Summer Break

I woke up with no Gerard by my side. I got out of the bed and decided to get dressed and ready for the day. I opened the door in Gerard’s room and climbed up the steps. I was greeted with the bright sun leaking through the windows. I squinted my eyes to try and block out the bright light. I heard a slight grumble come from my stomach. I walked into the kitchen and made me just a plain sandwich. I walked groggily over to the table and sat down. I was enjoying my sandwich but now I couldn’t because I heard Mikey wake up from the living room. Flashbacks of last night were running through my head now.

I got up out of my seat and put my plate in the sink. The dishes were getting pretty piled up so I decided to do them. I can at least do something around here rather than sit on my ass all day. I mean they do practically let me stay here every day and hell, it even seems like I live here.

I filled up the sink with warm water and put dish soap in the water. I grabbed the sponge and soaked it in soap and began washing. It may seem weird but I like to wash dishes sometimes because it brought back memories of when me and my dad would mess around with the bubbles. That was before he turned into an asshole and a criminal. After cleaning about 3 plates I heard the sound of a chair screech against the tile floor. All my muscles tensed up because I knew who was sitting right behind me. There was a long silence until Mikey spoke up.

“Hey.” Mikey said groggily. I was hesitant to answer but finally spoke back.

“Hi.” I really didn’t feel like talking because I knew what would come up into our conversation.

I know I told Gerard I would talk about it with Mikey and get over it. It’s just, I really can’t and don’t want to talk about it. I wasn’t mad at Mikey before but just thinking about the situation makes me pissed off. Mikey knows perfectly well that I'm dating Gerard and that I love him. My thoughts were cut off when Mikey spoke up again.

“Gerard went to his first day at work today and mom is at work, if you were wondering.”

“Gerard got a job?” I asked now giving my full attention to Mikey.

“Yeah, Mom was having a hard time with money like paying the bills and buying food so Gerard decided to help her out.”

“Oh.” Speaking of bills. I wonder how my mom is doing. Sometimes I really don’t want to know because if I saw that she was high off of pills again I wouldn’t stop feeling upset and know that my mother’s life was in risk. I tried to tell her to go get help but she doesn’t believe it will work.

There was yet another long silence between us and to be honest I was happy about it. The only noise made was the sound of the dishes clanging on each other.

“Frank about last night I’m-“

“It’s fine don’t worry about it. You didn’t know. You were pretty much high the whole time.” I mumbled the last part. I was now starting to get upset because I knew this would come up sometime in our “conversation”.

“No Frank it’s not fine. I kissed you and you are dating Gerard, my brother! Oh god, Gerard. What is he going to do when he finds-“

“Mikey! I said it was ok! Just, just forget about the whole thing and stop worrying about it. It’s done, it’s over with. Ok?”

“No Frank. We need to talk about it.” I was starting to get more annoyed with this conversation already. I scoffed at Mikey and replied back.

“Ok Mikey, what do you want to talk about?” I said aggravated. I turned around and faced Mikey waiting to hear what he had to say.

“Well um..about..the kiss.”

“Ok let’s see the kiss. Hmm, I think I remember. You kissed me last night on the lips and now here we are.”

“Frank it’s not just about the kiss. It’s, it’s the reason behind the kiss.” I looked at him and relaxed my jaw a little. I moved my hands around to signal him to go on. Yeah I know I was being a total asshole but I just didn't want to talk about this.

“Frank I’m, I’m… starting to have feeling for you.” Mikey said looking down at the floor ashamed to look up. I figured out that he had feelings for me last night but I'm just shocked that he admitted about his feelings towards me.

“Come here.”

“Frank what are you doing?”

“Just come here.” Mikey was hesitant at first but eventually got up and did what I said. He started walking over to me and once he was right in front of me I gave him a big hug.

“Mikey I'm, I'm so sorry for acting like an ass to you. Gerard told me everything last night and I'm sorry.”

“Wait. What did he tell you?”

“Well um he told me about how you started doing drugs and started drinking after your parents divorced.”

“And he didn’t even tell you about his problems?” Mikey said looking at me now.

“What problems?”

“Fuck… He said he was going to tell you.” Mikey said putting his hand through his hair.

“Mikey? What is it?” I was getting really nervous now.

“Well. Ok. Gerard also has a drinking and drug problem.” What? I was speechless. Why did he never tell me? Was he scared to tell me?

“That’s probably what he was going to tell me last night. Right?”

“I don’t know but probably. He has wanted to tell you for a while he just didn’t know how to.”

“When did it all start?” I had a lot of questions racing through my mind right now.

“Well the drinking started in 8th grade and the drugs started in high school. You see, Gerard would get depressed so much from our mom and dad fighting every night and the abuse at school. He would get bullied and beaten up every day at school for being gay. One day he told a boy that he liked him and was wondering if they could hang out sometime and the boy beat him up after school. Do you know what it’s like looking for your brother and then finding him lying in his own blood crying? It’s not fun, trust me. But do you know what else it feels like seeing your brother and hear him say how useless he is and try to kill his self right in front of you while you plead for him to stop.” Mikey was now sobbing into my shoulder while I was doing the same.
We sat there in a crying heap on the floor while one kept on saying its ok.

“Hey Mikes?”

“Yeah?”

“Has, has Gerard stopped with the drugs and the drinking?”

“I-I don’t think so. I think he has been getting into my medication again and he went out one night and came back wasted.”

“Oh Mikey.” I said crying again into his shoulder. “I’m sorry about what you have dealt with and I’m sorry for being an ass to you.”

“It’s ok and thank you for being there for me.” Mikey said giving me a small smile and we gave each other another hug.

“I'm always going to be there for you. You’re my best friend.” I said with a smile.

“Thanks Frank. Hey um I’m going to go out for a while. Just to go get some fresh air.”

“Oh o-okay um…have fun.”

“Bye Frank.” Mikey said giving me a smile and a small wave and walked out the door. Well I’m all alone now.

~~~TIME LAPSE~~~

It’s now 6 o’clock and Ms. Way is supposed to get off of work at 8 and I don’t even know when Gerard will be home. Mikey hasn’t come home either. I decided to go to bed early because I have been making their house all clean and tidy all day as a thank you gift for letting me spend the night all those nights. I take a quick shower and change into one of Gerard’s shirts, it was pretty big but I didn’t mind, and my sweat pants. I climbed into Gerard’s bed and closed my eyes to try and fall asleep.

~~~TIME LAPSE~~~

I’m about to give up. I keep on waking up and only an hour has passed. After 30 minutes of just staring at the wall I heard the sound of the door opening and a figure come in.

“Frankie?” It was Gerard. I pretended to be asleep because, well, I really didn’t know. Gerard walked over to me and gave me a small kiss on the cheek.

“Goodnight Frankie I love you.” I smiled at those 5 words and was almost asleep until I heard a bang.

“Fuck.” Gerard huffed under his breath. He looked over in my direction to see if I was awake. I kept my eyes closed still pretending to be asleep. Gerard then turned back around and I opened my eyes a little. He was picking up a, box? He pulled something out of it and popped open the cap. It finally hit me and I realized that he was holding a pill bottle. Those must be the drugs he takes. Fuck. I was getting too upset and started crying softly. Gerard looked at me and hid the bottle under his dresser and walked over to me.

“Frankie?” Gerard said asking concerned. “Frankie what’s wrong?” I sniffled and put my head under the covers.

“It-It’s nothing.”

“Come on you can tell me.” Gerard said poking his head under the covers now. I looked at him and got out of the covers and the bed and walked over to the pill bottle “hidden” under the dresser. I picked it up and looked at the label and saw the words ‘XANAX’ written on it. I turned around and faced Gerard and saw his face go pale.

“Why didn’t you tell me Gerard?”

Notes

Hey guys sorry for the long wait. 1,719 words! I didn't really think this chapter was that good and I re-wrote it a lot but I still don't think it's good, but I hope you guys like it. So I listened to the last song from MCR "Fake Your Death" yesterday and I cried a lot. Oh and I found out Mikey has a new band, interesting. Oh and by the way I want you guys to go and check out this idea and may consider doing it. I'm doing mine tomorrow so go check it out.
http://www.mychemicalromancefanfiction.com/Story/36132/MCRmy-I-need-your-help/1/
Hope you guys have a good day and again sorry for the delay.
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