hell is all cages & screams of the doomed

*****Gerards POV*****

I don't know why but I felt some sort of pain when jade went to the doctors. I don't know what caused it. I know I will never love her like I do Emily but could it be..... could it be.... just maybe.... I want to be her friend. after all these year could I be her friend? I have put her through so much. and I enjoyed watching people suffer. but when I made her suffer I couldn't help but feel a kind of pain. a pain you get when you lose one of your friends....

what am I talking about of course I don't want to be her friend. I could never be her friend. why would I want her to be my friend?

I don't know my feelings any more. I differently know I don't love her. but I get a weird feeling that I shouldn't be hurting her as well. I must go see her. clear all my thoughts and see what happens. will she hate me?? will she be scared when I come in those white doors? only one way to find out.

I drove to the hospital in silence, apart from faint music in the background. could I really want to be her friend? after all this time of hurting her mentally and physically?

I was still thinking about all this by the time I hate reached the hospital. I jumped out of my car, locked it and headed for the big glass doors.

I walked in feeling a bit uneasy from the smell of medicine. hospitals where always so plain. so dull. I was walking up to the counter when a women ran past me with a needle in her arm. I backed up al little bit. I hate needles more then any thing on this earth.

I walked up to the counter where a women was sitting quietly typing some thing on you PC.
"umm, excuse me" she just lifted her head to look at me.
"how may I help you sir?"
"yeah.. I am here to see jade?"
"ok sir please take a sit and I will tell you when she can be seen"

I thanked her and started walking to the waiting room when I saw Emily sitting on a seat... why was she here? I walked up to her slowly, I was still in shock to see her here.

"E-Emily?" she darted her head and looked at me. but I couldn't tell how she was feeling.
"What do you want Gerard?" now I could tell she was kinda angry cause she never calls me by my real name.
"Emily why are you here?"
"I am here to see jade what do you think?"
"oh" was all I could say before I saw her leave and go outside.

I sat down in a seat and waited in silence.

"Mr Way. Jade can be seen now.

I jumped off my seat and followed the lady to the room where Jade was in. I walked in to see things in her arms. when I was closer to her I saw her face change. a look of absolute horror. I knew she wouldn't accept me...... I knew.... I knew I was a monster.

Notes

hey who ever is still reading my story. I am sorry it took so long. but I finally got my internet back and I can start to post more often. there may be delays some days due to homework or school. but thanks to sticking around :3

I hope you enjoy this chapter and please comment to tell me what you think.

Magic out--