As Frank walked away I noticed I sobered up slightly. Not completely enough to say 'I'm sober' but enough to where my parents wont notice. Good. I went upstairs to get something to eat because I got hungry. I don't know what to eat. Getting myself another cup of coffee I started searching the kitchen. I looked everywhere. We have nothing I like. Where is the neutella when you need it? I looked in the freezer and saw ice cream. Why not? I mean it's not like anyone else is going to eat it. I bring the tub and a spoon downstairs to my room and turn on some horror movies. Okay, so I'm in love with my best friend. That much i know. Should I tell him? If he does like me back everything would work out perfectly I mean, we could start dating and being all romantic, or we could do something cute together... wait... what if he doesn't?! What if I tell him and he slaps my face and never wants to be my friend again?! That can never happen! He's my only friend besides my annoying younger brother! That can't happen. I can't tell Frank. I start eating the ice cream and watching Dracula doing something on the screen but I'm not paying any attention, a hundred thoughts racing through my mind.

"I can't tell him... but if I don't I'll never know... but if I never know I couldn't get hurt! I don't want to get hurt. Or rejected. Oh this is so hard. Why can't I make up my mind?!" I now know why girls eat ice cream at times like these. It soothing. I can't explain it any further It just is. I grabbed a pencil and a piece of paper and started making a pro's and con's list of reasons why it was a good idea to tell Frank I love him.

Okay... pro's. Here we go. It take a lot of weight of my chest. It'll know if we're meant to be, or not. I would know if he likes me back.

Now the con's... he could hate me... That thought scared me to death... it would make our friendship more awkward. It could destroy our friendship. He could want nothing to do with me. He could become one of the bullies that beat me. He turn his back on yesterday and become a plastic, one-opinion, brainless meat-heads who wants nothing to do with me...

Okay, I'm scaring myself with this con's list... maybe that was a bad idea. Actually I think it might have helped. Nope. "How can saying 'I love you more than a friend Frank' be the biggest decision of my life?" I asked myself not noticing my door was opened and a Frank sized person was standing there.

"G-gerard?" Crap!

Notes

CLIFF HANGER! I know, I know you hate me. Don't worry. We'll update TOMORROW... maybe... maybe we wont update and leave you hanging off your seat for whats next... I dunno we'll have to talk about it... till the next time my fellow Killjoys, stay dirty and follow the Black Parade. XD

~~ForEverAFan~~

Heehee so it turns out ForEverAFan wants me to hold off on updating till at least the weekend. Sorry! I promise I'll try to make my chapter worth the wait :3 We'll see how it turns out... *waggles eyebrows in a way that's supposed to be mischevious but looks a little awkward* See you later!

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