Guitar Picks and Paper Cartoons

That night Mike drove me home. He was shocked to see the state of the house. He was shocked to see the state of my mom. They hugged, cried, and came to terms with what had happened. He ended up staying the night.

The next morning I began to clean the house while my mom and uncle solved the rehab plan. She was going to be going on Monday. I would go live with my uncle until she was out or until I was 18 I guess. We were planning on selling the house. Mike said it would be enough to get me through college. I still wasn't sure if I wanted to go or not.

It was about 7 when I walked out of my room in fresh clothes and a jacket.

"Where are you going?" Mike said from the stove where he was making food.

"Umm out with Gerard," I said leaning on the counter. He raised and eyebrow. "Yes, he's my boyfriend."

"You're to young for a boyfriend," he said simply.

"I'm 16, besides, I need to tell him i'm moving," I said looking down.

"You can come back you know, it's not goodbye forever," he said adding some more ingredient.

"It has to be. I need to move on as much as mom does. I need this Uncle Mike. I can't stay frozen in time forever." he nodded saying he understood.

"Okay, be back by midnight. We have a long day tomorrow. Kara will be here at 10 with the truck."

"Eye-eye captain." I sad leaving the house. It was hard for me to listen to him since the past five years I had no one telling me what to do.

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Knocking on the door, a very excited Mikey answered. "Hey Anya," he said opening the door. "Gee is upstairs," he said turning to walk away. I quickly grabbed his arm pulling him into a hug. "What was that for" he asked as I pulled away kissing his cheek.

"Thanks for not bugging me about what has been going on. Plus I want you to know you are a great friend," I said as I walked upstairs to find Gerard. I pushed open the door to see Gerard drawing at his desk. He turned around as I shut the door.

"Hey," he said standing up and coming over toward me. "How did everything go?"

"Good," I said kissing him gently. "You know we have some time before we have to leave," I said as my hand slide down from his shoulders and toward his crotch. I gently grabbed it. I heard a small moan escape his lips.

"What got you in the mood?" he asked, "It's as if you're back to your old self."

"Yeah, almost is huh," I said pushing him toward the bed and kneeling down and pulling his pants loose. He raised an eyebrow at me but his questioning look quickly ended when I began to pump his soft erection. I slide my tongue over his tip while still pumping. He quickly became hard.

"Stop teasing," he said softly. I slide his erection in as far as I could before pulling back. I felt his hand come to the back of my head. I slide my head down again, this time Gerard held my head there as he pushed his hips forward making me deep throat him. He groaned and I repeated his motion. It didn't take long before he was holding my head in a stationary place slamming his hips into me in a rapid motion followed by his cum shooting into the back of my throat. He was breathing heavily as I stood up, whipping my mouth on my sleeve. "What was that for?" he asked pulling his pants up.

I shrugged, "I guess i like you or something," I said with a smirk on my face.

"You're such a dork," he said grabbing his keys off of his table and we exited the room.

Walking downstairs I saw Ray step in the house. The boys were all exited. Smiles on all of their faces. I knew I was eventually going to have to tell Gerard what was going on, but right now in that moment, I didn't want to.

We arrived at the venue just as the first band was walking on stage to get ready for their set. Gerard wrapped his arm around my shoulder while talking to Ray. I let my arm find his back, he was warm and I appreciated it. I watched him as he spoke, trying to memorize everything about his face.

"What?" he eventually asked, turning briefly and kissing my lips.

"God guys get a room," Mikey said after returning to the group. I giggled and let my arm fall back to my side.

"So sorry little Mikey," I said with a smirk. Just then the set began. Like always, Mikey and Ray disappeared and Gerard's arms found my waist. I leaned into him. He smelled of cigarettes and charcoal. That moment, that one particular moment is one I will never forget. I felt happy, content, and utterly terrified of what was to come.

The set ended and a mass of people walked to the bar to get drinks. Mikey and Ray were still on the otherside of the room talking to some girls. I turned in Gerard's arms and his lips captured mine.

"We need to talk," I said hating my words as they fell from my lips. Gerard looked surprised my my words but nodded in agreement for me to continue. At this point no one was near us but I pulled us over toward the wall.

"What's up?" he asked after I was quiet for a moment.

"There is no easy way to say this, I wish I never had to… I'm moving away Gerard," I said in a steady voice that surprised even myself.

"What?" he said with confusion.

"I'm moving away, it was decided last night." I hated the simplicity in my voice. I wanted to change it, I wanted him to know I did care for him and that this was going to be just as hard as losing Hannah. I didn't instead I did the only thing I knew how to which was attempt to stay strong, attempt to fake it.

"Who decided it? What is going on Anya?" he asked with confusion and some anger. I didn't blame him. I would have been angry as well.

"My mom's going to rehab, she needs help Gerard. She can't keep living like she is. She drinks way to much and she has finally chosen to stop. My family has already lost so much, to loose her as well will break us all."

His eyes softened at this point and he nodded in understanding.

"I'm moving in with my uncle. I wish it didn't have to be this way," I finally said reaching for his hand. He gave it to me with hurt in his eyes.

"When does this happen?" he asked as the next band stepped on stage. I hesitated. "Anya, when, please just tell me."

"Tomorrow," I said softly. He dropped my hand instantaneously. His hands ran through his hair, throwing his back against the wall. The music began to play. I reached for his hips and finally gained his eyes. They were red. it was clear he was trying to hold his own tears back. I wanted to badly to tell him this would be better that he would be better, but I couldn't.

"Can we try?" he asked softly. He wanted to try to stay together. I never expected those words to come out of his mouth. We starred at each other for a while.

"Please let's just have tonight. Just tonight, like it used to be," I said with tears in my eyes. I didn't want to be strong anymore. He pulled me into a hug.

"Okay," he whispered to me. I turned around and leaned against Gerard, who was still against the wall. We made it half way through the song before we were feverishly kissing. Gerard hands were on my back and ran down to my hips and to my legs. He turned us around so I was against the wall and pushed me up against it. I wrapped my legs around his waist and engulfed myself in this moment. Gerard didn't want to let me go. I didn't want to let him go. in that moment the music was drowned out and the only thing that existed was Gerard and I.

"Umm should we just walk back?" Mikey asked. Gerard's face pulled away. I didn't realized the set had ended or that most of the people had left. Both of our chests were heaving from the need for air.

"Oh… ahh…" Gerard said turning back and looking at me. He was just as shocked as myself. I removed my legs from Gerard. "Yeah we're coming," Gerard said. We broke apart and at the lost of contact I knew that feeling I just had, I would never have again. We walked hand I hand back to his car. We dropped Ray and Mikey off at Ray's house.

The car pulled to a stop outside of my house. Gerard killed the engine. The tension was thick.

"Will you still call?" Gerard asked playing with his steering wheel. I nodded. "Maybe I could come see you on weekends," he suggested "Now that I have the car and all."

"Gerard, we both know this isn't going to last forever. You're going to go to college next year, I'll still be in high school." Silence came to the car once again. I grabbed his hand intertwine our fingers "You'll go on to do great things. Who knows start a band or something," i finally said when the silence was to much.

"No I want to write comic books." He began to play with my fingers.

"To bad," I said with a grin. He smiled as well. I saw my door open and my uncle appear on the porch. "I gotta go."

"I know," Gerard said softly.

"I can never tell you just how happy you've made me or how thankful I'm been for the past month." With that I captured his lips one more time and opened the car door. I ran into the house and straight to my room. I never saw his face. I never heard the car leave. But I felt my tears that put me to sleep that night.

The next morning I moved. The house went up for sale. My uncle offered to drive me there whenever we had someone interested in the house but I always declined. I didn't want to put myself through seeing him again. I never wanted to see the pain I caused him or have those feelings myself.

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That was the first time I knew I had fallen in love with Gerard Way and I knew my life would never be the same.

So that's the story in a nut shell. That's how Gerard way changed my life. I will never forget him, he meant to much to me for to long.

I thought that night would be the last time I would ever see Gerard until this moment. Until he was standing right in front of me at the coffee shop.

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Ok so here is the end to this story. The sequal I'm still writing but I will start uploading it.

Let me know what you think.

~Nailsntacks