hell is all cages & screams of the doomed

***** Jades POV *****

What have I done? WHAT THE F*** HAVE I DONE?!
I stepped out of Gerards grasp and just started at the door. couldn't move, not even if I wanted to. I may not know Emily that well but I feel guilt for what I have done. why did I even kiss him in the first place? he's the one who did this to me! he's the one hurt me and people I knew.

I started walking away but ended up falling over because I forgot how weak I was. Gerard came to my aid but I pushed him away. I could see the hurt in his eyes.

"Just get away from me. just... g-go away" I'm not sure why but I started crying. I looked at Gerard and he looked so lost, so broken, like I had ripped his heart out and ate it. But I know he didn't love me. it was just an act. he was just pretending to love me. why did I fall for it? why did I have feelings for that monster?

Then I remembered... Emily! She unstable! She might kill her self... Oh God SHE MIGHT KILL HERSELF! WHAT THE F*** HAVE I DONE! I kiss her boyfriend, she runs away and she could be dead this very moment!

"Oh God! WHAT HAVE I DONE?!" I wasn't meant to say it allowed.
"What Jade? what is it?"
"Emily" I started crying harder then ever. I looked at Gerard for a moment and saw his eyes turn to complete fear and horror.
"G-Gerard w-what do w-we do?"
"We must find her. NOW"

We got up and he helped me walk down to his car. which was surprisingly still there. The ride to the house was silent. I was still crying. I just couldn't stop the waterfalls falling from my eyes. her death is on my hands. her blood ON MY HANDS!

once we arrived there I noticed there were no other cars so Kat wasn't here. at least I know she didn't kill Emily.... if she is dead...

Gerard helped me walk into the house. we searched all the rooms but found nothing. then I remembered one place we haven't been.
"The bathroom"
"What?"
"Gerard we haven't checked the bathroom"

we started walking towards the bathroom and I saw some blood coming from the bottom of the door. we rushed towards the bathroom door. I tried to open the door but it was looked.

Gerard moved in front of me and began bashing against the door. I just stood there. letting it all sink in. then I heard the two words I wish I would never hear again.

"Good Bye"

***** Gerards POV *****

I was bashing on the door so hard I swear my arms would break. then i heard two words that made me freeze.

"Good Bye"

Then it hit me. kissing Jade made Emily hurt her self. Oh God! OH GOD! I kept bashing the door and it finally brook. Then I saw her. laying on the ground with 2 deep gashes in her wrists. i heard Jade gasp. then i saw her fall to the ground crying.

i may be a monster. but i never ment to hurt some one this way. i never ment for her to die. i have hurt two girls that ment something to me. WHAT HAVE I DONE?!

Notes

dunnn dunnn duuuuunnnnn :P sorry it sucks and sorry i didn't update for ages. but here you go :P

magic out--