Struggling with more Ways than one

My alarm goes off, I grown and reach to turn it off. Today's the day. I roll over and see Gerard's sleeping face beside me. My breath hitches in my throat causing Gerard's hazel eyes to flutter open and a smile to spread across his pale face.
"Morning beautiful." He whispers sweetly, reaching out to caress my cheek.
"Gerard?" I ask breathlessly, still in shock.
"Mhmm, now cmere sugar, I missed you." He wraps me in his loving embrace.
I inhale deeply, missing the scent of cigarettes and coffee emanating from his lips, the lips I'm so eager to kiss.
"I missed you too." I breathe into his neck. Gerard places his hands around my swollen abdomen, his fingertips stroking the sides lightly.
I look up and kiss his soft lips, I had forgotten how much I missed them.
I break the kiss by asking Gerard what time it is.
"9 o'clock, why?" He replies after glancing at his phone.
"We're gonna be late for the ultrasound." I inform him, sliding off of our bed.
"Here let me help." Gerard offers, putting his arms securely around my waist, helping me to the floor. I thank him and change out of my pajamas and head downstairs, Gerard handing me my jacket as I leave the house.
"Bye widow." He coos as he locks the front door. I glance at him as I walk to the car. His black hair curling slightly around his now tanned forehead, the dyed blonde locks atop his head now fading into the black; his muscles shining slightly through his shirt.
"Waitin on somethin?" He asks. I blush and look down at my feet, unaware I was staring at him.
"C'mon babe." Gerard says helping me into the car and buckling my seatbelt. On the drive there Gerard and I toss around baby names.
" what about Christopher?" He asks.
"Maybe."
"Or Nicholas?"
"I like the name Panik Christopher."
"That sounds nice."
"What about a girl?"
"I was thinking Bandit lee way." He blushes.
"That sounds beautiful." I smile.
"I thought you might like it." He smiles back and kisses me on the cheek.
Once we get there Gerard helps me out of the car and we walk into the hospital arm and arm. I sign in and we wait paitently in the waiting room. I lay my head down on gee's lap, he strokes my hair sllowly.
"Has anyone ever told you youre beautiful?" he whispers.
"Yes all the time." I laugh, he smiles and kisses my forehead.
"I was thinkin we could go baby shopping after this." Gerard offers.
"That sounds good."
"I also have a surprise for you but its in the car."
"Why must you spoil me?!" I ask rhetorically.
"Because I love you." Gerard replies, nuzzling my neck.
"Oh stop people are staring." I blush, he does too and we both quiet down.
They call my name and gee takes my hand, I'm nervous and shaking from head to toe.
"Darlin you'll be okay." He whispers, kissing my ear.
I sit on the bed and wait for the nurse to arrive. laying back into the pillow, trying to stare at my feet but I cant because my stomach gets in the way.
I sigh and Gerard sighs too, slumping in his chair.
The doctor finally arrives and puts the gel on my stomach, i giggle because it feels weird.
The doctor moves the monitor around until the children come into view, he stares for a while before figuring out their genders.
"Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Way, one of each."
"Yes!" Gerard and I both cheer.
The nurse finally comes in but when she does she drops her clip board.
"Oh my god, you're-"
"Gerard way, yes I know." Gerard says in an irritated tone, his once joyful mood completely gone.
"Can you sign something for me?" the nurse asks.
"Not right now, cmon Fletcher."
He grabs me by the and after the doctor disconnects me from the machines, storming out to the parking lot in a hurry.
"Gerard stop." I plead out of breath.
"I dont want them to see you." He grunts.
"I guess we're not going shopping then." I mumble.
"Sorry babe." Gerard says starting the car. Halfway through the drive Gerard's phone rings but he ignores it.
He drops me off at the house and follows me inside.
"I'm sorry we couldn't go shopping." He pouts apologetically.
"Its not like I really wanted to anyways." I sigh, trying to hide my Disappointment.
He leans down and kisses my stomach.
"I love you." He looks up to me with those puppy dog eyes and I have no choice but to forgive him.
Gerard's phone rings again and he looks at it, turning back to me with a look of pure terror.
"I- I have to go, I'm so sorry baby." I look up at my husband and he's in tears. He runs out the door and quickly drives off in his car.
~Gerard's POV~

Fuck fuck fuckkkkk.
I knew he shouldn't have come.
I knew he was going to have another one.
Why didn't I listen to myself and make him stay?!
I drive as quick as I can, trying to get back to our tour bus. It takes me about an hour to get there and by the time I do I can hear Frankie sobbing from across the parking lot. I park my car and dash over to a distressed Frankie.
"Is he okay?" I ask.
"i-i-he-no." Frankie sobs.
I open up the door to see everyone surrounded around my little brother.
I move them out of the way...
Mikey isn't breathing...

Notes

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