Give Me All Your Poison... Ummm No Thanks

We quickly sped off towards the hospital Marzia was having her surgery.

"Frank?" I said, barely above a whisper, as I blankly stared at me shoes.

"Yeah?" He puts his hand on my back in an attempt to comfort me.

"I thought she was going to be alright." I looked up to him with teary eyes. "What will I do without her? We've been together through everything."

"Midnight, I honestly can't tell you. But I can say that you shouldn't think of her as dying, just moving to a better place we have to meet her later on. She's just joining the black parade."

"Frank." I felt the tears silently pouring down my face. "I love you."

"I love you too." He replied as we pulled in front of the hospital and we both jumped from the car and dashed into the hospital.

"Midnight!" Felix yelled from across the hallway. Me and Frank quickly ran to him and I was engulfed into a hug.

"Felix. Where is she?" I asked, looking up into his tear stained face.

"She's gone." He said, pulling me back into a hug.

My my eyes just went wide. I wasn't there for my best friend. I was with my boyfriend while my friend was getting a major surgery. And now there is no saying goodbye, no hugging, no last words.

And the worst part was the last image of me she had was all my scars.

"Midnight?! Midnight?!" I came back to the real world and out Of my thoughts as Frank shook me by my shoulders.

"Oh god." I said. I pulled him close to me and cried into his chest.

"Shh, shh, I'm here. And I'm so so sorry." He he stroked my hair and hugged me. He was leading me somewhere.

"Frank!" I sobbed into his chest. "Th-the last thing she remembers of me are my s-scars! My scars!!!"

"Midnight." We suddenly stopped and we were face to face. "Marzia doesn't remember all the bad things about you, she only remembers the good times you had. The times you laughed together, the first time you met, the time you introduced her to Felix. Midnight, you made her life so much better, and even though she isn't here, doesn't mean she isn't able to help you."

"F-Frank. Y-You can't tell me th-this with one hu-hundred percent truth." I said, clenching him closer to me by his shirt.

"Midnight. Yes I can." He kept leading me somewhere.

"H-How?" I looked into his eyes.

"Marzia told me." He said, looking into my eyes. He seemed to get lost in them, like I did in his, but he quickly looked back in front of him and kept leading me down the hallway.

We ventured the hospital until we found the familiar tears stained faces of Anthony, Kalel, Chrysalis, Gerard, and Felix in a waiting room by the front.

"Midnight!" Chrysalis yelled as she ran over to me and engulfed me into a huge hug.

"I can't fucking do this anymore." I thought to myself.

"What?" Gerard said, looking into my eyes from where he was sitting with his head in his hands.

"What?" I asked. Shit. I thought that out loud. I looked around to see everyone was staring at me with their already sorrow filled eyes.

"You just said you can't do this anymore." He said, standing up and walking over to me. I cowered in fear as he stood tall over me, something I couldn't read in his eyes.

"S-Sorry." I said, looking at my soaked converse, clinging to my feet. I was surprised to be engulfed into a right hug.

"Midnight. I'm sorry." He whispered through my hair into my ear, so only I could hear him, even in the erie silence.

"Fow what Gerard? You've been nothing but good to me." I said back in a whisper.

"Me and Frank pressured you into... That situation at Felix's apartment... I'm sorry." He whispered into my ear softly before adding "I have scars too...."

I broke our hug slightly and peered into his hazel orbs. Their usually locked up emotions were spilling over the sides as I saw into Gerard for the first time. His eyes read fear, confusion, depression, sorrow, and sympathy.

"Why?" I was confused to why he would tell me this now, and why he would self harm of all people.

"I couldn't do it anymore... Only Mikey and now you know. Please don't tell anyone." he said, his eyes filling with a certain pleading a couldn't say no to.

"I won't tell a soul." I pulled him back into a hug. He was the first to let go and he went and sat again.

I looked over the faces of my once happy bunch. They were filled with unfamiliar sorrows and depressions only death could bring. I walked over to Felix, who looked to need the most comforting since everyone was off in their own worlds right now.

"Felix?" He looked up at me. The sight killed me. His usually playful face was pulled into an awful frown. His usually bright, happy eyes now grey and filled to the brim with utter sadness that was now spilling over the edges.

He didn't need to say anything, his look killed me and I sat next to him and pulled him into the biggest hug I could muster.

I felt him sobbing into my hair and I another his hair and the back of his sweater.

"My parents said they would be coming down." He said after the half an hour hug ended.

"That's good." I said, not wanting to force on any conversation in fear he might collapse.

"You and everyone else can finally meet them. I've boasted so much about all of you. How much you've helped and impacted my life." He looked into my eyes. It was so odd to not hear him crack a joke or laugh in all of his conversations.

"What about YouTube?" He simply lpoked at the ground.

"I just said I wouldn't be on in a few days because in going through a rough time... I don't know what to do with her account..."

"I can post a video explaining what's wrong if you can't. I can for both channels if you need." I wanted to help in every way, shape, or form because we all have lost a piece of ourselves today.

"I would be very thankful of that." He said. He reached out and grabbed his phone. "Do you want to do it now?"

"Sure."

Notes

Sorry for not updating. I was with family, and holidays and fuck-tiredness syndrome.

Thanks for reading.

~Anonymous, xoxo