When You & I Were Forever Wild

The MDMA hit both Gerard and I at the same time. After spending a good 45 minutes on the floor, mingling and dancing with the crowd and consuming more alcohol, we had totally forgotten about the pills we had swallowed since they took quite some time to take effect. But just when I thought Darcy had given us some cheap, shitty X that would lead to absolutely nothing, I registered a change; a strange rush that reminded me of the moment when a roller coaster finally drops after a long and steep ascent. For a few minutes, I felt disturbed, clinging to Gerard who seemed to experience the same thing because he was clinging to me with the same slightly alarmed expression. I could literally see the exact moment the drug took ahold of him, his pupils dilating, making his eyes look black, and from the way he examined me I could tell that mine were doing the same thing. The unnerving feeling passed; actually it felt as if every scary and negative feeling I had ever experienced was erased from my mind, and a comfortable warmth enveloped me as I quickly launched toward the peak. My grip on Gerard loosened and I wrapped my arms around him instead as he pulled me against him for a kiss. His taste entered my body, lighting a fire in my loins instantly, the want and need I felt for him intensifying everything. As his tongue slipped into my mouth, the music all of a sudden appeared to get louder, the bright lights brighter, the heat even hotter - and then it disappeared as though someone had turned a switch. We were all alone. In a room bursting with people.

His makeup was almost completely sweated off by the time we left the dance floor, only the black circles around his eyes remaining, making him look very dark and very sexy. I could feel his damp, hot body pressed against mine as we made our way back to the small room, the scent of his sweat mixed with soap, aftershave, cigarettes, and me, filling my nostrils and seducing my senses. I loved his smell. It made me want to rub myself against him, feel every part of him, kiss every inch of his skin, find every single one of his freckles, pull his hair, and ravish him, making him lose his mind.

We stumbled back into the small room where Darcy and Kit seemed to have reached a whole 'nother level already, if they ever had been down to earth. Gerard lit a cigarette as we sat down and I watched him smoke it, fascinated and turned on by the way he took drag after drag, inhaling the smoke before leaning back his head to exhale again. All I wanted was to dig my teeth into that delicious looking neck and feel those lips all over me.

'Are you having a good time?' Darcy asked, interrupting the moment.

'The best time.' I replied without even looking at her as I pushed Gerard's sweaty hair out of his face.

'You two are adorable. I'd love to watch you fuck.' she said, causing us both to raise our brows at her.

'We're amped, but we're not that amped.' I giggled.

'Guess we could just stalk you all night because I know you're gonna end up screwing somewhere.' Kit winked, playing with Darcy's hair.

'Maybe you'll get lucky. Something tells me you're gonna be busy screwing somewhere too though.'

Darcy and Kit were all over each other, just like Gerard and I, and it was hot watching them make out. Truth be told, I would have probably let them watch us fuck. It would have probably turned me on to know they were getting off by watching us. A sober me would have never even considered it. As loved-up and horny as we were most of the time, it was still a sacred and private moment that we weren't willing to share with anyone. Right now though, as I felt Gerard touching me again, his hand sliding up my thigh, his lips pressed against the nape of my neck, I didn't even think about the other people in the room. Whether they were watching or not. But a part of me hoped they were, and it turned me on. His hot breath on my skin felt so intense that I couldn't hold back a moan. It was almost like every contact with him left burning prints on my skin but the burning wasn't painful, on the contrary, it was pure pleasure and the truth was, even though the pills were making it so much stronger, it was a feeling I was used to.

'You taste like every delicious thing I ever wanted to taste.' he smiled against my skin and I giggled because it didn't even make sense.

'But if you haven't tasted it yet how do you know how it tastes? How do you know you want to?' I asked him, directing his hand under my dress and between my legs, making him pant as he felt me.

'Because it tastes like you. And you're all I want.'

His words had the same effect as his touches, and I closed my eyes, leaning against him, trembling while he caressed me through my panties. The rush was so thrilling and the love I felt was making me delirious in the best way possible.

*

Our new friends didn't even notice when we left and even if they had, I'm sure they wouldn't have minded, given the fact that had pretty much encouraged us to. We dance-walked over to the parked truck and I picked Finn up and placed her on the hood, her arms embracing me and her lips on mine with an urgency that I was familiar with since I shared it with her. I loved how she wrapped her legs around me, how she moaned into my mouth, how her fingers were running through my still wet hair. There was a permanent smile on my face and a hard-on in my pants because of her and she knew it; she knew it and she enjoyed every second of it.

'You know what's funny?' she asked, her lips wandering up my jaw.

'Hmm?'

'We might be trippin' but I knew we would have ended up out here anyway.' she smirked, reaching down to open my belt.

'Because we always do. Because I'm crazy about you. Because I can't get enough of you. Because being with you is what keeps me alive. And because you're the sexiest little thing I've ever seen in my life and I love you so fucking much. I can't even tell you how much because there are no words for it.' I might have been rambling but I meant every word of it.

She took away my breath again, kissing me, devouring me, whispering my name as she reached into my pants, her fingers wrapping around my cock. I already had to hold back in order not to cum there and then in her hand, the sensation making my whole body tingle while I felt light-headed and completely lost in the moment.

'Mmhhmm baby, I'm all wet just from looking at you.' she breathed.

Holy shit. How the hell could she just say these things? And the way she said them! I couldn't even tell if she knew exactly what she was doing to me but right now I couldn't have wanted her more.

I pushed her back until she was lying down on the hood, her legs still wrapped around my hips, and my erection pressing against her. Letting my lips wander over her chest while my hands sneaked under her dress to pull down her panties. Sure enough, my fingers found her soaking wet and I couldn't help but push inside her immediately, craving that sweet warmth.

'Gerard! Ugh...fuck!' Finn moaned, biting her lip, looking almost as though she was suffering.

It was the hottest sight ever, her eyes staring into mine while her hands grabbed my arms and I smiled as I slid another finger into her, dying to intensify her pleasure. Leaning forward, I kissed her lightly before connecting my lips with her neck, sucking, while my thumb brushed against her clit gently, making another moan escape from her mouth. Everything felt incredible and I wasn't even on the receiving end but seeing her fall apart at my touch was all I needed to grow even harder.

Loud screams followed by laughter interrupted the moment and Finn pushed me away suddenly, sitting up, staring up at the night sky. I turned around to see a green laser show illuminating the dark above us, coming from the roof of the factory where people were beginning to gather.

'Come on.' she said, sliding off the hood and pulling me to the side of the car where she took off my shirt before opening the door and pushing me in, climbing onto my lap and making me forget about whatever it was that was going on up there.

It was of no importance to us anyway.

*

I kissed him again, my hand guiding him into me and I started to move on him slowly. I felt like I was falling, but not like in a dream that would wake you up with a jerk; more like the falling sensation laced with euphoria that sky divers experienced when they launched themselves out of the plane. I might have been on drugs but my real drug was Gerard. It was him making me high, it was him making me feel like I was on top of the world, it was him making me feel so unbelievably, unexplainably happy. We were as close as we could get, not only physically but in every sense. My hands moved over his chest, my fingers digging into his flesh as I took him as deep as he could get. Feeling him inside me, our hearts beating in the same fast rhythm, it seemed like the heat was rushing from my body right into his.

I picked up the pace when I noticed he was close but holding back, even though he didn't have to. I was right there with him. But the need to relish this moment so close to the edge was stronger than the urgency to reach even higher and ultimately end it. His head was buried in my shoulder, his moans silenced against my skin as I held on to him, my hands lost in his shaggy hair, soaking up his scent yet again because I couldn't get enough of him. We had forgotten where we were, we were oblivious to whatever was happening around us, or the rest of the world for that matter. I enjoyed the feel of his strong arms wrapped around my waist, so tightly that it made it almost impossible to move but somehow I was still moving. I was in love with how much I loved him. Was this even real? Was he real? My eyes met his and it felt as if our minds connected in a way that almost scared me before I let go when I felt him spilling into me.

We moved to the back of the truck, resting on an improvised bed of sleeping bags and blankets. His mouth was attached to my neck, and so shortly after that mind-blowing orgasm I'd just had, the feeling was almost too much, as though all my senses were heightened. Maybe this was what Edward and Bella felt like the first time they did it as vampires? I giggled at the thought and Gerard smiled at me, bringing his lips to mine for a kiss.

'What?' he asked curiously, his voice hoarse.

'I was thinking about Twilight.' I admitted, blushing a little.

'Oh yeah? You want me to suck your blood?'

'You can do whatever you want with me.' I replied, knowing he would accept the challenge.

'I wanna make you cum again.' he whispered, making me shiver before I even felt his hand between my legs.

How could I have said no to that? I sighed, turning toward him as his finger circled my clit, and within seconds, I fell apart again, holding back a scream as I shook. Holy fucking shit.

'Ughh. You....have....to....stop.' I breathed, sounding so desperate it was almost pathetic.

'You said I could do whatever I wanted with you. I choose to do this. As many times as I want.'

'What if I have a heart attack?'

'I know how to do CPR.' he answered, making me laugh.

'Idiot. I love you.'

'I love you too.' his arms wrapped around me again, pulling me against his naked body, his warmth wrapping me into a comfortable haze.

I was so spaced out from the drugs and the sex that at first I thought the sirens were a sound effect playing inside the factory. Even when they seemed to come closer and I opened my eyes to see blue lights flashing, I still didn't think anything of it. But then I heard car doors opening as well as a noise that I immediately identified as a police radio and before I could sit up, Gerard had me in a tight grip, holding me down.

'Fuck.' he breathed, lifting his head to peek through the back window of the truck.

'Cops?' I asked and he nodded.

'If we stay put they might not see us.' he whispered but I could tell he was freaking out.

The MDMA was still in our system but the euphoria we had been feeling was now quickly turning into extreme anxiety. I began to panic within seconds. We were naked and tripping and if the cops searched the area surrounding the factory they would find us for sure and figure out the state we were in. Even though the truck was parked in the furthest corner of the lot, it wasn't out of sight. Holy fuck, we could get arrested! For I don't know what but we would definitely get into trouble! Gerard looked at me, attempting to comfort me but his eyes were wide and there was a frown on his face, giving away the fact that he was just as scared as I was.

The music was stopped and we could hear a few annoyed moans before they turned into yelling from what seemed to be both the cops and the people inside partying. Doors were slammed, some lucky ones escaped and were running off into the night, still cursing under their agitated breaths. Gerard reached for our clothes, handing me my dress before putting on his briefs and shirt. At least we weren't naked anymore, that was already a relief. My head was spinning and I pictured every possible scenario, one of which somehow included being sent to Area 51 and having weird tests done on me.

*

I could see Finn biting her lip nervously, looking around to find something she could concentrate on in order to stay in the here and now. I knew that if she didn't succeed, she would begin to freak out even more and that was the last thing I wanted to happen.

'Finn! Pull yourself together!' I squeezed her arm firmly to make her force herself to discard whatever she had been thinking about before it could turn into a full-on hallucination.

'I'm okay, I'm okay.' she assured me, blinking a few times as if to wake herself up.

We watched as several people were escorted out of the factory in handcuffs. There was no doubt now that the cops weren't bothering with regular party-goers, probably because they were used to illegal gatherings during the festival and therefore decided to let them go with a warning. They were most likely after notorious dealers and other known individuals that had been on their radar for some time. I hoped that Darcy and Kit would somehow get away. If they were caught and still had pills on them, they would get into serious trouble. Even though the police seemed too preoccupied to search the area, I didn't dare to move and was holding Finn in a protective hug while lurking through the window. She had calmed down a bit although I could tell she was trying hard not to lose it again. I felt weird, one second completely sober, my thoughts rational but the next as though my mind was sucked into a black hole only to be spat out again in some outlandish fabrication that had nothing to do with reality. I had forgotten that the effects of X in the wrong situation and mindset could fuck shit up big time. Thank God the peak was already over so I was more or less able to shake it off.

'What even is this honeymoon?' Finn whispered, shaking her head with furrowed brow.

'I know, right?' I replied and she held back a giggle.

'Also, is this our way of catching up on what we missed out on in the ten years or are we just batshit crazy?' she asked.

'Both, probably.'

'You know what else?' I could feel her relax and wrap her arms around me.

'This is really hot and you're just as turned on as I am right now?' I grinned.

'Totally.'

Once again, we forgot everything else around us. Her lips tasted too sweet to care, her body felt too exciting to worry, and the love I felt for her was too strong - it made me feel invincible. I doubted that the cops were interested in searching cars and arresting people for making out when they were busy dealing with illegal substances and real criminals. So whatever. I wanted to ride out the rest of the high with her in every sense of the word.

'Happy two-week anniversary, baby.' I beamed, pulling off her dress again as she got on top of me, smiling like the sun.

Notes

I felt bad because the last chapter didn't have any smut so now you get almost a whole chapter of smut

And I hope it makes you very happy ;)