Struggling with more Ways than one

After school was over and I returned home I decided to make myself a sandwich since I was hungry. I never really bothered with lunch at school anyways. I pulled out all the ingredients and quickly assembled my food. When I was finished I walked into the living room to watch TV when the world faded to black.
~Flash Back~
The house was eerily quiet when I returned home from school.
"Mom?" I said, trying to locate a living soul in my own house. I placed my purple knapsack behind the front door and proceeded upstairs to see if Matty was home. I nudged open the door only to see his limp and lifeless body dangling from the ceiling fan. His body was pale and cold, a strong noose tied around his neck. His copper hair sheltered his once elated face, but now there was nothing but an emotionless expression.
He was only 12... I saw no reason for him to take his life, he seemed perfectly happy every time I saw him. Maybe it was the times I didn't see him that took the toll. My mother creeped up behind me and put a hand on my shoulder and lead me out of the room. She guided me to my own and softly closed the door, leaving me to grieve alone after all I had just seen.
~End Flashback~
I screamed and crumpled to the floor and began to convulse. I hadn't had a flashback like that in years, especially one that had been about ... Matty. I racked my mind for answers until I heard Gerard scream for me and my brain went numb.
He wraps himself around me and strokes my hair, telling me that my flashbacks are gone and that everything is okay. Eventually I stop convulsing and speak.
"They-they were so vivid Gerard...." I mumble.
"I know baby, I know." he whispers and shudders, holding me closer.
"Gerard?" I say looking up to him. "Can I sleep with you tonight?" I plead.
"Of course." He kisses my forehead and I feel a little bit better, we sit in each others arms in a comforting silence. "Do you want to go to sleep?" Gerard whispers breaking the silence.
I nod and he takes me to his room where he tucks me into bed.
"Goodnight darling." He whispers kissing my cheek. I grab his hand as he turns away.
"Don't leave." I beg. I need him, esepecally now.
"I'm not sweetheart, I'm just working on my sketches," he says pointing to his cluttered desk.
"Alright." I say and snuggle back into te covers. He gives my hand a final squeeze before heading to his desk. I fall asleep until I am awoken by gerard leaning on the matress. He then utters the words I've always wanted to hear from anyone...
I love you.

Notes

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