Heartbreaker Records

I ran my lips gently down the inside of Gerard's thighs, my fingers stretched out and resting on his chest. My breathing was gentle as I worked my way up the bed towards his lips, pressing mine against them as I ran my hands underneath his shirt. Gerard sucked in a breath, holding it in as I slid my hand inside his underwear, cupping him gently as I sucked on the skin above his pulse, bursting the capillaries beneath.

Gerard's hands ran down my sides, his fingers brushing my skin as pulled it up, breaking the kiss so he could tug it over my head, his lips instantly seeking out mine. I groaned softly as he ground his hips upwards, pushing harder against my hand. I brushed feather light kisses down Gerard's neck, chuckling softly when he moaned breathlessly.

I reached a hand down and undid my own pant's, kicking them down as I kissed Gerard, teasing his bottom lip with my tongue, nipping it gently before pulling away and resting my forehead against his. "You're all I need." I whispered in reply before leaning down and claiming his lips again, my hands roaming his body before I ducked my head and took his nipple in my mouth, flicking the sensitive nub with my tongue before moving onto the next one, my hand around his erection at the same time, my teeth grazing the skin as he ground upwards, his hips meeting mine in all the right places.

Gerard gently tugged my boxers down, his thumbs grazing the skin of my hips, shivers running down my spine as I kicked them the rest of the way down. I sucked gently at the skin of his hip, my teeth grazing the bone as I pulled his boxers down, grinning as I kissed my way up his legs, killing him with the anticipation. I slowly ground my hips downwards, teasing Gerard with the touch. "God Frankie." He breathed, his skin tickling my neck as I kissed my way down his jaw.
"Stop, just... Oh god!" Gerard moaned, his hands tangling in my hair as I wrapped my lips around him, swirling my tongue around the tip before taking in as much of him as I could, my other hand caressing his balls.

Gerard bucked his hips, filling my mouth as I hummed softly, moans filling the air as he tangled his hands in my hair, gently tugging me away. "Fuck me, now." He ordered, his lips meeting mine in a frantic dance. I let him flip us over, pinning me to the bed with his hips as he reached for the lube, squirting some on his fingers before pushing first one, then two inside me, curling them against me. I moaned, arching my back to meet his fingers.
"Fuck!" I breathed, my words exhaling in one breath.

Gerard lined himself up, his lips meeting mine as he thrust into me, his left hand reaching for my erection. I bucked my hips slightly, giving Gerard all the permission he needed. He raised my hips slightly, thrusting harder and harder, his hair hanging over his eyes as he pumped me in time with his thrusts, his bottom lip between his teeth. Without thinking, I wrapped my legs around his waist and flipped us so I was straddling his hips, my hands on his shoulders as I found a rhythm, the look of shock wearing off his face as I wrapped my hand around myself, Gerard's nails digging tiny half moons into my hips as he helped steady me, our breathing matching in pace as I sucked my bottom lip into my teeth, biting on my lip ring as my stomach clenched, my breath hitching as I came, my thrusts faltering slightly as Gerard grabbed my hips and thrust his upwards, moaning as he rode out his own orgasm, tugging me close and wrapping his arms around my shoulders.

"I love you." I whispered as I traced small circles on his chest, my lips resting against his neck.
"I love you too Frankie." Gerard whispered, his chest heaving as he tried to catch his breath.

"Don't ever do it again." Gerard whispered as he pressed his lips to the bruise just below my eye. "Don't ever do that Frankie. You were blue. Your lips were blue and you couldn't think straight. You thought you were dead babe. You asked me if it was heaven or hell." Gerard sucked in a breath as he traced the tattoos on my hips, his fingers lingering on the v muscle that led to my groin. "What the hell did you mean Frankie?"
"I just... I don't know Gee." I whispered, my voice barely above a whisper.
"Am I hell or something? Is that what it's like to be with me?"
"No!" I protested, my voice raising in pitch as I looked at the hurt crossing his eyes.

Gerard pressed his lips to my forehead and sighed. "Then explain. Help me understand. Help me see what's going on in that skull of yours."
"It's heaven. It really is Gerard. Everything you do, every touch, every kiss, every time you're skin so much as brushed mine, god, it's like an explosion. I just... it makes me feel amazing being with you." I paused and took a deep breath, shutting my eyes briefly. "Then there's the flip side. I feel like hell Gerard. Not because of you, but because I know you don't actually want me. I'm just some sort of stop gap until you can get back with Lindsey and that sucks. I know that you're going to break my heart or I'm going to break yours and it's hell living with that uncertainty."

"Baby...." Gerard whispered as he tilted my head so I was looking at him. "You are not a stop gap. You never will be, not again. If you were a stop gap, do you really think I would have got a tattoo for you? There doesn't need to be any uncertainty because I love you and will do everything in my power to keep you safe and I know you won't break my heart. You wanna know why? Because I've seen it in your eyes Frank. I can tell how much I mean to you and it makes me love you even more." I leant up slightly and pressed my lips to his, tears blurring my vision.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. "I really am."
"For what?" Gerard asked, his forehead against mine.
"Relapsing."
"I know Frankie. I know you are. Just... promise me you'll keep trying. I know how hard it is to give up. I've been there, remember?" I nodded. "I'll do anything in my power to help you get better Frank."

****

I slid my arm from underneath Gerard's neck, freezing as his breath hitched, his eyes fluttering around under his eyelids. I kept still for a couple of seconds, long enough to know that he wasn't going to wake up before I climbed to my feet and left the room, grabbing a towel off the back of the chair before walking into the bathroom and switching on the light.

The water steamed up the mirror as it heated up so I used the towel to wipe it clean, wincing as I saw the state of my face. My lip was split, bleeding again as I sucked it between my teeth, my left eye was on the verge of being swollen shut. I gently poked the skin beneath it, gasping in pain when I connected with bone deep bruising.

Yes, Gerard had hit me hard before, but never hard enough to bruise and swell this bad, my vision blurring further as I stood there, goosepimples appearing on my skin as the heat from the shower reached me.

The hot water beating down on my back helped relax my thighs which still weren't used to the treatment they got tonight. I lowered myself onto the floor of the shower, wrapping my arms around my knees as I let the water beat down on my back, my muscles relaxing almost instantly.

After five minutes of sitting there and doing nothing, I grabbed the shampoo bottle and scrubbed it into my hair, squeezing my open eye shut as I pushed my face under the water, soap suds running down my neck.

I really was sorry for hurting Gerard, and I wanted to fix that, and if stopping the drugs completely, no matter how much it hurt myself, was the way to do it, then I would.

Notes

Heya guys!!


Like, yeah.... let me know how terribly shit the smut is..... I apologise if it makes you want to gouge your own eyes out....

anywhore, I hope you enjoyed it :3

~Toxic Rebel (Yeah, another name change :P)