The colored kids

Party's pov
we stormed into battery city like we owned the place. The hairdos stopped putting up a fight at the gate a long time ago. They'd rather have the mindless dracs do the work for them. Kobra and I lean out the windows of the car while ray drives. Ray explains what is going to happen when we walk into the store to check.
Good thing shooting dracs isn't that complicated because my mind is some while else. I am still thinking about the thin gray and light pink lines that covered checks wrists. I miss another drac who shoots where kobras head was, he ducked. Was check bullied by other kids? Because if someone hurt her then they have not only me to deal with but all us killjoys. A drac gets close enough for me to elbow in the face but not before he shoots me in the shoulder. Fuck that hurts!
I clench my teeth and keep shooting until we stop in a small parking lot.
" Out!" I yell jumping to the ground.
-time lapse-
by the end of the day I've been shot three times and jet had to give me make shift stitches because I cut my arm open on a fucking shopping cart.
" Dude what's up with you today?!?" Kobra asked as we pulled up to the diner.
" Nothing," I mumbled rubbing my wound on my ankle. I really just need to talk to check about this mourning. Kobra rolled his eyes and got out.
" Check, we need to talk. Come with me to the shooting range," I pulled on her arm. So she doesn't have a chose.
" Save me a ramen!" Check yelled to ghoul. Ghoul looked at me like a drunk guy with anger management. Not good. I walked a little faster away.
" Wanna tell me what's going on? Or why ghoul looks at who like you killed our grandma? Or why you look like shit? Or why you can shoot-"
" limme see you arm." I cut her off.
" What..?" She looked confused then scared.
" Did I stutter," I said outstretching my hand.j
" Why?" She crossed her arms a back away slowly.
" Check, now," I said a commanding tone.
" uhh, I-I do-don't know w-wh-what your t-talking about," she squared her shoulders.
" Of corse you do that's why your stuttering," I said softly. I didn't mean to scare her or anything.
" Party, look I'm really gingery so can we talk about this-"
" Gwen Mackenzie iero," with that I grabbed her jacket a pulled it off.
she stood there crossing her arms trying to cover her skin as much as possible. From her wrists to her shoulders were littered with tiny lines and marks. Some deep purple others white. I felt tears come to my eyes. Nothing, I repeat NOTHING is that bad. I pulled her into my arms she collapsed. Her arms to side her head on my shoulders. I streaked her hair as she silently cried.
" What happened?" I finally asked. She looked up at me with those green eyes red from tears.
" I was the ugly duckling left behind," she said quietly. I pleaded with my eyes to keep going because if I talked I would blow up and tell how beautiful she is a how blind she is to not see that. And I've been in that situation it really isn't what you want to hear.
" Ghoul you the killjoys left me behind. I was trained and not bad but it wasn't even considered I had no chance to plead my case you guys were gone the next mourning with no goodbye. All I could think for the past three years is why? What the hell is wrong with me? You guys took mikey who is only like six mouths older than me. But then I remembered what the kids in a battery city used to tell me. And I remembered they're right. I should just off myself. Hope found out a little over a month ago and made me stop. But it's really hard. Like you you smoke it's like that" I felt a tear slip down my cheek. I can't believe we did this. And I wasn't some misunderstanding all of the things she said were correct. ( not the offing herself part) kids did used to bully her in the city. And we did leave her not for the reasons she thinks.
" we wanted to protect you. I wanted mikey to stay but he wouldn't listen. I didn't want to bring him it's too dangerous. But you, this beautiful 14 year old little girl who read poetry and lit candles in the desert and snuck out to see the stars we didn't want to hurt her. I know it sounds like you needed saving but that's what we wanted. We wanted to save you,"
"and you did save me from everyone but myself," my heart cracked and cracked until every scar on her arm was a crack in my heart.
and then I did the unthinkable I kissed my best friends little sister.

Notes

Sad chapter.
Ok I want whoever reads this to feel free to vent in the comments about what every you want. School, parents, bullies, friends, self harm anything. I won't judge you. Even though you guys might be miles I away I want you to know that I care. Even when you feel like nobody cares about you remember that random crazy chick that you never met cares about you. I mean it.