When You & I Were Forever Wild

I could feel him staring at me from across the table and blushed, probably the 300th time today. I looked up, locking eyes with him and a familiar heat rushed through my body. We had almost done it! I had touched him! He had touched me! I took a deep breath, remembering that feeling, almost like an explosion, making me lose all control I had over myself. Yes, basically I was thinking about the orgasm I'd had, no biggie. Except that it was. Especially because he had already finished but wouldn't stop touching me, his lips attached to my neck, his other hand softly caressing my breasts and then his fingers....

Good God.

Under the table, I could feel his leg against mine and I smiled, aware of just how much he adored me. And I adored him too, so so much. Did Suki and Ray feel the same way about each other? Did Lauren and Mark? I looked over at them and it was only then I realized that everyone was staring at Gerard and I with knowing smirks on their faces. Oh no.

'Well, you seem to have forgotten that tents don't actually have walls.' Suki laughed as we changed into our bikinis.

'You HEARD us?' I shrieked. Fuck.

'You weren't loud but you weren't exactly silent either. How was it?!' she had stopped laughing and was now eagerly waiting for me to spill the beans.

'We didn't actually do IT. We just...did some other stuff.' I blushed again, surprised that it was still happening. Anyone would think the red would never leave my cheeks.

'What other stuff?!' I had to shush her.

It was weird because ever since Suki and I had started talking about boys and sex, I had always assumed she'd be the first to actually do something. Not that it mattered, it wasn't a competition but for some reason I had counted on her to tell me what it was like, to prepare me. And now I was the one who had just had her first orgasm. Did that mean she was counting on me now? That I had to prepare her? That was an awkward feeling. She had always seemed so much more mature than me, knowing all the details while I was too shy to even talk about it.

'Oh my God!' Suki muttered after I was done telling her. She was the only person in the world I could share this with and I was pretty sure Gerard was having the same conversation with Ray right now. 'He made you come! You know I read in Cosmo that most women don't have their first orgasm until they're in their 20s. You lucky bitch!'

'Alright Dr Drew, calm down.'

'I'm just so excited. And, what about him? How big is it?' okay, I had to stop her.

'Enough now, come on!' I grabbed my clothes and finished tying up my hair. Suki sighed in frustration but followed me back to the beach where the others had already laid out the towels.

We spent the whole day in the sun and the water. Gerard and I did a little excursion to a nearby river and he attempted to catch fish while we headed upstream but instead just landed on his ass over and over again, making me laugh. After that we didn't get much further since we started making out. When we got back around 5pm I was so exhausted I fell asleep with my head in Gerard's lap. I woke up to the sound of a guitar and Gerard's soft singing. It was already 6.30pm and although the nap had made me feel lightheaded, I was reenergized.

'You have a lovely voice.' I mumbled, curling up in his arms, his skin still warm from the sun.

'You have a lovely face.' he smirked and started attacking me with chaste little kisses.

As Ray continued playing, I wondered what would happen tonight, once Gerard and I returned to our tent.

*

'Truth or dare?' Lauren asked, the bottle pointing at Finn.

'Ugh. Truth, I guess.' she replied and looked at me, obviously preparing for yet another embarrassing, most likely dirty question.

'Okay, have you ever touched yourself thinking about Gerard?'

'Oooooooh.' everyone went and I hid my face in my hands. Luck wasn't on our side tonight and this was the seventh question Finn and I had to endure.

'Of course I have. Jeez. You're so not original with your questions, people.' Finn answered and I looked up at her, my eyes widening. 'My turn.' she smiled and spun the bottle.

She had. Touched herself. Thinking. About me. Jesus H Christ. Just the image of her touching herself was enough to raise my blood pressure but she actually thought about me while doing it? Good Lord. I wanted to repeat what we had done this morning. Now.

'Ray, truth or dare?' she said, absentmindedly moving closer and putting her hand on my thigh. Jeez, woman. Go easy on the easily aroused.

'Dare!' he looked scared and I could tell from Finn's little snicker that she had a good one.

'How about you suck my big cock, Toro!' a voice shouted and we were blinded by flashlights.

Oh fuck no. What was HE doing here? I jumped up, instinctively standing protectively in front of Finn who grasped my arm instantly. She was scared of him and had been doing her best to avoid him at school. To be honest, I thought he had given up on starting trouble but the fact that he was here with his group of friends obviously meant that I had been wrong.

'How about I make you choke on mine, Barnes!' Ray replied, also getting up.

'This is not gonna end well.' Finn whispered and I turned around to her, trying my best to give her a reassuring look.

'Awww look at you two. Is she as prude as she was with me or did you already get to stick it to her?' he was wasted, I could tell as he stepped closer. Izzy, Tom and two other guys I didn't know were with him, one of them carrying a baseball bat. Ugh, fuck.

Finn jerked forward, ready to lunge herself at him but I held her back. I could understand her anger and I wanted to do the same thing but the risk of her getting hurt was too big to take.

'What do you want, Cameron?' Suki yelled and he started laughing.

'Well Izzy here-' he pulled Izzy close and she clung to him, a drunk smile on her face. 'Was kind enough to tell me about your little get-together and then we got drunk and bored and all of a sudden I thought, hey, why not crash the party?'

'You can fuck right off again.' I cursed under my breath and he glared at me.

'Ahh, Way, remember when you ruined all the fun for me? I thought I'd return the favor. That one punch was so...unsatisfying. I want to finished what I started. Keith?' he turned around and his friend handed the baseball bat to him.

Ugh. How ironic. This had been my weapon of choice for all the countless times I had imagined to hit him in the face.

*

I felt sick with panic as Cameron stepped even closer, swinging the bat back and forth. But there was something else, something much stronger, making me tremble. Anger. The smug look on Izzy's face, knowing that she had gotten her revenge, the way Cameron looked at me, convinced that I would start crying, begging him to leave us alone so I didn't have to witness my boyfriend being beaten up. Was I scared? Yes. Shitless. Was I confident that Gerard could take him on. Hell yes. The only reason Cameron had been able to knock him out back then, at my party, was because Gerard hadn't seen it coming. Now he was prepared. Kick his teeth in, I thought. Do it. Of course I knew that Gee was better than that but I still wanted to see it.

Instead, Gerard ducked, grabbing his backpack that was sitting next to the tree trunk we'd been sitting on and with a quick movement, he pulled out an object, pointing it at Cameron.

HOLY SHIT! What the actual fuck?! I cried out, my hands flying to my mouth in shock. Where had he had gotten a gun?

'You better leave now. Right now.' Gerard mumbled, his voice surprisingly calm.

'Gerard! Holy fuck!' Lauren yelled but Mark motioned her to be quiet.

'Whooa, whooa. Okay! How about we all calm down...' Cameron was visibly shaken, dropping the baseball bat. 'Hey, dude, I was only joking!' Gerard stepped towards him as he stepped back and picked it up, the gun still pointed at him, not letting him out of his sight.

'Take it, Finn.' he handed me the bat without looking at me and I took it almost automatically.

'Come on, Way, we were only messing with you! There's no need for this.' I had never seen Cameron like this, his face pale with fear, his hands, which he was holding up, shaking.

'How about you shut your goddamn mouth and get lost already. And next time you are drunk and bored and can't think of anything else to do, play some truth or dare. It's very relaxing. And fun. Hey, I dare myself to blow your fucking brains out if you aren't gone by the time I've counted down from ten, hmm? Ten, nine, eight, -' Cameron turned around and ran, falling over as he panicked. I could hear Izzy screaming in the dark and then it was quiet.

No one said anything. I was too shocked. Gerard lowered the gun, standing still for a moment. What in the fuck had just happened? Why did he have a gun? A FUCKING GUN! My legs gave out and I sat down, shaking. My boyfriend had just pulled out a gun and had pointed it at someone, threatening to shoot them. What on earth was going on? As grateful as I was that he had defended himself and me against this scumbag because who knows what could have happened if he hadn't, I was also incredibly terrified.

Then, Gerard started laughing like a maniac. Gobsmacked, I looked at him as he sat down, twirling the gun around his finger. I gasped, moving back and he stopped, and to my surprise, offered me to take the weapon.

'Gerard you should put that away, man.' Ray's voice gave away his panic.

'Take it.' Gerard told me but I shook my head. He looked amused and for a moment I thought that maybe, just maybe, my boyfriend was a psychopath.

Again, he spun the gun around before pointing it at the fire. Before I could stop him, he pulled the trigger but instead of a of a loud bang, all I could hear was the faint sizzling of water as it vaporized.

'YOU ASSHOLE!' Suki shouted, jumping up and running over to Gerard, boxing his sides hard. He merely giggled and shoved her away and she angrily stomped back to Ray.

I couldn't believe it. He had just scared Cameron and his gang away by pointing a water pistol at them? And we had fallen for it too? I made a dash at him and grabbed the fake gun, aiming at his face, squirting, and he squealed as I soaked him.

*

'You really fucking scared me.' Finn whispered as she rested her head on my chest. We were back in our tent, drunk, due to the Jack Daniels we had consumed to calm our nerves after the Cameron Barnes/water pistol incident.

'Sorry. But it was funny.'

'It's funny now! It wasn't funny when I thought my boyfriend was a cold-blooded killer with a gun!' she looked up at me with a frown and I couldn't help but giggle.

'Stop!' she sat up again and hit me over the head, not hard but hard enough. 'You're an idiot!'

'You wanna play rough now, huh?' I grabbed her hands and leaned up, my chest crushing against hers.

'Jerk.'

'Bitch.'

'Asshole.'

'Douche.'

'Twat.'

'Wanker.'

'Why yes, and good at it too.' Finn smiled, raising her eyebrows. She was in a feisty mood now and it turned me on so much, all I wanted to do was throw her down and climb on top of her.

'Pretty good, I'd say.' I grinned and before I knew what was happening, she was the one throwing me down, climbing on top of me. Not too bad either.

'Touch me again?' she asked and I was more than willing to oblige.

As we packed our things the next morning, I was both happy and sad about the fact that we didn't have to use any of the condoms. Mostly happy though, knowing that the best was yet to come. Also happy because I'd gotten to touch her, twice. Even happier that she had enjoyed it. Oh that beautiful look on her face when her body began to tremble.

It was all I could think about on our way back home and luckily, Ray had agreed to drive because he wasn't just as hungover, so I was in the backseat with Finn, my eyes wandering up and down her suntanned body, eager to trace the freckles on her skin or run my fingers through her disheveled hair. We had to take advantage of the next few days before starting our summer jobs, with our parents at work all day, we could do whatever we wanted. Yes, my mind was already going there. Again. And as she looked at me, taking my hand and lacing her fingers through mine, I could tell hers was too.

Notes

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