I am afraid to keep on living

(Cassie's pov)

Dean was being nice in such a long time, he brought Gerard to hospital and Gerard is being very rude with him. I know, I understand that he hates Dean so much, but he saved his life! Gerard could show some gratitude to him. But no… Gerard just made him upset and now Dean have gone out of the hospital and Gerard and I would have to come back home by foot.

I decided to not talk to Gerard in the way to his house. And when we arrived at his house I walked towards his room and stayed inside. But Gerard followed me.

"Is there anything wrong?" He asked me. Doesn’t he see that he has been rude with a guy who saved his life? I looked at him. "Dean was being nice, he even brought you to hospital and you thank him by being rude to him making him leave." I said. "Cassie. What the fuck? It's Dean!" He said. I know, right? I know it better than you! I’ve been his girlfriend for so many time and before he was the sweetest person and I don’t see anything against him coming back to those days. "People can change." I said. "But we are speaking about Dean! He is an asshole! He will never change!" He said in an annoyed tone. Okay. That’s it. I think his needs some time alone to think of this. "I'm going for a walk. I hope that when I come back you have made up your thoughts." I said and walked outside the room. He didn’t even follow me like he normally does. He just stayed there looking at me with a confused look.

I went outside the house and started walking without any destination. I was thinking on how Dean just randomly changed from being an asshole to being nice again. He brought Gerard to hospital, he apologized for all the bad he have done to me, we remember great times of when we were dating, we even listen to some music together…

But all of this started so sudden… What if Gerard is right? What if is true what he says? That we are speaking about Dean… The same guy who used to abuse from me almost everyday, the guy that treated me like if I was nothing… Fuck. Gerard is my boyfriend and I have just ignored him.

I sat on a bench. What if Gerard is now mad at me? Even thought that Dean brought Gerard to hospital… Dean stills the one that made that wound in his head… Gerard has a point to be rude to Dean. Fuck. Why didn’t I think this before?

“Cassie?” Someone suddenly said. I looked up and saw Dean. The last person I wanted to see now. I didn’t answer, I just stared at him. “Have you seen Kindle? She wasn’t at home when I came back.” Dean said. “No, sorry.” I answered. I’m sure that when Frank and Kindle saw that there wasn’t anyone at home they took the chance to go out of the house.

“Do you know where she could be?” He asked me. Maybe she is at Alice’s house. But I’m not sure if Kindle would like if I tell her brother where she is… “I don’t know.” I said and he sat down next to me muttering “fuck”.

“By the way. Where are you living now?” He asked me. “At Gerard’s house.” I said. “So… you aren’t going to leave him, aren’t you?” He said and I shook my head. “I see… and… can we be friends with privileges?” He asked smirking. “What the fuck? No!” I said standing up. But he grabbed me by the arm bringing me back to the bench.

“You aren’t going anywhere. I’m sick of acting like this. You never thank me when I do anything good. And I didn’t have any girlfriend since you randomly decided to go with that stupid art teacher.” He said angrily. I tried to let go of him but he pushed me down leaning me on the bench. He sat on top of me. “Let me go!” I cried just for making him smirk.

Suddenly someone pulled him away from me. “Leave Cassie or I swear that I will kill you!” I looked up at who had just saved me and saw Frank grabbing a scared Dean by the neck.

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