1,000 Things To Do Before You Die

“I just was so mad you know. I actually liked him, I thought he maybe liked me back..” I ranted pausing for a breath. “I just thought we could be together. And then he stopped talking to me and I just got so mad, he was supposed to be my best friend.”
“I've gotta get going before my boss flips out on me.” Emily sighed
“Okay by!” I smiled as I hung up the phone. After I hung up I heard the familiar sound of my cell phone ringing. I looked at the caller ID. You would not believe who was calling. It was no other than Michael James Way, my ex-bestfriend.
After all this time I didn't delete his contact. I didn't block him on Facebook, I didn't unfollow him on twitter. I didn't even change the personalized ring tone I had for him. I remember every time I heard that song I would feel so happy, and filled with excitement, because Mikey Way was calling me.
But instead of feeling filled with happiness, I just felt numb and anxious. I don't know how to feel. I still love him, but I just sit there while the phone rings in my hand. I muster up enough energy to hit 'Accept Call' but by that time he has already given up. I don't know what the hell to do. Do I call him back..? Do I wait for him to call again. I –
Before I could think about it for two long a 'voice-mail' icon appeared on the lock screen of my iPhone. I hesitated at first but I opened it up.
“Hey... There's a lot we need to talk about Lee. I missed you so much... We need to talk. You probably know this already but, I'm coming back to Belleville with Gee, Frank, and Ray. I was hoping to be the one to tell you but I guess it was on the radio... We'll be back in about three days give or take. I'm really sorry hat I dropped contact with you. Please forgive me, I've got a lot of explaining to do I know. Please call me back.”
I just stood there holding my phone. My thumb hovered over the call option on his contact name. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say. I was mad, but more than anything I wanted Mikey back in my life. He was always my friend.. More importantly how do I tell him about the cancer? How do I tell him they can't help me anymore.
I hit call. It rung once or twice before he picked it up. “Hello?” He said eagerly “Lena?”
“H-Hi.” I stuttered Shit. He can tell I'm nervous.
“Oh my god. I'm so glad to hear your voice again..” Mikey said, he sounded happy and relieved. But I could sense that he was also maybe sad. Or maybe he felt bad...
“Its – I'm glad to hear yours too.” I said sternly.
“I missed you...” He trailed off. “Please don't be angry with me. I feel so guilty, I just stopped talking to you... I left you alone...”
“Look, lets just talk about it when you get home okay?” I sighed. I didn't want to talk right now, My head was spinning and I felt like I was going to vomit.
“Oh okay.” Mikey said softly. “I guess I'll call you later.”
He hung up and the room swirled around me, I felt horribly dizzy. I tried to walk towards the bathroom, but I fell over. God dammit! I thought angrily as I sat back up. Before I could take another step I vomited allover the floor.
I forced myself to stand up. I was still awful dizzy but I got over it. I cleaned up the vomit and shot a text off to Emily. Mikey called. I sent. I walked over to my room, grabbed my iPod and played my favorite My Chemical Romance song; Demolition Lovers.
Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and
I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running...
After the song was over I completely fell asleep. All I could think about was Mikey. It wasn't thoughts like I love him so much omg. It was more along the lines of What the hell am I supposed to say to him?

Notes

Hi,
Sorry for taking forever. My computer was being a bitch to me. Hahah :P Hope you like it :D The next chapter will be better!