You think I choose to be like this? [Frerard]

I wake up in my bed at home. Wait! My bed? How did I get here? I was at Frankie's... Mikey must've carried me here. Where is Mikey? I'll text him later. Ah, my head!
"Amy? You in here sweetie?" My mom asks from outside my room.
"Yeah mom, I'm here," I reply, sitting up as she slowly pushes my door open, walks over to my bed and sits by my feet.
"You don't look well Amy," she says worriedly.
"I'm gonna throw up," I mutter, getting up and sprinting to the bathroom only to find something I didn't want to.
Gerard.
Laying in the bath, in a pool of his own blood and vomit.
What the fuck happened?
I empty my stomach contents into the toilet, coughing afterwards.
"Amy! Are you ok?" She calls, running into the bathroom, shock clear on her face as she takes in the sight of the lifeless Gerard and the crying me, hunched over the toilet.
I lift my head, my hands clutching the toilet for dear life. "Cough - call - cough - 911," I weakly say, dropping my head back down and throwing up the rest of my stomach contents.
"Ok, I'll be back in a minute honey," she says and runs out of the bathroom to call 911.
I push away from the toilet and kneel next to the bath. "Oh Gee. What have you done?" I cry as I drop my head into my hands and sob uncontrollably.
"Ambulance is on its way sweetheart. Do you need me to tell anyone else?" Mom says as she leans on the bathroom door.
"Call Mikey on the phone and tell him about Gee. Tell him to let Frankie know," I say, lifting my head to look at my mom.
"Ok, I'll do that now," she sighs and walks to my bedroom. "Hello? Is this Mikey? Yeah. I'm her mother. I need you to get over here. Amy's crying and Gerard is uncon-," she walks back to the bathroom. "Mikey's on his way hun," she leaves again and goes downstairs.
"Gee? Oh my God! Gee! Amy, what happened?" Mikey yells, beginning to sob.
"I don't know. An ambulance is on its way though," I say through sobs.
Mikey drops to his knees next to me and checks Gerard's arms and face. "I... I don't understand. There aren't any cuts or blood coming from his face," he mutters, silently sobbing.
“Gee-Bear?! Oh my God! NO!” Frank. He runs over to us and drops to the floor, curling up into the foetal position, sobbing his heart out.
“What happened last night guys? How did he get here?” I ask the guys, mainly Mikey as Frank is still sobbing like crazy. Well, who could blame him? His boyfriend is in my bath, covered in blood and vomit.
“Gee carried you home last night. He was the most sober out of all of us and he could actually walk properly. I just don’t understand what could’ve happened,” Mikey says, wiping his tear covered face.
“I th-thought you brought me h-home. That’s… that’s w-why I was s-so confused as to h-how he got here,” I sob and hug Mikey, hanging on to him as if he’s my lifeline.
*******
“Family of Gerard Way,” A doctor calls out. Gerard’s parents, Mikey, Frank and I all rush over to the doctor, clipboard in hand.
“What happened to my brother?” Mikey asks in a panicked rush.
“He was stabbed in the back and he lost a lot of blood. We had to operate but he’s going to be okay,” the doctor, Candice, says, looking at her notes.
“Can we see him?” Frank asks Candice.
“Yes, but two at a time please. We don’t want to disturb him,” she smiles, trying to cheer us all up. I’m not cheering up honey, not for you, just for Gee and Mikey, kay?
We are escorted to Gerard’s room by Candice and we sit outside while his parents go and see him.
“Who’s gonna go in next?” I ask Mikey and Frank.
“You can go Mikey. I wanna see him last i-if that’s okay with you?” Frank says, wiping away fresh tears.
“Yeah, sure, I’ll go in next. Wanna come with me A?” Mikey asks, looking at me, hugging my knees.
“Um… o-okay,” I say, putting my head on my knees and breathing heavily.
Mikey’s parents walk out of the room, still sobbing.
Mikey stands up and hugs them tightly. “Is he okay?” Mikey asks them.
“Yeah. How is he?” Frank asks, breathing heavily.
“He’s still under from the anaesthetic but the heart monitor is registering a heartbeat so we assume he’s still okay,” Mikey’s mom tells us.
“Thanks for telling us Mrs Way,” I say, standing up next to Mikey, holding his hand.
“Call me Donna honey,” she replies, looking at me with painful eyes.
“Ok Donna. Should we go in now Mikey?”
“Yeah, we won’t be long Frankie,” Mikey says, looking over at Frank before pushing the door that leads to Gerard’s room, walking through it. I go over to Frank and embrace him
“He’ll be okay Frankie. I promise,” I let him go and walk into Gerard’s room. There he lies, the only movement being his chest slowly rising and falling.
Mikey is already sitting in a chair next to Gee’s bed, holding his hand. “Hey buddy, how’re you doing? Well, you’re unconscious so you’re probably not okay… I hope you get better soon because I want you to be able to come home and I want to know who did this to you…”
“Please get better Gee. We all love you,” I say, a tear running down my face.
“I’m sorry guys. I love you all too,”
“Gerard?! Oh my God! You’re awake!” Mikey screams and launches himself onto Gerard, hugging him tightly.
“Ouch. Where am I? Why does my back hurt?” He asks us.
“You’re in hospital… You were stabbed in the back but no one knows who did it. There was no evidence to show that anything happened th- Gee? Gee!” I say as I notice that he isn’t breathing.
He’d crashed.
That was when I blacked out…
*******
~Frank’s POV~
Dear Gee,
It’s been a week now. Please wake up. I need you. Mikey needs you. We all need you honey.
Who did this to you? Whoever they are deserves to be here, not you. You didn’t deserve this. I should’ve taken Amy home that night, then you would be fine and I’d be in a hospital bed. I promised you that I’d take anything for you, just to keep you safe but I broke that promise didn’t I? I didn’t keep you safe when I could’ve done…
I hope you are able to come home soon. Mikey’s been a nervous wreck and refuses to leave his room and when he does, it’s to come and see you. His face is constantly stained with tear marks and he hasn’t been going to school. Well, neither have I but I’ve been by your side ever since they let me see you after you slipped into a coma. I haven’t slept properly or showered – dedication much? I love you so much…
Xoxofrnk

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