The Personal Assistant - COMPLETED

I quickly backed away from Gerard, did he seriously kiss me? My head was spinning, heart tearing into two and I stopped breathing. A part of me was shouting "yes! Yes! Yes!" The other part of me was shouting "no! No! No!"

What fan of My Chemical Romance hasn't imagined being kissed by one of the members? I needed to calm myself down before I had a panic attack. In just a snap I finally came back to reality. I took a deep breath and relaxed myself.

"Why did you kiss me?" Why would I ask that, nice going Shiloh.

His hazel eyes seemed brighter and never stopped looking at me. "Honestly, I'm not sure."

As if on cue, Lindsey opened the door and stared at the two of us. Oh crap, did she know? I felt a pressure in my chest, this was bad.

"What are you two doing in here?"

Still looking at me he answered her, "we were exchanging our Christmas presents. Shy made me that collage and I got her this music box. That's all, is the food ready?"

Now her eyes were on me, hers were more piercing, trying to look into my thoughts and soul. I wanted to look to the floor but knew that would be suspicious. So I stared right back at her, "yeah the foods just about done. Shiloh will you be joining us?"

Before Gerard could say anything, knowing he would insist I stay I quickly told her no. She was pleased at that answer and I decided this would be a good time to leave. "Merry Christmas. Gerard, I'll see you in a couple days.

As soon as I got home I fell asleep and didn't wake up until sometime after eight. I called Becky, I wanted to tell her about the kiss.

"Becky....oh my God, you're not going to believe this....Gerard kissed me....yes he kissed me....I did the right thing and backed away from him....no I didn't kiss back....he's happily married....no....I don't know....I'm not sure how I feel....

We continued to talk, she kept asking me questions about the kiss. How long did it last? Was his lips soft? I just chuckled, she was more excited then I was. Becky finally had to go and hung up with me. I checked my phone, I had missed texts while talking.

One was from Gerard, it said "Meet me at our coffee shop 11pm". I glanced at the clock it was 10:58, "oh crap."

I hurried and got a jacket and ran off to meet him. As I got in my car my head started spinning, I hope everything was okay. Was he going to fire me? Did Lindsey find out he kissed me? I drove as fast as I could but I still didn't make it to the coffee shop until eighteen minutes after eleven.

Gerard was sitting in the same spot we usually sat at. After the blind date, we made it a thing to come here and talk. "Gerard I'm so sorry I'm late. I didn't see your text until two minutes before eleven."

He kicked my chair out and smiled, "it's fine Shy, please sit. I ordered you a smoothie already." In perfect timing a waitress came out and brought me the smoothie and refilled Gerard's cup.

"So is something wrong?" I bit my lip, hard enough I could taste a little blood.

"About what happened earlier today...."

Without thinking I cut him off, "you don't have to say anything. It was a mistake and didn't mean a thing. We can just forget about it, doesn't have to be awkward."

"Yeah, exactly what I was thinking. A mistake, that's all it was." I couldn't tell for sure but I felt like that's not the answer he was hoping for. Of course it was, it didn't mean anything to him. I'm just his personal assistant.

"Gerard, how was Christmas dinner?"

"You should have been there Shy. Bandit asked where you went and baked you a little cookie. Oh that reminds me."

He reached into his jacket ad pulled out a napkin. He unraveled it to reveal a tiny cookie. "This is the cookie she made me? Aww, she's so sweet." I went to grab the cookie when my hand caressed Gerard's.

A chill went up my spine, before I could retract my hand, he grabbed my wrist. "Shy, can you come over tomorrow? Lindsey's taking Bandit out for the day and I have some work I need help with. I know it's your day off, so I'll pay you extra."

"Gerard, you know you can count on me any day. I'll be there." We sat and talked about horror movies and comics when it was finally time to leave. "Goodnight Gerard."

He gave me a hug goodbye and we went our separate ways. I sat in my car, thinking to myself. "What am I doing? Gerard is married and has beautiful girl. He's happy, he would never want a pudgy girl like me but I think I like him.

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