Our Lady Of Sorrows

“We need to talk.” I told her.

“Sounds serious.” She said.

“Yeah, it is…. It’s about Gerard and I.”

“Well go on.” She pressed.

“I uh-I don’t really know how to say this.”

“Just come out and say it, it cant be that bad.” She said and grabbed my hand.

“Okay.” I took a deep breath, “ I’m pregnant.” I said

“What?’ She removed her hand from mine.

“The first night we moved here and you told me to go have fun I met Gerard at a bar and we got drunk and slept together, then the next day we ran into each other and I was mad at him then we meet in school and started to date and since then we’ve been together and we’ve never slept together since.” I said that all in one breath then took another deep one and started to talk again, “When we found out about the baby I wanted and abortion but Gerard convinced me not to and I wanted to give it up for adoption and I don’t want to raise it, but Gerard said he would legally take care of it.” I said.

Her face was clearly shocked, her eyes immediately fell to my stomach which was hidden by the hoodie I was wearing.

“Take it off.” She said.

I did what I was told and her eyes grew wide as she saw the baby growing inside of me. She came closer to me, I don’t know why but I felt afraid of her as she came closer to me. Her hand rested on the bump and the baby kicked once then stopped.

“Oh my god.” She said, “How are you so irresponsible!”

“I don’t know.” I said and I started crying.

“I cant.” She said and stood up then walked away.

“Mom!” I said and I ran after her.

“Liz, just-don’t” She said and walked out of the house.

I heard her car start then pull away from the driveway. I just walked over to the sofa and fell on it and started crying. A few minutes later I heard the front door open and I looked up hoping it was my mom coming back but it was Gerard.

“I saw your mom leaving, are you okay?” He asked andcome over to me.

“I thought I told you to leave.” I told him.

“You did but I couldn’t leave you.”He said.

“Gerard just leave me alone.”

“Liz-” He started.

“No! If it weren’t for you I wouldn’t be pregnant, I would have gotten into a big fight with my mom and I would be in high school enjoying my life!” I yelled at him.

“Look Liz, I never tried to-”

“Stop.” I said as I cried more into my hands.

“Liz.” He said firmly and came over to me and grabbed my face and made me look at him, “Please.” He said.

He opened his arms to me and I crawled into his lap and cried my eyes out as he held me and tried to calm me down. I didn’t calm down but I felt better knowing Gerard was there holding me. I wonder how long this would when the baby was born.

Notes

Till next we meet my killjoys