My enemy. My everything.

Kitzie was slowly making her way upstairs. Mikey caught up and followed closely behind, keeping enough distance that she wouldn’t know he was following her. As Kitzie headed to Mikey’s room, two of the partygoers from school who were loitering upstairs called out to her.

“Going to the bedroom Kitzie? Want some company babe?” They laughed. One winked. Kitzie barely acknowledged them. They were just boys from school and didn’t concern her. The one who spoke to her got in her way and wouldn’t let her past. “Don’t be shy honey.”

He reached to run his hand down her arm, but Mikey stepped in and grabbed his arm before he could touch her. “She doesn’t want you touching her.”

The guy smirked. Glanced at Kitzie who was looking at Mikey in shock and back to Mikey again. “She hasn’t said anything man. Maybe she does want me touching her. Hey Kitzie?”

Mikey stepped in front of her, putting his body between the two. “Ok. I don’t want you touching her. So your not going to even fucking look at her again. Understand?”

The other guy looked shocked and intimidated mostly from the intensity of Mikey’s glare. “Hey dude, I didn’t know she was yours ok.”

“Well she is. Kitzie get in my room right now.” Mikey was angry. Kitzie didn’t do what he asked. She knew what being alone with an angry Mikey could lead to. He’d been drinking and he just called herhis. After ignoring her all night and being angry with her he demanded she be alone in his room with him. She tried her best not to believe he was going to slap her or do something else to hurt her. He wouldn’t do that would he? He had told her before that he didn’t think the way he had hurt her before was ok. But now he was a bit drunk. Who knew what he would be ok with in his drunk and angry state? She just couldn’t force herself to take the steps into his room like he asked when she didn’t know just how mad he was.

When Mikey realised she hadn’t done as he’d said, he ignored it for the moment. He needed to get rid of their audience. He faced the guys and said “You need to go back downstairs. No one is supposed to be up here.”

They mumbled apologies then went downstairs. Kitzie wanted to go downstairs with them. Anything not to be alone with Mikey. She knew he’d at least give her a verbal serving for being difficult. Even that was something she didn’t think she could cope with. Once the others were gone he turned his attention back to her. His eyes were angry. This was bad.

“Did you not hear me Kitzie? Get in my fucking room. We need to talk.”

She was getting angry herself now. He was acting like his old self. The bad one. “We’ll talk later Mikey.” She said, blowing him off and starting to walk away. Mikey grabbed her arm and flung her into his room and shut the door behind them, locking it.

“We’re talking right now. What the fuck is your problem? How hard is it for you to follow simple instructions?”

Kitzie glared at him. “Simple instructions like don’t talk to people? Get in your room? Who do you think you are Mikey? Your making rules for me now. Telling me what I can and can’t do and who I’m allowed to talk to.”

“I only make rules to protect you. You attract the wrong men.”

Kitzie shook her head in disbelief. Like it what had happened before was her fault. “Don’t worry Mikey I’m starting to see that. Definitely the wrong men.” She ran her eyes up and down him and he could hear the hidden meaning in her words. She was talking about him when she said it.

He took a couple of steps towards her. “And just what the fuck is that supposed to mean Kitz?”

He was becoming scary now. Getting closer and leaning over her. She regretted upsetting him and talking back. But she had too much pride to stop now. “I mean your rules for how I can live my life are stupid and I’m not going to follow them. You need to stop this possessive attitude you have towards me Mikey.” She swallowed loudly trying to overcome her building nervousness. “Your turning into a really controlling person. You won’t let me leave your side.” She practically spat the words at him.

Mikey smirked but it was in rage not amusement. He started advancing on her slowly while he spoke. “You want me to show you ‘controlling’ Kitzie? You want to see what me being controlling looks like?”

With each step Mikey took forwards she took back. “Mikey stop it. Your scaring me.”

Mikey stopped still. He could see she was intimidated. That was enough. He’d made his point. “You need to follow my rules Kitzie. There for your own good.”

“Right now I just want to leave. I’m not following stupid rules.” Kitzie started picking up her stuff and putting it in a bag. She was going to go back to her house. Mikey couldn’t let that happen. He needed her to calm down. He needed to calm down himself.

“Come on Kitz. Be smart. Put your stuff down. We can talk about this.”

“Just let me go back so you can calm down. Thank you for everything you’ve done but we need some time apart because I’m making you angry… And when your angry… You aren’t much fun to be around.” She admitted the last part very softly not even wanting to admit it.

It wasn’t surprising to Mikey. He knew he scared her in the past. He didn’t care. She wasn’t going to come into his life and spend this much time with him and leave whenever it suited her. Didn’t she remember the way things were before? He was in control of the situation. He’d cut her a break by being nice to her and looking after her. She wasn’t going to just leave in the middle of the night, drunk. They’d make up he knew it. But she couldn’t leave now. He let her busy herself getting her things together while he went to his desk where her keys were and picked them up. Kitzie went to get the keys from the desk, saw they weren’t there and looked to Mikey who had them in his hand.

“Put your shit down Kitzie. Your staying.”

“Give me my keys Mikey. I just want to be alone for a while.”

Mikey was not impressed. “I’m warning you Kitten. Put the bags down right now. Your not leaving this room.”

Kitzie looked at him strangely. “Don’t make this difficult. If I want to leave you cant stop me.”

“Do you want to test that theory? Come on, come get your keys from me.”

Kitzie was becoming just as angry as he was. She wasn’t going to back down. Mikey could scare her all he wanted but she was leaving whether he like it or not. She took two steps forward and closed the space between them and reached for the keys. He held them high up where she couldn’t reach them. She tried to pull his arm down but couldn’t. Mikey snickered and that made her twice as angry. She shoved him. Not hard at all just enough to know she was serious.

“Careful Kitzie.”

“You don’t scare me Mikey.” She lied.

Mikey moved towards her. “I happen to know that I do.”

The way he looked at her scared her. She started backing up. “Stop this please.”

Mikey kept moving towards her. She panicked and pushed him away and when she started to run for the door leaving her things behind he grabbed her around the waist from behind and pulled her into him. He was too strong for her to break his hold so she didn’t bother trying. She just huddled into herself and gently started crying wishing she had never made him mad. She would never win against him. She’d only make things worse taking him on. With both arms rapped around her holding her arms against her sides Mikey leaned his mouth down to her ear and said. “Your not fucking going anywhere. Say it!”

Kitzie began sobbing uncontrollably but she’d already had enough. “I’m not going anywhere.”

“Good girl.” Mikey let her go.

As soon as Mikey stepped away from her Kitzie made a run for the door but when she got there it was locked. In the second it took her to fiddle with the lock Mikey grabbed her. “Are you fucking kidding me Kitzie? Are you fucking stupid!” He pulled her back and when she tried to break free of his hold she fell down causing Mikey to fall down on top of her. He quickly rolled her on her back and looked over to make sure she hadn’t hurt herself. Kitzie kept pushing at him and tried to push his face away. He caught her hand in time and grabbed the other then pinned the two beside her putting his full weight on her to keep her still. He was only trying to stop her from trying to hurt him which would more likely lead to her hurting herself. Kitzie didn’t take it that way. She panicked entirely and Mikey hadn’t realised that by laying on top of her and holding her arms down he had just created a scene that would utterly terrify her.

“Just stay still Kitzie. Just stay fucking still!”

She did. Instantly. She stay perfectly still and when he looked into her eyes he saw they were full of tears and devastation. “I-I’m sorry Mikey. Please don’t be mad. I’ll stay still. I’ll stay with you.” Mikey looked at her in shock. He still hadn’t realised what got her so terrified. It wasn’t like he was really going to hit her. She knew that. Didn’t she? “I didn’t mean it. Don’t do this.”

Mikey squinted at her. “Don’t do what Kitzie?” She said nothing. Mikey pressed again fearing the worst. Silence. “Don’t do what baby?” He saw the look in her eyes and everything clicked. She fell, he fell on top of her. She tried to get away, he held her arms down. He pushed his entire body on top of hers and when he looked down at theire bodies he realised he had somehow managed to push himself down so his body lay between her legs. In a moment of shock he realised he had failed to notice that he was pinning her to the ground and he was between her legs. He sighed in utter self disgust. He got up quickly and pulled her up by the arms pulling the both of them to his bed. He sat down and pulled the shaking girl onto his lap, holding her. “No Kitten. Not that. Never that.”

She said nothing. All he could hear were her little gasps as she tried to inhale air into her lungs. He put his hand on the back of her head and pulled her face into his neck, rubbing soothing circles with one hand on the small of her back. She remained silent still. Mikey had to try not to be physically ill from his realisation. That Kitzie could possibly think he was capable of that. “Never, ever that baby. I wont ever do what your thinking.”

Kitzie was still sobbing. “Im sorry. I made you mad. I always make you mad.”

“You’ll never make me mad enough to do that.”

Kitzie held onto Mikey like her life depended on it. Then she did something very unexpected. She kissed his neck tenderly. Once, twice, then worked her way up his jaw. Finally she reached his lips and kissed them while her own lips still trembled. Mikey got very caught up in the moment. He kissed her back with ferocity. Then layed her back down on the bed and crawled on top of her carefully so as not to put too much weight on her and frighten her again. They kissed passionately and he ran his hand slowly up her side. Then he wondered why was she doing this? He pulled away from their kisses to look in her eyes. Fear. Fear still there. He got off her immediately and sat away from her on the bed and put his head in his hands.

“Your kissing me so I wont hurt you, aren’t you Kitzie?”

“No Mikey. That’s not it.” She stammered.

She didn’t convince him. He had read about this in his book on trauma. He should have expected it. She was trying to do whatever she could to neutralise what she deemed to be a threatening situation. Oh yes, Mikey knew exactly what she was doing. And his inability to control his temper was the reason why she was doing it to him.

Notes

The idea for the last part of this chapter came from someone who told me (a long time ago) there sister began behaving that way after something similar happened to her. Shes not someone who will ever read this story though.

How should Mikey respond to Kitzie now?