her black, silk hair out of her face. “I promise you I am…I’m j-just…” She stuttered. “Just what?” I waited for her to finish her sentence. “I’m j-just mad at Gerard.” She croaked. “Why?” I asked quietly. “Because this whole time he acted like he loved me…and now he won’t even tell me why he dumped me…” I was shocked at her response. Did Gerard really not tell her about Lindsey being pregnant? I dint know how to respond. I mean I can’t just tell her everything…That is Gerard’s job to tell her not mine. “But I’m not surprised that he dumped me though.” I gave her a puzzled look. “What do you mean?” She kept her head down, not facing me. “Well it was just stupid of me to believe that someone could actually love me. Nobody loves me. For fuck sake I don’t even love myself.” She whimpered. My heart began to ache from her words. “How could you say that?! Taylor, you are loved…Gerard loves you more than anything still…and-“I hesitated before I could say anything else. “And what?” She waited for my response. “A-and… I love you Taylor…” I mumbled. Her eyes widened. Before she could say anything, I did what I had wanted to do since the day I had met her. I leaned in and kissed her. Our lips were pressed hard against each other’s, and that’s when I realized that she was actually kissing me back! I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I dint want to stop. God, Gerard would literally kill me if he found out about this. But he did break up with her, so it’s not like breaking any rule for kissing her. She gave out a soft moan as I ran my hand up her thigh. The kiss was getting more intimate until she finally pushed me off her. “What’s wrong?” I asked confused. “Mikey, you are a great friend and all…but I still love Gerard.” I’m not going to lie and say that it didn’t break my heart when she said that, but I couldn’t be stupid enough to actually believe that she would go for me. “I-I understand…I’m sorry…”I just wanted to slap myself for how stupid I was. It was so frustrating that every girl I liked that came across me, would always go for my brother. “It’s ok…” She replied. Before she could say anything else I bolted out the door and ran over to my room, just hoping that I would never have to confront her ever again.

***Gerard’s POV***
I laid myself on my bed as I just tried to fall asleep and forget about what had happened.I was still so broken from everything Taylor had said to me earlier. She now thinks I’m a douche and will never want to talk to me again. I sighed. Right now, all I wanted to do was just lie here and get high to forget about everything. But I knew there was no way of that happening, since Mikey will just get mad at me all over again. Maybe Lindsey was right. What if I’m not suitable enough to be a father? If I can’t even take care of myself, how am I supposed to take care of my first born child? All these questions went through my head as began to slowly drift to sleep. I was just hoping that this time as I fall asleep, I wouldn’t have to ever wake up.

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