Never coming home

Pain.

So much pain.

thats the only thing my Brain could process when I woke up.
I woke up on the couch. Surrounded by blood. I looked around, terrified. I started breathing heavily.
My pants and underwear were torn on the floor. I had bruises all over by body. And I couldn't remember anything. I just knew I was surrounded by blood, my ass hurt like a fucking bitch. So bad I couldn't move.
I started breathing heavily as I came to a realization.
bob raped me.
I started crying. I cried so hard, my body was shaking violently. I tried getting up, but my body was too weak and the pain in my lower back was too much for me to handle. I cried harder and searched for my phone.
'Gerard. I need to call gerard. He could help'
I thought and shakily typed in Gerard's number.
'No! He doesn't want to deal with me!'
I yelled at myself in my head.
I set the phone down and tried to stop crying, which deemed impossible.
I found a blanket and pulled it around myself. My sweater was torn and practically falling apart. I sighed sadly but didn't take it off.
I looked around my tiny apartment. My pants and underwear were still on the floor and blood was splattered on the ground and across the walls. I closed my eyes and sighed again.
Bob raped me.
He took something from me by force.
I was still a virgin. I was saving myself for marriage or the right person. So much for that.
Now it was all gone.
I covered my face with the blanket and started crying again.
Now gerard will hate me! I'm just a fucking whore! It's my fault bob hurts me! I deserve it all!
i started screaming until my head hurt.
"all my fault. It's all my fault"
I screamed and cried.
I heard a knock on the door and froze.
Its him. He's back. He's gonna kill me!
"n-no! D-don't come in!"
I yelled and cowered under the blanket.
The door slowly opened and I screamed as arms wrapped around me.
Hands softly pet my hair and I slowly looked up from the blanket
"g-ger-gerard?"

Notes

Death note is fucking crazy.