Give Me a Reason to Believe

Days in the way household went by pretty uneventful for me. I would get up at around 7:30 and shower. The showers were my favorite part of the day because it was the one thing I could do with no interruptions. Not like breakfast. Gerard and Lindsey would constantly attempt to talk to me. I would respond but only with one word answers or a nod of my head. Eventually they'd look at each other and give up.
After breakfast I'd do a few chores like sweeping and washing dishes. When the were done I'd barricade myself in my room and read books all day. Occasionally they would knock on the door to make sure I was ok. Of course I'd always answer with a simple 'yes.' The routine stayed the same for only the first week. By the end of it I had successfully complete about 10 books. All of which were extremely interesting.
"I was wondering if you'd like to go shopping today." Lindsey asked at breakfast.
"Why?" I asked confused. I mean I know I was in desperate need of new clothes but I didn't think they cared.
"I noticed a lot of your clothes are a little too big. Besides it summer I imagine you want summer clothes."
"I'd like that very much." I said. And it was true. It would give me the opportunity to learn a little bit more about them.
I still knew only very little about them. I knew Gerard had a brother named Mikey, that I learned by accidentally overhearing Gerard on the phone with him. I wasn't sure who was the eldest though. I was almost 100% positive that Lindsey and Gerard had been married only about 5 or 6 years. I knew Lindsey had a job, and Gerard but I wasn't sure as what. Gerard liked art though, the art supplies I tried stealing were his so I guess his job had something to do with art.
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"Can we go in here?"I asked Lindsey as we approached the entrance of hot topic.
"Of course."she smiled.
I wandered into the store and immediately went to the girl section. I had never been in the store before, let alone a mall. I was attracted by all the black, it was May favorite color and this store seemed to have a lot of it. A song was repairing in the back round but I was unfamiliar with the singer. I didn't know a lot of music. I like it but was rarely able to listen to it
The lyrics of the song kept mentioning something about not being okay. I liked the song so I pulled out my phone. I had downloaded a few apps and one was shazam. It was app that told you the name of a song, it just had to hear a little snippet of it. I launched the app and allowed the phone to listen to the song. When it identified the song I looked at the screen. It was a song called "I'm not Okay" by a band named My Chemical Romance.
"Do you know this band?" I asked showing Lindsey the screen."Are their others songs as good as this one?"
She read it and a confused look crossed her face. "You've never heard of My Chemical Romance before?"
"Not until now. No. I really liked the song the they played earlier. It was by them right?"
"Yes it was. We uh..have some of their CDs at home. I'll let you check them out."
"Great."I smiled.
Maybe now I'll add music on my phone, I thought as I continued shopping. Every so often Lindsey would glance at me. I assumed it was to make sure I didn't run away but I didn't mind.
By the end of the trip I had a whole new set of clothes. Lindsey bought me about 10 shirts, 5 pairs of jeans, 2 pairs of shirts and one bathing suit. She also bought me new bras and underwear, though I wouldn't admit it to her out of embarrassment, but I was extremely grateful for them. I also got a new pair of shoes. I thanked her continuously all the way back to the house. She just smiled, her mind was clearly elsewhere.
As soon as we arrived back at the house I went straight to my room and began hanging up my new shirts and folding the bottoms and putting them away neatly in the wardrobe drawers. I had tried everything on before it was purchased and they all got perfectly. It was an amazing feeling to wear clothes that were the right size, one I was sure I'd get used to fast.
"Charlotte could we talk to you for a moment." Lindsey said after I had put everything away.
The first thought that crossed my mind was that they were taking me back. I had done something or perhaps it was because I didn't do something. That seemed like the mist obvious answer. The felt I wasn't doing enough and wouldn't be worth their trouble. My fear rose as I followed a Lindsey into the family room and saw Gerard sitting on the sofa.
"There's something very important we have to tell you..."Gerard began. "It's our fault really."
"I'm sorry things didn't work out." I apologized as Lindsey took a seat next to him.
"what didn't work out?"Lindsey asked surprised.
"The adoption." I said slowly."You want to send me back. Is that why you took me on the shopping spree? It doesn't matter. It's ok."
"oh god no. That's not was this is about."Gerard announced horrified."Why would you think we were sending you back?"
"because I've made no effort to be a part of the family and that's not what you wanted."
"no. We understand you need time to adjust and that's ok. It's about something you said to me today."
I looked at both of them confused and sat down in the arm chair and faced them.
"It's about the band you asked about, My Chemical Romance."I stared waiting for them to finish."We both though you had already known."
"known what?"I asked cautiously.
"Well, I thought, we thought you knew I was in the band."

Notes

It's extremely short I know. Sorry.