Give Me a Reason to Believe

"Charlotte! Listen to me!" Bandit demanded.
"Sorry what?"I asked snapping back to reality. "
What are we gonna do today?"She asked with a toothy smile.
"Nothing."I answer automatically.
Her face completely fell and I suddenly felt guilty. I just didn't feel like celebrating. Aside from the couple weeks I had spend in the Way's house, it was a remainder of another year with no real family. I learned to dread my birthday. Not just because it never was just my day, but because I always felt more alone than ever.
Every birthday I had before the orphanage are some of the few memories I actually hold on to. They were one of the few times where we actually felt like a family. It was the one day out of the year all the stupid shit was put to the side. Everything was perfect for 24 hours and they were always great. I actually felt loved. It all changed after my tenth birthday though.
"Why?" She asked her voice cracking.
"You wouldn't understand."I said sitting next to her on the bed."No one would."
"Okay." She said sliding of the bed and walking out of my room with her head hung.
I made no effort to call her back because it would do no good. She was disappointed and I had not idea how to make it better. I'd just have to leave that job to Gerard and Lindsey.
As I got dressed I could vaguely hear Bandit telling Gerard I didn't want to do anything. He comforted her as she cried and I thought back to when he hugged me as I cried. When I finished getting dressed I grabbed my phone and wallet and left the room.
The Way's had decided to give me an allowance since I arrived. It wasn't much but I hadn't gotten around to spending any so by now it had accumulated. I walked to Gerard's office slowly. When I peered in my heart sunk a little. Bandit was sitting in his lap and laughing hysterically at the funny faces he was making. I was about to turn away when he saw me.
"Oh hey. Morning." He smiled.
"Hi. I was just coming to let you know I'm going out for a little while. I'll be back in like an hour or two.I won't do anything illegal." I clarified as I saw the look that crossed his face.
"Ok and you have your phone in case anything happen?" I nodded and turned to walk away.
"And Charlotte." He called and I turned to look at him."Happy birthday."
"Thanks." I muttered as I basically ran out the door.
•••
I had only left the house of a few occasions since I moved. The first being when Lindsey took me out shopping. I didn't like going outside because the neighborhood always whispered about me. They all knew who I was from the arrest and they we all confused as to why I now live with them. They still all saw me as the thief.
As I walked down the block I put on my headphones and turned up my music. I did my best to block out all my thoughts as I mindlessly walked. I wasn't even sure where I was going until I arrived. It was the orphanage.
I stared at the building. I could see all the little ones running around inside. I noticed about two or three little ones I didn't recognize. I forced myself to keep walking but was quickly stopped. One of the little ones noticed me and was calling after me. After a couple seconds the test of them began calling to me but I kept walking. I did not want to see them. As I walked on I put my music in louder to drown out their voices.
'They're a part of the past.' I repeated to myself.
I continued walking and eventually found myself at the local music store. I had never been inside but I had passed by a few times and had been dying to go in. I walked in and was immediately met with a smile from the cashier. I pulled my earbuds out and began browsing. I roughly had enough money to buy three albums so they had to be perfect.
"All time low? That's a good choice."A voice said.
I looked up to put a face to the voice. The first thing that caught my eye was his hazel eyes. They were beautiful. His black hair complimented them perfectly
"Thanks....pierce the veil? Not a bad choice there either."I smiled."I'm Charlotte."
"Hi, I'm Andrew."he said returning a smile that cause my heart to just melt.

Notes

I have some news to share...
Gerard fucking noticed me!!!!
he fucking noticed me! I went crazy for a good thirty minutes...I swear....I'm like I don't even know what I'm feeling.