We're not okay

At lunch everyone was a buzz with tonight's plans. I must admit even I was. It was a bit sad really. This morning when I asked my little sister when she was going trick or treating she said no because 'she's too old.' She's 8, so you could imagine how childish it made me feel.
"Is it sad how excited I am about trick or treating today?"Jess asked while stuffing a cupcake in her mouth.
"I swear I was just thinking the same thing."I replied."and yes I think it kind of is. Don't worry though, I'm super excited also."
"Fuck it."Mikey said randomly throwing his hands in the air. "Free candy."
I smiled to myself. I did that everytime Mikey cursed because it was so...awkward. He looked like this sweet, shy and timid boy that you would think hardly talked, let alone curse. Once you got to know him though it was the complete opposite. He loved to talk...a lot. Every other word that came out of that boys mouth was a curse word. It was amusing, I think I'm the only one who found it funny.
"Well I most say, you are the greatest fake girlfriend ever."Gerard complimented me as he threw his cupcake paper away.
"Why?"I asked in disbelief.
"Because you bake amazing,"he explained. "From here on out you will forever be known as my fake girlfriend, gives you an excuse to bake for me all the time."
He shot me a crooked smile causing me to blush a deep red.
"What ever you say fake boyfriend."I smiled back.
From the corner of my eye I could feel Alice looking at us, so I turned to her. She looked straight at me then to Gerard then back at me. I gave her a look that told her I knew what she was thinking. Luckily no on else noticed this exchange.
"So what time are we all meeting tonight. Some of us are a bit eager to get the night started." Alice winked at me then looked back at Gerard.
After a few minutes of deliberation, it was established we would meet at Lizzy's house at 6:30. Knowing us though, we'd all be there by 7:00. Afterwards we would all go trick or treating around her neighborhood. She didn't live that far from me, just across the main boulevard. It was walking distance but my mom still insisted I get a ride. It was decided that Alice would give me a ride, along with half the group.
The rest of lunch went by with us sharing old Halloween memories. I told the story of what happened when I went out with Alice and Brooke last year. Some ass-holes threw eggs at us from across the street because we refuse to join them. They were drunk and fortunately their aim was very off so none of got hit. Still it was one for the books.
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By the time 6:00 rolled around I decided to get ready. Who knew how long it would take for my cousin to do my hair. Getting the shirt on was easy, it was just a fitted shirt. The skirt was the hard part. It was a black pencil skirt, like the one girls really wore in the 40s. I swear to god, that god damn skirt was so tight I thought I was going to explode. It didn't really help that I had just eaten either.
Right after I got dressed my mom walked in. My right hand quickly flew to my left wrist, covering it. I hadn't yet put the bracelets on so my scars were visible. There was no way in hell I was going to let my mom see them. She would go absolutely hysterical and that's really not what I needed right now.
"Elizabeth and I are leaving right now so you'll have to walk to Natalie's. Is that ok?"she asked.
In the end my sister had decided she wanted to go trick or treating after all so my mom was taking her and our little neighbor about the block.
"Yeh that's fine. I'll leave in like 10 minutes. And yes I will text you when I get there, when I leave, when I get to Lizzy's house and when I'm coming home."I said answering her unasked questions.
"You already know the drill."She smiled then turned and walked away.
I automatically put on my bracelets. Just in case anybody else entered my room. After I had officially finished getting ready I grabbed my bag and called out I was leaving to my dad. He wasn't really paying attention, he was too into whatever movie he was watching so he just waved me off.
There were people already trick or treating when I began walking. There were a few teenagers but most of them were parents and their young children. When I turned the corner of my block there were three guys on the corner, they didn't look very trusting. Part of me felt very dirty like I did every now and again when I got memories. I pulled out my phone and pretended I was busy as I passed them. I could feel them staring at me and it made me feel uncomfortable.
"Aye dude stop following her."One of them yelled after I passed them.
"Hell no dude, she's hot."Another replied.
They all began laughing and I let out a sigh of relief. When I looked back the one following me had joined his friends and were walking in the different direction. I sped walked the rest of the way to my cousins house. It was only about 2 more minutes.
The door was opened so I just walked in and went straight to her room. She was sitting on her bed with an assortment of curling irons, brushes and bobby pins on her dresser.
"Damn you look cute!"She exclaimed when I walked in.
"Thanks Natalie.Are you ready? I can wait if you're not."
"Nah I'm all set. Just sit here and I'll get started."She replied directing me to the chair in front of her dresser.
I sat down obediently and allowed her to get to work. We exchanged a little small talk as she worked. The way she managed to manage me hair amazed me. It was terrible for me to work with. I began to doze off a little as she worked. I think she noticed because at one point she just stopped talking to me.
"All done."She announced after what seemed like 30 minutes. "I hope you don't get upset but I added a bit more makeup. Just some eyeliner and lipstick. Nothing to drastic, you look fabulous if I must say."
I looked at myself in the mirror and I must admit I did. I had never seen myself look so nice. I felt so confident and beautiful. It was a rather nice feeling for a change. I had always wondered how it felt to be truly comfortable with the way I look, and honestly sell my soul to keep this feeling.
"Wow! I love it! Just wow!"
Natalie smiled in accomplishment. And went to her closet as I pulled out my phone. I got a text from Alice. It read:
We'll be over in about 10 minutes.
I'll pick you up at you're cousins.
Call you when we're close.
"When are you're friends coming? It's already 6:50"Natalie informed me as she pulled a bottle from her closet.
"Like ten minutes why?" I asked looking at her.
In response she held up a bottle of vodka and two shot glasses. I smiled in appreciation as she poured us both a shot. We had both taken around 5 shots when my phone rang.
"On our way so stand outside."Alice said.
"Well, they're almost here."I said. "Thanks for the shots and the hair."
Natalie and I exchanged our goodbyes and I walked outside.
"Where are you?"Alice asked.
"I'm standing outside. I see headlights, I think it's you."I replied.
Alice stood quite on the line for a moment before speaking again. I heard other voices through the phone. They were laughing about something but I couldn't understand what.
"Oh I see you know. I thought that was like a prostitute or something."She laughed.
"Bitch. I look amazing."I laughed and I actually meant it.
A car pulled up and I opened the door. Literally the only people from the group that weren't in there were Lizzy, Gerard, Mikey and Jess. Due to the overly packed car there was no room for me to sit anywhere si I resorted to Alex's lap. It's not like we had a far drive.
I looked around at everyone excitedly. They all looked great in their costumes. I could hardly wait until we were all together. We were all going to look great.
Alice was on the phone with someone. From the sounds of it, it was Emily. We were here and four people filed out of the house. The first one I noticed was Gerard.

Notes

So this chapter was going to include the actual trick or treating but it was already really long so I must go back on my promise. I apologize. The next one features a lot of Gerard this I swear. It should be up, if not in a couple hours by tomorrow for sure.
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